I was so god-damned right.

I KNEW it would affect us.

And it really did.

Fuck life.

Dear God,

I know it is too late to try to make things right again, but can you actually make me recover from the wounds of the shards of glass piercing into me that come from the broken memories?
.................................................

Wow, somehow, through some retarded way, i might be earning money via designing.

PULL STRINGS PEOPLE, PULL MY STRINGS.

Pull my purse strings, loosen them, that's the best.

You know, i've been feeling damn depressed inside. I just can't stop crying at night, and it's just so ironic that i can laugh and spam 'HAHAHA' on msn when i'm still tearing.

I hate myself for being a total bitch to the people around me. I have a very bad temper, i am purely mean, cynical and critical.

Not that i got abused by my family members, but i feel so frickin sad for my family. YET, i am contributing to the sadness my family members receive.

All thought, no actions.

I really hate myself for taking for granted many many things. I always spend all my money away because there's a godfather, there's a 'i can always ask dad or mom or godfather for money'.

There's always a REASON for me to 'sin'.

And when i have a reason, no other reasons can kill this reason.

Plus all of a sudden i wished i never had fifi and peachy.

Because i know i will cry my eyes out if they leave me.

Today was hella fun.

Initially, Yurica and I planned to bake cookies at her place but she changed to shopping for her camping stuff, so off we went.

Met her and then took the bus to Orchard and it was a double decker bus. So while walking up the stairs, somehow her sandal came off and it sort of BOUNCED and it almost hit some botak's head. HAHAHAH.

While on the bus, we were laughing so much about the failure of some porno movies, and she imitated the way those angmoh's speak, you know, with that deeeep accent, and saying things like "fuck me bleh bleh" HAHAHA.

Went to Far East. Laughed at people who bounced their boobies, a man who had this cum-like bubble tea. We were in short making fun of almost everyone.

And we went to do manicure! (: I like my nails, and the little dog that was in the shop, damn cute lah. Although he kept barking when we first went in, he shut up after sniffing us.

Did our nails, and walked around more. I so so so can't wait for XMAS, then i can shop to my heart's content.

Went to Taka's, and had Crystal Jade. It's my first time there, and i think i like it more than Jack's Place already. =X I go to jacks place only for the sake of cute waiters

Walked even more and then came home. ._.

Why.

Why.

I cried again.

A-FUCKING-GAIN.

I can't move on. I really can't.

And as i blog this, i fucking feel like crying again.

Let's do a little bit of over-thinking.

If the God-Of-Fortune was my father, i would be :

1)Taller
2)Richer, duh.
3)Smarter.
4)Possibly classier, because he's quite a high class old man.
5)DEFINITELY not aspiring to be a graphic designer, i'ld probably be wanting to work as a lawyer, doctor, engineer.

The bad points are..

I am definitely nerdy, or maybe not since he's quite lenient at times. But i'll definitely not be the wild mayee you know, and i'll have long hair.

He's completely against me having those uber short hairstyles like the past btw.

Then my life will be so different, i'll never even get to know 'daddy'. Damn i feel like typing his name but i'm afraid of technorati.com -.-

I'll end up in a good school, and maybe be THAT GIRL he is crushing on, not the other way round.

Ah, i am too creative. =X

I really miss 'daddy', i've not seen him for a few months and it's really killing me. This will probably be the best cure for me and i'll get over him very soon, or so you and I think but i honestly feel i'll drag it all the way till the 2nd or 3rd quarter of 2007.

I know your flaws, but i love you all the same.

I spent a HELL lot of time and frustration doing this. Please zoom in, otherwise you won't be able to see the effect i done on the water and all, PLEASEEEE =X

Desaturate,filters, lab colours, layers and outer glows.






Pictures can be found from this.

ANOTHER ONE. .______.

Btw, we have a habit of anyhow typing and spamming because we're laughing too hard to be able to type "HAHAHA" =x



Verbiagelover. wo ai wo de hamsters he 'daddy' says:
UNCLE GIRAFFE

Verbiagelover. wo ai wo de hamsters he 'daddy' says:
PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Verbiagelover. wo ai wo de hamsters he 'daddy' says:
next time

Verbiagelover. wo ai wo de hamsters he 'daddy' says:
please gimme one

tReN^ says:
o.o.........

tReN^ says:
one?

Verbiagelover. wo ai wo de hamsters he 'daddy' says:
of your little barneys

Verbiagelover. wo ai wo de hamsters he 'daddy' says:
HAHAHAHA

tReN^ says:
.....

tReN^ says:
..

tReN^ says:
.

tReN^ says:
.

tReN^ says:
.

tReN^ says:
.

Verbiagelover. wo ai wo de hamsters he 'daddy' says:
WSUDFLJKS

tReN^ says:
u have

Verbiagelover. wo ai wo de hamsters he 'daddy' says:
'AHAHAHAH

tReN^ says:
a lot

Verbiagelover. wo ai wo de hamsters he 'daddy' says:
AAHAHA

tReN^ says:
after

tReN^ says:
the

tReN^ says:
verbal

tReN^ says:
****ing

tReN^ says:
HAHAHAH
tReN^ says:
AHAHHA
AHAHHA
hahA
HA
ha

Verbiagelover. wo ai wo de hamsters he 'daddy' says:
SDJIOFHSL;D

tReN^ says:
hahaHAHAH

tReN^ says:
ALL IN

tReN^ says:
UR TUMMY

Verbiagelover. wo ai wo de hamsters he 'daddy' says:
AJAHHAHA

Verbiagelover. wo ai wo de hamsters he 'daddy' says:
HSA;JHF;SJD'FSD'KF'SDK'

tReN^ says:
HAHAHAHa

tReN^ says:
AHHAHAHA

tReN^ says:
LMAO

Verbiagelover. wo ai wo de hamsters he 'daddy' says:
AHAHAHAHAH

tReN^ says:
NNB

Verbiagelover. wo ai wo de hamsters he 'daddy' says:
LOL

tReN^ says:
U TOOK

Verbiagelover. wo ai wo de hamsters he 'daddy' says:
HAHAHAHAHA

tReN^ says:
5 sec

tReN^ says:
to orgasm

Verbiagelover. wo ai wo de hamsters he 'daddy' says:
HAHAHAHAHAH

tReN^ says:
OMG

Verbiagelover. wo ai wo de hamsters he 'daddy' says:
HAHAHAHA

tReN^ says:
EFFICIENT

tReN^ says:
HAHAHAHA

tReN^ says:
AHHAHA

tReN^ says:
AHAHHA

tReN^ says:
AHAHAHAH



***********************************

Verbiagelover. wo ai wo de hamsters he 'daddy' says:
so late still drink coffee? o.o

tReN^ says:
LMAO ya

tReN^ says:
need to do a script ._.

tReN^ says:
scarly on wed

tReN^ says:
my presentation

tReN^ says:
i say

tReN^ says:
good morning kidddddddddies (in barney tone)

tReN^ says:
or rather

tReN^ says:
(in phedophile tone)

tReN^ says:
AHHAHAHAHA

tReN^ says:
AHAHHA

tReN^ says:
AHAHAH

Verbiagelover. wo ai wo de hamsters he 'daddy' says:
ahhahaha

tReN^ says:
den everyone will be like

Verbiagelover. wo ai wo de hamsters he 'daddy' says:
HAHAHAH

Verbiagelover. wo ai wo de hamsters he 'daddy' says:
LOL

Verbiagelover. wo ai wo de hamsters he 'daddy' says:
AHAHAHA

tReN^ says:
._. .............. wtf .|.

tReN^ says:
HAHAHAH

**********************************

Verbiagelover. wo ai wo de hamsters he 'daddy' says:
THERE WAS THIS MAN

Verbiagelover. wo ai wo de hamsters he 'daddy' says:
WHO RAPED

tReN^ says:
o.o

Verbiagelover. wo ai wo de hamsters he 'daddy' says:
A FEW

Verbiagelover. wo ai wo de hamsters he 'daddy' says:
SHEEPS

tReN^ says:
....

tReN^ says:
.

Verbiagelover. wo ai wo de hamsters he 'daddy' says:
THEN

Verbiagelover. wo ai wo de hamsters he 'daddy' says:
THE SHEEPS DIED

Verbiagelover. wo ai wo de hamsters he 'daddy' says:
NEWS HAVE BEFORE

Verbiagelover. wo ai wo de hamsters he 'daddy' says:
AHAHAHHAHAHA

tReN^ says:
not giraffes?

tReN^ says:
AHAHAHHA

tReN^ says:
AHAHAH

tReN^ says:
aHAHAHAH

Verbiagelover. wo ai wo de hamsters he 'daddy' says:
CANNOT LA

tReN^ says:
TOO HIGH

tReN^ says:
HAHAHA

Verbiagelover. wo ai wo de hamsters he 'daddy' says:
HAHAHAHA

Verbiagelover. wo ai wo de hamsters he 'daddy' says:
YA

tReN^ says:
AHAHHA

tReN^ says:
HE TAKE

tReN^ says:
LADDER

Verbiagelover. wo ai wo de hamsters he 'daddy' says:
LOL

tReN^ says:
AND

tReN^ says:
RAPE

Verbiagelover. wo ai wo de hamsters he 'daddy' says:
AHAHHAA

tReN^ says:
LADDER WTF WTF WTF

Verbiagelover. wo ai wo de hamsters he 'daddy' says:
AHAHAHAHA

tReN^ says:
HAWHAWHAHWHA

Verbiagelover. wo ai wo de hamsters he 'daddy' says:
AHAHHAHA

tReN^ says:
ARBO SAY

tReN^ says:
THOSE

Verbiagelover. wo ai wo de hamsters he 'daddy' says:
AHAHAH

tReN^ says:
U KNOW....... THE CONSTRUCTION SITE THOSE CRANE

Verbiagelover. wo ai wo de hamsters he 'daddy' says:
HHAHAHAHA

tReN^ says:
DEN NEXT TIME

Verbiagelover. wo ai wo de hamsters he 'daddy' says:
SO FUNNY

Verbiagelover. wo ai wo de hamsters he 'daddy' says:
HAHAHA

tReN^ says:
U SEE THOSE PAINTER

tReN^ says:
WITH LADDERS

tReN^ says:
U BURST OUR LAFFING

tReN^ says:
DEN THEY

tReN^ says:
WTF *STARE AT U*

tReN^ says:
LMAOOOOOOOOO

tReN^ says:
AHAHHAHAHAA

******************************

I temporarily unlocked my blog, because i have something VERY funny to share...

PS - This whole convo relates around laughter = sex =x

Verbiagelover. says:
i suddenly

Verbiagelover. says:
have

Verbiagelover. says:
a very

tReN^ says:
HAHAHAHAH WAD

Verbiagelover. says:
sick thought

Verbiagelover. says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Verbiagelover. says:
AHAHAHAHA

Verbiagelover. says:
I DUN WAN SAY

tReN^ says:
WAD WAD WAD

Verbiagelover. says:
LOL

Verbiagelover. says:
AHAHAHAHA

tReN^ says:
SAY

Verbiagelover. says:
how do i put it across

tReN^ says:
O M F G

Verbiagelover. says:
TSK

Verbiagelover. says:
LETS SEE

Verbiagelover. says:
AHAHAHAHHA

tReN^ says:
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA

Verbiagelover. says:
ALAMAK

Verbiagelover. says:
NVM

Verbiagelover. says:
LATER

Verbiagelover. says:
U SURE SAY

tReN^ says:
WAD LAR

Verbiagelover. says:
I SICK

Verbiagelover. says:
AHAHAHAH

tReN^ says:
SAY NOW

tReN^ says:
HAHAHA

tReN^ says:
I ALREADY

tReN^ says:
TINK U ARE

tReN^ says:
SO NO DIFF

tReN^ says:
HAHAHAHA

tReN^ says:
LMAO

Verbiagelover. says:
AHAHAHAHAHA

Verbiagelover. says:
WAIT

Verbiagelover. says:
LET ME THINK

Verbiagelover. says:
OF HOW TO SAY IT

Verbiagelover. says:
AHAHAHA

tReN^ says:
LMAO

Verbiagelover. says:
OHH

Verbiagelover. says:
you see ah

tReN^ says:
o.o

Verbiagelover. says:
if laughter was equivalent to SEX RIGHT

Verbiagelover. says:
I THINK

tReN^ says:
HAHA

tReN^ says:
.......

Verbiagelover. says:
U CAN BLOODY HELL

tReN^ says:
OMG

Verbiagelover. says:
BRING UR WIFE

tReN^ says:
AHHAHAHA

Verbiagelover. says:
TO CLIMAX

tReN^ says:
AHAHHAHA

Verbiagelover. says:
AHAHAHA

Verbiagelover. says:
AHSD

Verbiagelover. says:
S

tReN^ says:
AHAHHAHA

Verbiagelover. says:
I BANGED MY KEYBOARD

Verbiagelover. says:
AHAHHAHA

Verbiagelover. says:
LOL

tReN^ says:
AHA

tReN^ says:
H

tReN^ says:
AHA

tReN^ says:
HAHAHA

tReN^ says:
HAHA

Verbiagelover. says:
LOL


*****************************************

tReN^ says:
THAT DAY U MSG ME UNCLE GIRAFFE RITE

tReN^ says:
ON THAT SAME DAY

tReN^ says:
MY 3 FRENZ

tReN^ says:
WHO WERE IN THE SAME CLASS

tReN^ says:
WERE ON THIS MSN CONVO

tReN^ says:
DEN WE SITTING ONE ROW

tReN^ says:
WE WERE TALKING

tReN^ says:
DEN

tReN^ says:
MY FREN SAID

tReN^ says:
"I wanna dick slap the teacher man " (Reminded of the giraffe dick slap thing =x)

tReN^ says:
KNN

tReN^ says:
DEN

tReN^ says:
I WAS

Verbiagelover. says:
AHAHHA

tReN^ says:
BITING MY TONGUE

tReN^ says:
DEN

Verbiagelover. says:
AAHAHHAHA

Verbiagelover. says:
LOL

tReN^ says:
STILL

tReN^ says:
CANNOT MAKE IT

tReN^ says:
I START TO.......

tReN^ says:
LEAK LAUGHTER

tReN^ says:
DEN.......

tReN^ says:
REN BU ZHU

tReN^ says:
DEN

tReN^ says:
BOOM

tReN^ says:
I START LAFFING LIKE MAD

tReN^ says:
KNNB

tReN^ says:
DEN

Verbiagelover. says:
LOL

tReN^ says:
DEN THE TEACHER "why u so happy trent?"

Verbiagelover. says:
AHHAHAAH

tReN^ says:
den i was like............ "nth....... (giggle) nth....... (giggle)"

tReN^ says:
NNB

tReN^ says:
HAHAHAHAHAHHA

tReN^ says:
AHAHAHHAHAA

Verbiagelover. says:
LOL

tReN^ says:
SHIT MAN


LOL TRENT CHECK OUT THE FUNKY PURPLE, BARNEY YO YOYO =X
****************************************
tReN^ says:
oh man

tReN^ says:
if we were

tReN^ says:
bf and gf

tReN^ says:
i tell u

tReN^ says:
we go cinema

tReN^ says:
oso

tReN^ says:
noisy

Verbiagelover. says:
LOL

tReN^ says:
go library

Verbiagelover. says:
AHAHAHAHA

tReN^ says:
get chased out

Verbiagelover. says:
LOL

tReN^ says:
in 10 sec

tReN^ says:
wtf

Verbiagelover. says:
HAHAHA

tReN^ says:
we like

tReN^ says:
walk in laffing

tReN^ says:
inside le

tReN^ says:
still laffing

tReN^ says:
den

tReN^ says:
try walking up the stairs the librarian say "HALT! YOU SHALL NOT PASS!"

tReN^ says:
den

tReN^ says:
*STOMP GANDALF'S STICK ON THE FLOOR*

tReN^ says:
AHHAHAHA

tReN^ says:
HAHAHA

Verbiagelover. says:
HAHAHAHA


*************************


tReN^ says:
IMAGINE

tReN^ says:
A BARNEY EPISODE

Verbiagelover. says:
HAHAHAHAHA

tReN^ says:
the starting header is

tReN^ says:
"Barney Gone Punk"

tReN^ says:
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHA

tReN^ says:
HAHAHA

Verbiagelover. says:
AHAHAHAHAHA

tReN^ says:
HAAHHAHAHA

tReN^ says:
den the starting song is

Verbiagelover. says:
HAHAHAHAHAHA

tReN^ says:
Yo yo yo everyone, can ya feel the wubin~~~

Verbiagelover. says:
AHAGAHAHAHA

tReN^ says:
I love you yo yo

Verbiagelover. says:
HAHAHAHAHA

tReN^ says:
You love me yoyo yo

*******

tReN^ says:
AHHAHAHA

tReN^ says:
MAYEE

tReN^ says:
U

tReN^ says:
NOT

tReN^ says:
OF AGE

tReN^ says:
AHHAHA

tReN^ says:
NEITHER AM I

tReN^ says:
AHAHHAHAHA

tReN^ says:
OMFG.......

tReN^ says:
arrrrrrrrr

Verbiagelover. says:
GAHAHAHAA

Verbiagelover. says:
._.


tReN^ says:
oh man......

tReN^ says:
oh man oh man oh man

tReN^ says:
ARRRRRRRRR

tReN^ says:
AHHAHAHAHA

tReN^ says:
I BET

tReN^ says:
I CAN

tReN^ says:
LOOK AND U

tReN^ says:
AND START LAFFING MY ASS OFF

tReN^ says:
AHHAHAHAHHA

Verbiagelover. says:
LOL

Verbiagelover. says:
AHAHHAHAHA

Verbiagelover. says:
I CAN DO THE SAME

Verbiagelover. says:
AHAHHAA

tReN^ says:
DEN LATER SOMEONE CLIMAX

tReN^ says:
AHAHHAHA

Verbiagelover. says:
AHAHAHAHA

Verbiagelover. says:
AHAHAHAHA

tReN^ says:
NOT ME

tReN^ says:
AHHAHAHA

Verbiagelover. says:
HAHAHAHAHA

************


Verbiagelover. says:
30 MINS

Verbiagelover. says:
CAN LAUGH SO MUCH

Verbiagelover. says:
OMG

tReN^ says:
OMG

Verbiagelover. says:
LOL

Verbiagelover. says:
HAHAHAHAHAHA

tReN^ says:
WRONG

Verbiagelover. says:
?

tReN^ says:
WRONG

Verbiagelover. says:
...

Verbiagelover. says:
WHAT?

Verbiagelover. says:
FUCK?

Verbiagelover. says:
AHAHHAHAA

Verbiagelover. says:
WHATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT?

tReN^ says:
30 MINUTES OF VIGOROUS FUCKING


*******************

tReN^ says:
DRINKING MY COFFEE

tReN^ says:
DEN I LOOKED UP

tReN^ says:
SAW UR BLOODY NICK( the yoyoyo everyone can ya fee da wubin~~ etc)

tReN^ says:
AHhH

tReN^ says:
AH

tReN^ says:
AHAHAHAHHAAHAHAHAHA

Verbiagelover. says:
HAHAHAHA

tReN^ says:
FUCKKKKKKK HAHAHAH I SPIT IT

Verbiagelover. says:
AHAHAHAA

tReN^ says:
ON MY KEYBOARD

Verbiagelover. says:
AHAHHAHAHAHAA

Verbiagelover. says:
LOL

tReN^ says:
AHHAHAHA

tReN^ says:
TOO MUCH

Verbiagelover. says:
YAY

tReN^ says:
I CANT TAKE IT

tReN^ says:
I TELL U

Verbiagelover. says:
I AM POWERFUL

Verbiagelover. says:
I CAN MAKE PEOPLE SPIT COFFEE LOL

tReN^ says:
IF THIS WAS REALLY VERBAL FUCKING

Verbiagelover. says:
AHAHAHAHAHAH

tReN^ says:
MY DICK SWOLLEN LE

Verbiagelover. says:
AHAHAHHA

tReN^ says:
AHHAHAHA

Verbiagelover. says:
I KNEW IT

Verbiagelover. says:
I WAS EXPECTING

tReN^ says:
OMG

Verbiagelover. says:
YOUI TO SAY

Verbiagelover. says:
SOMETHING LIKE THATLOL

Verbiagelover. says:
AHAHAHAH

tReN^ says:
UR ( Y ) SWOLLEN?

tReN^ says:
AHHAHAHAHA

tReN^ says:
HAHAHAH

Verbiagelover. says:
AHAHHAHA

Verbiagelover. says:
AAHAHAHHAA

**************
tReN^ says:
i spit coffee ma

tReN^ says:
den i wipe ma

tReN^ says:
den

tReN^ says:
my keyboard now still sticky

tReN^ says:
AHAHAHAHAHAH TOO MUCH VERBAL FUCKING

tReN^ says:
AHHAHAHAHHAAHHAAAHHA

tReN^ says:
AHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA

tReN^ says:
HAHAHAHAHHAA

tReN^ says:
NNB

tReN^ says:
ITS ALL OVER MY KEYBOARD

tReN^ says:
ahhHAHAHAHHAHAHA

tReN^ says:
AHAHHAHA

tReN^ says:
WTF

*************************

Omg wouldn't it be great if i had a mentor for graphic design(and make that THE HOT AL please omg *drooooooool)

Because the problem i am encountering now is not lack of creativity, i have plenty of ideas up my head, but i am just so BLOODY LAZY to get down to it.

I might also be a little too terrified of creating 'ugly things', because i honestly just shut the whole photoshop down if i don't like what i'm making. Which is BAD of course, because one of the things an artist should do is to keep trying no matter what, and not run away the each time i don't like what i'm doing. It kills your creativity.

2 years on my own, going over my own problems has tired me out.

LOL I WANT A MENTOR, but i can dream on. ._.

Boys and girls, here's my masterpiece.


Please zoom in, and see who's included in my masterpiece =D

Somebody really loves this piece.

tReN^ says:
dudette
tReN^ says:
that
tReN^ says:
.........
tReN^ says:
that made my day
tReN^ says:
AHHAHAHAHAHAH
tReN^ says:
AHHAHAHA

As the definition of 'cute' goes..cute = ugly + adorable, that's so godddamned true.

A shows me 'daddy' 's most recent picture.

My immediate response? "WTF, SO UGLY"

But i'm still so gaga over him.

HOOO i am happy again. I feel so proud of myself, i made the tablet work on my own!

It works just like a mouse, but i am honestly not used to pointing it everywhere on the board, so i end up holding the laser pen and then using my own mouse. This is so fun. =X

=D

HOOO, NEW BREAKTHROUGH. Except that i was using nicholas' account =x.

140bpm 8k FM xD

I tell you, i have to be really high and concentrating like hell to do that, the speed was like, way beyond my own comfortable speed please. <_<

The sec 3 BBQ wasn't well received, nevertheless it was still fun because the guys were clowns. I am tired to list down all the funny things, but it was funny to watch Mary running into the centre of the track and doing some funny action while asking the passerbys to give her 50 cents.

I can only remember..my terrified self when i thought the waves washed my slippers away, TWICE, I SCREAMED OKAY, but it was damn funny lah. Scary too, especially when it's night time. I didn't know Singapore had a beautiful skyline.

Thank God Felicia's mom gave us a lift home, or else i'ld probably still be walking home from the bus stop at this time.

I wanted to cry many times today, especially when i looked at the skies, when the car passed down the highway, when the waves didn't touch my feet. All these reminded me of something, sigh.

I don't know if it's the same about you, but have you ever wondered if Heaven lies behind that beautiful sky? I always think about Heaven whenever i see really pretty clouds, with rays of sunlight pouring through.

Before i left the 'beach', i wrote something on the sand..

I love ____________ .

Maybe if horrible things didn't happen to us, maybe we can last all the way till we grow old and die.

EVERYONE! LOOK!


I even added some blurring filter to it to make it more dramatic, tsk.

I can't believe it. I spent about 3-4 hours today doing maths, MATHS, and MORE maths.

Whereas i spent less than 1 hour playing Audition.

I feel kinda weird actually, but it's okay, real life shopping malls are much better than a virtual fashion mall which requires me to pay real cash for virtual items. HAHAHAAHA, finally, some enlightenment.

I can't wait to do my ATM card, and then enjoy from a sum of money from him which will be deposited into my account monthly, and also save up on my own and go for CHRISTMAS shopping, especially those super hot midnight sales.

This is how the bebe dress looks.

Except the one i want is red, with black pokka dots. It is SO FUCKING PRETTY. *SOB*

I can choose what i want for XMAS. I will be getting myself some clothes, and meanwhile i am between a wacom tablet and the magazine subscription.

The magazine will definitely save me time(and some money)of going to the bookshop every month, and also saving up for each issue. Moreover, it teaches me alot of techniques and features artworks which might just spark my creativity again.

The tablet will allow me to put illustrator to a much better use, especially when i'm beginning to see some magic, although i am seeing the magic at a rate that is 10 times slower than how i see the magic in Photoshop.

I DON'T KNOW. T_T

Okay back to mugging, fuck.

Hi, my name is Fifi. I am close to 2 years old, and all of my owner's friends are asking her when I'll die. I wonder too, and death is inevitable but i hope i won't die so soon because my owner will definitely cry buckets for me. I hope i can live as long as i can to keep her company because there isn't 'daddy' anymore.

She takes me for her photography subject ; I am a model. I have a very round and fat butt which sways sexily from left to right when i sashay through my mess of sawdust, shit, and scattered hamster food.

She loves to put things on my head, except for a knife. (Link : Hamsters as fighting machines)




I don't know what's so amusing, that box is way too small and i look like a gay hamster in it.

Although Verbiagelover is a weird yet passionate hamster owner who 'whacks' me with her index finger whenever i bite her too many times, i have to say i enjoy talking to her. She will ask me lame questions like 'how are you', and repeat them, that stupid girl, she doesn't know i can't reply verbally.


Alright, i have to go. Typing this is equivalent to me running the hamster wheel an entire night, i have to run around her keyboard to type this. I also left a piece of shit on the table for her to clean later. Not to mention my back is still aching because that VERBIATCH girl left me on her chair while she attended to something else and i fell off.

Another stupid post.

I AM STILL THINKING, of that damn expensive dress.

It's the first thing the caught the eyes of a 'no-lifer', after like 2 months?

Why must it be $359, and not $35.90 =x

Because it's BEBE!

...fuck it.

I even thought of it before i slept last night, i was thinking of how to raise that hefty sum of money.

Maybe if i get my creative juices flowing again then i'll go freelance again, but i hope, i REALLY hope, i don't meet any sick people again.

Fancy telling me shit like " Hi can i meet you soon because i am going overseas soon", "..to be the prime minister of some country"

There was this fucker, who actually DENIED that he sent the message after i replied with a 'fuck off'.

I'll show everyone his friendster profile soon when i find it. xD

If he was hot and around my age, i probably wouldn't mind. But the thing is, he is some horrible 22 year old with an orange for his complexion.

.......

THAT DRESSS AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

So sad.

I am quite certain i am getting my 'life' back, because when i play audition, i get bored out.

I've lost the drive to level up and basically to win.

ISN'T THAT GOOD?

Probably due to the fact that i saw alot of people and also that omfg-but-it's-$350 Bebe dress.

People = A few hot guys, which convinced me that audition characters are not as hot as real life characters HAHAHAH

Good, good.

When my 'life' comes back, i'll definitely be a camwhore again. LOL.

That dress....................................................*SOB*

VL is depressed.

Because she REALLY likes that dress.

Omg please.

$359, even if i were to save for a year, i won't have it.

Especially when i spend my savings away the moment it reaches $20.

=((((((((((((

TRENT the GIRAFFE

tReN^ - When I Look Into Your Eyes... says:
Hi.

tReN^ - When I Look Into Your Eyes... says:
My name is Barney.

Want 6 packs? Talk to Trent the Giraffe for 6 packs, guaranteed to come within 1 month. says:
LOLLOL

Want 6 packs? Talk to Trent the Giraffe for 6 packs, guaranteed to come within 1 month. says:
AHAHAHHA

tReN^ - When I Look Into Your Eyes... says:
I amuse the hell outta people.

tReN^ - When I Look Into Your Eyes... says:
I love young people, but I am not a phedophile.

tReN^ - When I Look Into Your Eyes... says:
When I am rich, I won't buy you that dress.

tReN^ - When I Look Into Your Eyes... says:
I'll expand my Barney Empire and take over the world!

Yurica called me out around 12pm. Initially, planned to watch Step Up, but we changed our minds. Decided to go Vivo City, and anyway i don't mind because i have never window shopped although it is like my 3rd time there, the first 2 times were lame. I merely walked PAST the shops. Didn't even go in and browse.

The first thing she said to me, was :
"WAH, GOT BEHIND ALREADY! But in front still small. HAHAHA..."

<_<


Met her at the bus stop and hurriedly boarded the bus, reached Vivo, walked around before meeting MJY. That guy, he told us to meet him at the entrance of Best, which had 2 entrances -_________-

Started to hunt for his clothes for tomorrow, bla bla.

The funny part was at Tangs. We saw this shirt, ugly floral prints from PUMA, and the material was silky and there's this sound if you rub the 2 sides together. We looked at the price tag, $249!

Then i went to look at the price for the long sleeve one, $449. MJY said " WAH, each sleeve $100" HAHAHA, then we laughed non-stop inside the whole shop. =x

We were at MiniToons, then there's this tissuebox cover in the form of a puppet, you pull down his undies, and he'll reveal his hairy kukujiao. HHAHAHAHA

I showed Yurica and we laughed like mad, then we brought MJY into the shop. That guy, he didn't even know what was so funny about it, he kept touching the doll's ass, and yurica kept saying"Close", untill we showed him.

Laughed again. I quote yurica, "Processed hair, rebonded!"

AHHAHAHA.

Further on, made fun of brand names like FCUK which you have to be there to get the drift, and walked around, got his shirt and then settled for a meal.

I AM VERY CRAZY OVER THIS BEBE dress pleaseeeeeeeeeee, but it's $300 plus, zomg, so sad. I really like the dress. I won't be able to get it even if i start working now. Sigh.

Somebody buy it for me please? Christmas present.

God-of-fortune is going to buy me a year's subscription of Computerarts magazine for my christmas present which is close to $300.

HMMM, maybe i should ask him to buy me that dress instead. =(

When i looked into the mirror today, i realised i changed. I am changing for somebody who is worth changing for, and when i know i am almost there, maybe give me another 6 months, i am further assured that i don't want to let go. I want to try again.

Verbiagelover says:
^._^ (Moley smiley)

Verbiagelover says:
LOL

` belinda says:
^o_^ <-- B one x= Verbiagelover says:
HAHAHAHA

` belinda says:
wa abit big

` belinda says:
o:

Verbiagelover says:
LOL

Verbiagelover says:
LOL

Verbiagelover says:
^._^

` belinda says:
wa lao stop la dun so bad

` belinda says:
x=

Verbiagelover the moley smoley ^._^ says:
HAHA

` belinda says:
u see the B one bigger and more poppy

Verbiagelover the moley smoley ^._^ says:
LOL

Verbiagelover the moley smoley ^._^ says:
SCULLY

Verbiagelover the moley smoley ^._^ says:
IN FUTURE

Verbiagelover the moley smoley ^._^ says:
MY SON/DAUGHTER

Verbiagelover the moley smoley ^._^ says:
ALSO LIKE THAT

` belinda says:
LOL

Verbiagelover the moley smoley ^._^ says:
OMGGG JIALAT

` belinda says:
HAHAHA

Verbiagelover the moley smoley ^._^ says:
AHAHHAHA

` belinda says:
I LAUGH

` belinda says:
LOL

` belinda says:
later new yr go visit eh mayee!

Verbiagelover the moley smoley ^._^ says:
OMG

Verbiagelover the moley smoley ^._^ says:
........

` belinda says:
-ur kids come out

Verbiagelover the moley smoley ^._^ says:
HAHAHAHA

Verbiagelover the moley smoley ^._^ says:
STFU

Verbiagelover the moley smoley ^._^ says:
AHAHAHHA

Verbiagelover the moley smoley ^._^ says:
CHOY

` belinda says:
-looks at the moles

Verbiagelover the moley smoley ^._^ says:
AHAHHA

` belinda says:
-runs away

Verbiagelover the moley smoley ^._^ says:
SO MEAN

Verbiagelover the moley smoley ^._^ says:
LOL

` belinda says:
LOL

I am going to be condemned by my neighbours.

While stepping out of the house, reading an sms from ____ which was no doubt very funny,(private joke), i was laughing very loudly, so loudly that i slammed the door loudly as well.

It was so loud that the baby next door woke up and cried. (My neighbours left their door open, stupid. =x)

____ , go die lah.

Maybe my hamsters really have powers.

I did my level 19 license(like a test) for like, i think close to 10 times, not exceeding.

Before i went to do my last attempt, i talked to the both of them.
"FIFI! Peach! I failed my license! How? Make me pass?" and then i patted them

Voila, i chained x5, missed my fm, but still passed.

LOL. I am so drained please, the damned license really drained me.

I miss 'Daddy'. I just realise i'll never get to bump into him in the corridoors anymore, and i'm beginning to even forget how he looks. T.T

Wtf. I am so bored and sleepy, too tired to play Audition. Can't level up by today already. ._.

I was waiting for _______'s sms as usual, and i hoped that he would just send me some jokes so i'll laugh(i laughed in public when i saw his joke one time -.-) and not feel so bored, then i got so excited when i had one sms came in.

"Have you done your maths exercise already" - God-of-fortune.

WAH LAO EH, so anti-climax.

And of course i was so bored i really did some maths before _____'s message came.


This blonde guy is sooo hot.

Some Audition screenshots. =X

Played with couple dance with zen. We always pretend to be a couple if people ask.

"Come dar, let's chain" =X


I love this one, no chance, maybe only once.XD


This one is a friggin miracle.


Check out her score. xD

For awhile i thought i wasn't going to be online for a couple of days. If that were to happen, i'll miss audition, i'll miss tissue, hc, zen etc etc, my usual playmates.

I also can't take my mom anymore, and i'll repeat what i said, i'll move out. It's not because of this 2 incidents, if you know me long and well enough, you'll know.

So she was like lamenting, then she touched the socket, and there were fucking sparks inside. Then there was no internet connection anymore.

I was telling tissue, "Eh sia lah, from the 4 of us, become 3, then now 2. Who will be next? Stay tuned on the next episode =x"

She'll be going off for camp soon. BAHAHAHA. =x

I was damn pissed off today :
1) My sister is still trying to use my computer, despite me disabling the guest accounts and changing my pw to AL's hp number HAHAHAHAHA

2)My dad was inside my room whilst i was sleeping, I WOKE UP THOUGH, and he tried to use my computer too. Kaninabu. (Shut up if you don't know things happening in my family.)

3)IT'S FUCKING 8AM IN THE MORNING(though i slept damn early last night), and my mom is here scolding me because i used her new towel, i cut it and i used it to clean my room.

0__0 In the first place, it's only $2, which she insists that i am wasting, secondly, what am i wasting? I am not burning it away, i am using it to CLEAN MY ROOM,i am so fucking obedient already?

Honestly, i hate my family members.

The only person who totally understands me is the god-of-fortune, i am not kidding. Although he'll say that i'm in the wrong, at least he fucking understands if i explain, and won't continue blaming me or whatsoever.

But for these 2 bitchasses at home, i feel like Cinderella.

Except that i won't ever meet my prince, because he's gone away. While walking home yesterday, i've decided i won't let go.

I feel so omfg pissed whenever i see my mom/sister. Really annoyed. Bitchasses.

Today was a shit day, TOTALLY SHITTY/CRAPPY/FUCKED UP day.

I lost my EZ link card for the 3rd time, in a span of less than 4 months. Applause please?

I wouldn't have lost mine today if my mom wasn't so screwed up so as to call me down when i told her earlier to go to the place by herself first.

So she scolded me so bloody loudly at the bus stop and on the bus, that i think i dropped my card.

._.

The only highlight of the day was the meal at Jack's Place, and also Tissue1Dollar messaging me funny things to at least make me stop showing attitude to the people around me.

I was being a real mean ass. God-of-fortune got me ice cream to appease me, and i said,

"No thanks, i only eat high class icecream, like Haagen Daz."

And when i was offered a piece of chocolate mousse cake,

"NO, I DON'T EAT THIS."

HAHAHAHAH =x Then i was brought to Basheer, where i bought another issue of Computer Arts magazine. He's going to buy me a subscripted issues, good. Alot of money and time will be saved.

To avoid being found out by my mom about the EZ Link card issue, i seized the chance to go off whilst they were browsing home at the bookstore. Walked around like some idiot because i couldn't find the taxi stand. Didn't help that i almost got banged by a car because i was busying messaging people. =X

The taxi driver was equally fucked up, he asked me to direct him.

Him : You stay here how long already?
Me : 10 years and more, why?
Him : Then you should know the way what! Bla bla..
Me : ... I also don't drive.
Him : *Rattles on and on*

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.

Came home, transferred one of my design onto this box of mine, where i keep all my gifts etc etc, precious things, or things that hold a sentimental value like his 'test paper'.

The drawing part was fine, and it looked totally GREAT, not after i started painting it. My painting sucks. I really wonder how graffiti artists like ZERO do it, on a wall somemore. Mine is only an A4 sized box, and i'm struggling already. @_@

I am damn pissed with my sister, and that's the first fucking thing in the morning.

I don't get it okay - my mom sides her like all the time.

She's the one who instigated me in arguing back, because she said "why must you wear this shirt", then i said " this one matches my skirt what, moreover, my favourite white top lost already."

Then she continued, "must be never bring to wash?", then i said "more like bring to wash but fly away."


SHE FUCKING SAID,

"You don't talk to me like that"

Since when did i talk to her like 'that'?

My mom could just stand there and say to me that i'm a nasty trouble maker. WTF?

She uses my computer(because hers is spoilt) almost everyday, and i keep my mouth shut. NOW, i shall disable the fucking guest account and change my own account's password. Bloody high security, i don't give a fuck.

Because of that, i shall be very evil and go on a shopping trip later. I'll throw my tantrums untill i get what i want to eat, and just be FUCKING MEAN.

Don't buy for me? *Show my bloody black face untill i get it* =X

I am totally excited when i think about Jack's Place. If you've read my wtf-is-wrong-with-Grillers'-service entry, all the more you'll understand my addiction to it.

The food is really good, although it may be a little on the high end side, it's worth it. My mom told me quite awhile back that since very young, i've been frequenting that restaurant. O__O Does that mean the waiters have met me since i was a kid? <_<

I love weekends spent with the god-of-fortune at the Bras Basah Complex, because we'll eat, then go to Basheer bookstore. It sells books mostly on hobbies, and there are a TON of photoshop-related books and magazines. Then i'll happily buy either PhotoshopMagazine or ComputerArts magazine home. =D

It is such a rare sight to see my hamsters active, it is getting rarer and rarer. T.T

I really fear the day my hamsters die. =S

I miss the mornings when i'll wake up and find that there's a sms from a very important person in my inbox.

It'll make me feel like my day will be good.

My personal conclusion about the local designer is no local designer is as good as hejz, who is a designer from Poland.

AND I AM SO GOD-DAMNED TRUE.

I found this guy, 17, in America, who is so darn good in photoshop, illustrator and cinema4d.

._.

Look at me.

I can't even use illustrator properly without screwing up. So it's like i just know Photoshop?

My inferiority complex strikes again.

Hoho, time to jia you. T_T

- Jiefenq ' says:
so many things

- Jiefenq ' says:
put fire la

- Jiefenq ' says:
easier to clear

- Jiefenq ' says:
LOL

- Jiefenq ' says:
like the indo

- Jiefenq ' says:
clear forest

I emptied one whole plastic tank(60 by 60cm i think) of CLOTHES, AND MORE CLOTHES.
It's even spilling over the black trash bag. ._.

I HAVE SO MUCH STATIONERY. Each file i have is of a different colour, and there are at least 2 of the same colour, not to mention how much crayons/colour pencils/yadda yadda i have.

It is..scary.

I think i really would have been a fucking genius if i made use of all that stationery.

*Wades through the mess of stationery*

We all know my performance at anything SUCKS the moment i say, "I am sleepy". Heck, i almost fell down this morning while walking up the stairs in school lor. TSK. HAHAHA

Because i missed alot of level 9s, blame it on the fact that i was too tired, i stoned, and also i was too confident. Like sometimes you expected the keys to be like 'that', but you got tricked, you know?

SO YEAH, THIS GUY WAS LIKE so arrogant, then later on RaiHa came in. Made fun of that guy till he went offline LOL.



580K, x11, no chance. Rofl.


This SS damn funny. =X


I bumped into him the 2nd time later, and he said that he'll marry me if we meet the 3rd time.
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LOL I REALLY SAW HIM LATER. -__________________________-

***

I realised we never really get over a person. Physicall yes, mentally maybe. Because most of the time we just bury that person deep in our hearts, but we never really take them out of it.

I am also not kidding when i say i love 'daddy' and i don't want to let go. I like the fact that i can actually dwell in things that happened 2 years ago, for 30 freaking months.

Very random, very sudden.

I AM SICK OF AUDITION.


LOL, okay not totally sick of it yet, but the thought of advancing to level 19, which is still FAR is scaring me, which leads me to another question, how did all the level 3x people do it? ._.

And it's high time i got my life back. My life of only-late-night-then-got-mood-to-photoshop-and-not-audition activities.

W said this to me. "You are so funny, at night then can photoshop? When you grow up and get married, at night then got mood to have sex. "

That's why i want to marry a graphic designer also right. =x

HAHAHAAAHAHHAHA =X

This applies to everyone.

Why do you fucking think i give a fuck about your fucked up life?

LOL, NICE SENTENCE RIGHT.

But really, what makes you think i give a shit lol.

I am a very fussy person.

But there's just one thing that i'll accept and love all the same even if it is as filthy as a stagnant drain.

'Daddy'.

I'm shocked to find out that i really can tolerate whatever nonsense of his.

I was sleeping halfway, then i woke up.

The FIRST THING I HEARD.

"MOMMY! I GOT A JOB ALREADY! I'M WORKING AT THAI EXPRESS! TOMORROW!"

T____________________________T

I WANT A JOB TOO.

Because i really want to buy alot of things.

I am paid so fucking little to do exercises, it's like $4 a day, which is around my holiday allowance - without work.

Moreover, given that i study 2hours per day, that's only $2 an hour!

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

I HATE LIFE.

FUCK IT.

Life totally sucks.

I've cancelled the attachment, because i am paid too little.

AND ANYWAY, i am strictly forbidden from going to work.

I am only allowed to 'work' at home, which is do to more and more maths exercises.

For each chapter i do, i get paid a fucking miserable amount of $2.

So i finish both 3A and 3B, which has only like 14 chapters, that's only $28.

..And i take like at least 7 days? So i earn $4 a day.

HOW MISERABLE.

I hate life.

Another way, is to go do freelancing, which i am really lazy to do.

I just cancelled one.

Continued from this.

Lucky tReN^ (: says:
SABO ME AT SCHOOL

Lucky tReN^ (: says:
WAH LANZ

Verbiagelover . I'll be sent to my-auntie's-house concentration camp very soon. NNB. says:
HAHAHAHA

Lucky tReN^ (: says:
......

Lucky tReN^ (: says:
really lor

Lucky tReN^ (: says:
......

Lucky tReN^ (: says:
and not only my teacher saw

Lucky tReN^ (: says:
my whole grp saw osoooooooo

Lucky tReN^ (: says:
OMGGGGGG

Verbiagelover . says:
HUH

Verbiagelover . says:
LOL

Verbiagelover . says:
LOL

Verbiagelover . says:
LOL

Verbiagelover . says:
HAHAHA

Verbiagelover . says:
THEN THEN

Lucky tReN^ (: says:
DEN NNB LAR

Verbiagelover . says:
...

Lucky tReN^ (: says:
ALL LAFF LAR

Lucky tReN^ (: says:
WTH

Lucky tReN^ (: says:
X_X

Verbiagelover . says:
FINE

Verbiagelover . says:
THEN NEXT TIME

Verbiagelover . says:
DONT MSN

Lucky tReN^ (: says:
HAHAHAHA

Lucky tReN^ (: says:
its ok lar

Lucky tReN^ (: says:
lolz

Verbiagelover . says:
<_<

Verbiagelover . says:
..

Verbiagelover . says:
will your teacher

Verbiagelover . says:
forget your name is trent

Lucky tReN^ (: says:
HAHAHAHHA

Verbiagelover . says:
and call you giraffe in future?

Lucky tReN^ (: says:
BHAHAHAHa

Lucky tReN^ (: says:
STFU

Lucky tReN^ (: says:
LOOOOOOOOL

Verbiagelover . says:
<_<

Verbiagelover . says:
how about ur classmates

Verbiagelover . says:
HAHA

Verbiagelover . says:
UR CLASSMATES CALL UR BARNEY

Lucky tReN^ (: says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAH

I need about $200-$300.

I want to go on a shopping spree, because i think it has been a FEW MONTHS since i decently went out and felt like a girl. (LOL)

For the past few months since August, i have been indulging in

1)The art of slacking at home
2)The art of pretending to be studying
3)Audition

So much that i just realised i've not been my usual self, i would usually be saying i want to go to Zara and look at the clothes, or at least think of what i want to buy.

But for now, everyday after school is computer games.

HAHA, SO PLEASE DONATE SOME MONEY TO MAKE VERBIAGELOVER VERBIAGELOVER AGAIN. ^^V

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA


In case you don't know, i always call Trent auntie or uncle giraffe. Then...

Lucky tReN^ (: says:
showing my teacher something

Lucky tReN^ (: says:
then

Lucky tReN^ (: says:
he minimise that window to check sth

Lucky tReN^ (: says:
den

Lucky tReN^ (: says:
ur bloody

Lucky tReN^ (: says:
window

Lucky tReN^ (: says:
popped

Lucky tReN^ (: says:
up

Lucky tReN^ (: says:
HAHAHA

Lucky tReN^ (: says:
HAHAHA

Verbiagelover. says:
..........................

Lucky tReN^ (: says:
HAHAHA

Lucky tReN^ (: says:
AHHAHA

Lucky tReN^ (: says:
DEN

Lucky tReN^ (: says:
UNCLE GIRAFFE

Lucky tReN^ (: says:
WTH

Lucky tReN^ (: says:
HAHAHHA

Lucky tReN^ (: says:
DEN I WAS LIKE

Lucky tReN^ (: says:
"OOOOPS"

My day begun in the weirdest way.

Was slacking at the bus stop opposite school, while waiting for Belinda.

Out of nowhere, came this lunatic who yelled that he is going to America. He screamed at me, ' I am going to America' and the walked back to his luggage, and took out a dead person's passport and showed me.

Worse still, he went back, and he took out a dead person's IC as well. I was so freaked out, i was trying to call people, and i messaged people as well.

Then came Miss Kong, who alighted from the bus, the crazy fella went to talk to her, i wanted to call out to her, but she hurried clutched her handbag tight and walked off swiftly. HAHAHA.

Thankfully i wasn't alone, and the madman boarded a bus, i think the passengers are gonna be so disturbed.

Went to class, wasn't paying attention, then A told me that the ashes of the dead can be used to grow plants, maybe it's true, but i've never heard of it so i gave a bewildered expression to J, who whispered in my ear, "My sperm also can grow plants" or something like that.

HAHAHA I WAS LIKE "LOLLLLL HAHAHAHAH" In which my friends added later on when i told them, why don't he say it is good for sore throat, and tell that to a girl who has sore throat? LOL.

Fast forward to English lessons.

There was this middle-finger pen, and Andy Kan could actually say it's a freaking DILDO. Melvin didnt know what it was, bla bla. And then he suddenly blurted out

"FELICIA! YOU BOUGHT A DILDO LAST WEEK? "

*Dies laughing*

He merely heard wrongly, and felicia was talking about another thing.

Another one, Melvin made fun of the surnames of 'Kan'. He went like "Ni Na Bu" when i-forgot-who called out the surname of somebody's , Kan. HAHA it was so surprising to hear him say that, so i burst into laughter again, with Felicia. Her face was like a tomato okay =x


We were all so bored, we scribbled pure nonsense on this piece of paper, our IGNs, our real names, yadda yadda. If you spot anything like *Beep* love MayEe, PLEASE IGNORE IT, and i didn't write it, i swear.

After school, went to IKEA with Dewi, Nicholas and Felicia, who hoped to find a job. THIS WAS WHERE THE REAL FUN began.

On the way to the bustop, we saw this guy who really had sexy legs. Felicia was telling me, "Wah, sexy legs,"

BUT, that guy ruined our image of him.

He scratched his butt.

I couldn't help it, i exploded into laughter, really bth.

We went to the 2nd floor, where one of the staff said was the human resource office.


We saw this man sleeping there, and he did not even wake up when we slammed the door twice, laughed loudly and walked about the pin-drop silent room. It was damn funny lah, the way we reacted each time we made a sound, okay you gotta be there.

I quote Nicholas, "He's a wax figure,"


We wanted to scare him, thus waking him up before sprinting all the way off, but we didn't really dare to.

We went back to the ground floor to ask the staff for help, and one of them actually said that that sleeping man is the SECURITY GUARD. We're supposed to ask him to open the door for us. Wow, a security guard sleeping?


Headed back to the place, this time, the 'security guard' was gone. We knocked very hardly on the door, we jumped each time we hear sounds of the lift.

So we loitered around and finally saw a real security guard who told us we can only work there by 1) recommendation or 2) advertisement, unfortunately, they are not recruiting.

One question in mind : Does that mean all the high rank staff in there got in through pulling strings? HAHAHAHA, HMMMMMMMMMM.

After which, we saw the 'security guard' mopping the floor. HAHAHAHAHAHHA

Cabbed to Tiong Bahru Plaza, ate at Mos Burgers with PQ joining us, stared at some stupid primary school brats whom were being so fucking arrogant when they came to our school's open house or something like that.

The 4 of them went to take neoprints, whilst i went off. Sorry. =x

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I am the sort, once bitten, twice as shy.

If get hurt while walking, i'll never want to walk again.

Well, that's just an example. I guess my close friends know what i'm driving at?

I don't want to try again.

Maybe if i'm reassured that i won't fall again, but that's hardly possible.

Maths lesson was totally boredom although i paid attention and could so far understand all that the teacher taught, alongside with Jiefeng telling me random crappy nonsense about people that made me laugh like i had hiccups for one whole minute?

RECESS, er, my secret was spilled. NEVER write who you are crazy over out, girls. Was starting to get really sleepy, so started sending random messages to people. =x

Literature lesson, Miss Kong was going through with us the speech of Macbeth which had the word 'barren' in it. She was explaining all the possible definitions with it, one being infertile(for ladies) and the other being completely empty.

Randy wasn't paying attention, so he said "Miss kong, are you barren?" OMG, HAHAHAHAHAHA. Auntie Adeline(miss kong=x) isn't even married yet. Like how would she know, okay maybe she MIGHT know but that's another story.

Then later randy got shot back by me and er felicia(am i right?) "are you impotent" HAHAHAH. =x

Intended to go to Vivo and harbourfront, but it was drizzling and i was quite tired anyway, so came home instead.

P.S. I am so addicted to SoundBoy's "Never wanna say". The album isn't released yet, but you can catch the video plus the song on YouTube. It's so nice, i listened to it for like 5 or more times before going off for school this morning.

I can't sleep, and anyway i shouldn't sleep cuz it's 5AM and i have school later, oh, HORROR! Thankfully it's Maths and Literature, not too bad.

Quizzes.

Your Five Variable Love Profile

Propensity for Monogamy: Your propensity for monogamy is high. You find it easy to be devoted and loyal to one person. And in return, you expect the same from who you love. Any sign of straying, and you'll end things. Experience Level: Your experience level is high. You've loved, lost, and loved again. You have had a wide range of love experiences. And when the real thing comes along, you know it! Dominance: Your dominance is low. This doesn't mean you're a doormat, just balanced. You know a relationship is not about getting your way. And you love to give your sweetie a lot of freedom. Cynicism: Your cynicism is medium. You'd like to believe in true and everlasting love... But you've definitely been burned enough to know better. You're still an optimist, but you also are a realist. Independence: Your independence is medium. In relationships, you need both "me time" and "we time." You usually find it easy to be part of a couple. But occasionally you start to feel a little smothered.

The Five Variable Love Test

You Are 60% Happy

You're definitely a happy person, even though you have your down moments. You tend to get the most out of life, though there's always some more happiness to be squeezed.

How Happy Are You?

Your Birthdate: August 7

You are an island. You don't need anyone else to make you happy. And though you see yourself as a loner, people are drawn to you. Deep and sensitive, you tend to impress others with your insights. You also tend to be psychic - so listen to that inner voice! Your strength: Your self sufficiency Your weakness: You despise authority Your power color: Maroon Your power symbol: Hammer Your power month: July

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Your Gluttony Quotient: 51%

You definitely have your gluttonous moments. For you, eating is a true hobby. And while you do spend a lot on food, you can always make it back winning eating contests.

How Much Gluttony Do You Have?

You Are From Jupiter

You are exuberantly curious - and you love to explore newness. Enthusiastic and optimistic, you get a kick out of stimulating intellectual discussions. Foreign cultures and languages fascinate you. You love the outdoors, animals, and freedom. Chances are you tend to exaggerate, so try to keep a lid on that. If you do, you'll continue to be known for your confidence, generosity, and sense of justice.

What Planet Are You From?

Your Ideal Pet is a Cat

You're both aloof, introverted, and moody. And your friends secretly wish that you were declawed!

What's Your Ideal Pet?

NO, FIFI! =D

Your Love Number is 1

You tend to be a stubborn lover, holding your ground in every argument You take your time falling in love. You aren't the type to lose perspective. You are loyal (to a fault), and you require the same loyalty in your sweetheart. At your best, you are a wise and inspiring partner - who sticks around.

What Is Your Love Number?

Your Inner Child Is Angry

You're not an angry person. But when you don't get your way, watch out. Like a very manipulative kid, you will get what you want. Even if it takes a little kicking and screaming.

How Is Your Inner Child?

Your Life Is Worth...

$967,000

How Much Is Your Life Worth?

ROFL.

I got lectured not long ago.

I don't think i can even go out with my friends.

I am kind of grounded, and will be sent to Bukit Batok very soon to my relative's place whereby i will get tutored.

I dont even think there's audition/photoshop/FIFI/PEACHYBOY over there.

It's like a torture camp, i'll only get to return to the comfort of my own home during the weekends.

=(

This is called STRONG parental objection.

I wonder why it's so strong suddenly.