Felicia, you good.

Name 20 people you can think of right now off the top of your head.
DO NOT read the questions that follow till the list of 20 is done.
When you are done, answer the questions as follows


1) Felicia
2) dewi
3) belinda
4.) sivien
5.) haiqal
6.) jolene
7.) clifton
8.) jiefeng
9.) jieneng
10.) erwin
11.) caryn
12.) 'gayboy'
13.) Fifi
14.) Peachyboy
15.) raymond
16.) mary
17.) pimplybugger
18.) hector
19.) jovyn
20.) shawn
(apparently im copying directly from my msn contacts list HAHAH) =X

How did you meet 14(PEACHYBOY<3)?
School. =D


What would you do if 20(shawn) and 9(jieneng) dated?
Wah lao eh, gay?


Would 6(jolene) and 17(pimply bugger) make a good couple?
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA...i dont know. A smooth and a rough surface? :s

Describe 3(Belinda).
Er, lame. HAHAHA

Do you think 8(jiefeng) is attractive
Horny would be the word.


Tell me about 7(clifton).
He's direct? Don't know him very well.


Do you know any of 12's(gayboy) family?
I would love to.


What's 8(jiefeng)'s favourite person?
I dont know


What will you do if 18(hector) just confessed he/she likes you?
HAHAHAHAHAH, i will laugh my head off.


What language does 15(raymond) speaks?
Indo, English, Chinese? Right uncle raymond?


Who is 9(jieneng) going out with?
Dont know.


How old is 16(mary)?
15 this year.


When's the last time you talked to 13(Fifi)?
5 minutes ago. In fact i'm still interacting with him. LOL.


Would you ever date 4(sivien)?
...


Would you ever date 7(clifton)?
HAHAHHAHAHAHA

Is 2(dewi) single?
Yes, currently waiting for me. =X


What's 10(erwin) last name?
Irawan.


Ever had a serious relationship with 11(caryn)?
Siao.


What school does 3(belinda) go to?
Same school

Where does 6(jolene) live?
Redhill close.


What would 19(Jovyn) most likely say to you?
"Hello" ?

What's your favourite thing about 5(haiqal)?
the fact that he is thick-skinned, because it's funny. HAHAH

Have you seen 1(felicia) naked?
She'll box me, and so will her boyfriend. >.<

Zomg.

I failed my accounts test.

The stupidest thing?

Leaving 2 bloody questions on the last page BLANK, and going into standby mode instead.

~Kaninabuchaocheebyeeeee~!~! (It's a song of mine, in the tune of 'Happy Birthday' of course.)

After school, i was already feeling very feverish, and my gastric problems were acting up. Nonetheless, met the god-of-fortune at Orchard and went off to fix my phone.

I love the Nokia Care Centre(NCC HAHAHHA). The interiors are lavishly decorated with a touch of class, and it gives a really futuristic atmosphere. =D Not only that, the staff are fast with the administrations and all. (:

After which, i wanted to eat something cuz my gastric was acting up. God-of-fortune suggested Sakae but this dumbo here wanted to try Fish&co, so off we go.

I TOTALLY REGRET IT.

Not only is it ridiculously priced($17 and up for a plate of fish plus some rice which isnt really nice), the food is not impressive. Maybe for the fact that they serve a generous serving, but hey, the food's just so-so.

For just a grilled salmon, a salad, a soup and a drink, it costed$37. THAT'S ALOT OKAY.
My usual fare at Jacks Place is only $50-$70 for 3 persons.

Give me Jacks Place's 'Mixed Grill', anytime baby.

The most enriching(and quite possibly touching) incident would be that i feel so fortunate to be blessed by a complete stranger. Without him, i would be living with so little luxuries, and maybe become a bitter person because mommy's the sole-breadwinner and you can't expect her to buy me whatever camera,printer,scanner,shoes and bags all the time.

So he said to me that the price of the food is not a problem, as long as i promise to study hard.

We decided to cab home since it was drizzling, so yeah, off we went.

It may seem really idiotic to you to hear that i found such a simple outing enriching, but to me it's as though i felt paternal love again, like, since, 10 freaking years ago? Don't even get me started about Dad.

I think i can understand how desperate 'he' and mommy is to get me to study, and it's for my own good. Not as if they'll come and hound me for handphones,photoshop,computer,printers and so on right?!

And thus i believe i should spend less time on Photoshop, since i Photoshop like everyday for at least 2 hours. Who gives a damn about your talent in PS if you don't have a cert to prove yeah?

With the end of the year sailing nearer and nearer everyday, i am still an ambivalent being. I think we'll be the happiest people one day, as we sit somewhere and catch up with each other, over the experiences we had gone through during the 1 year of each other's absence.

Hatred having absconded so freely, and quite possibly descended into the abyss of brimstone, I've forgiven.

Which i believe, you did too.

Otherwise what's with the friendly chatter and lively laughter? =/

I am still thinking about how hard i'll cry when EOY comes. Or hopefully, i won't cry at all. But that's a little too hopeful, because it's impossible to put 2 years of memories down in 2 months' time.

Or unless i meet another hot designer again.

Felicia, you cock. (I messed up the HTML so pardon me)

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!!!

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hehe

FELICIA. all humans have feelings alright?! says:
LOL

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Verbiagelover. photoshopping says:
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-.-

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dailyniner

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DAILY

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THIS IS HILLARIOUS

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HEEHEE

--

And then later on, i decided to go cheat people too. =D

HAIQAL!

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eh

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go this site for me

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my browser cannot view

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www.xtokyo.com

Buttahara says:
porno ah

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HOW I KNOW

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CB

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On the other hand, i was trying it on Jiefeng as well.

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eh

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As i was pranking JF, Auntie Haiqal said this.
Buttahara says:
hahah careful

Buttahara says:
he horny u die

Buttahara says:
don spoilt the guys la

Buttahara says:
let them find themselves

By the way, i forgot to add that i scored one point for my maths test, out of the total of 25 marks.

During Art lesson which was also the last day for one trainee teacher, Mr Daz who is a practioning artist. He presented his artworks which were mostly oil paintings and answered questions too. He shared about the social stigma artists face when people know that they are artists for a living.

Example :
A : Hey, long time no see. What are you working as eh?
B : I'm an artist.
A : Huh? An artist? *Shoots questionable expressions* Are you actually able to feed yourself?

I screwed my Chinese paper today, and again. Slept most of the time, and all my answers are wrong. I am once again, dead.

Recess, yadda yadda. Felicia was still handicapped.

English lessons by that trainee teacher is such a bore. She doesn't joke with us at all, unlike Miss Kong. Miss Kong has our due respect man. Scored 2 marks short before i could get full marks for a comprehension, pfft.

Which has also made me realised that when i am sure i can do well, i am always wrong. I actually struggled with this comprehension when i was doing it. Didn't expect to get such results.

Accounts, yadda yadda. Disturbed haiqal and his girlfriend yuzhen.

Had lunch in school and went for training. Training was pretty tough in the beginning, but yeah baby, i survived.

Cheryl is.......amusing.
Me : *Blabber blabber about my beloved*
Cheryl hears his name, and goes : HUH?! You still havent give up ah?
Me : ....I didnt mention him whatttttt
Cheryl : Really meh
Me : Yeah, i mentioned your brother. *HAHAHAHA*
Cheryl : *Yadda yadda about whacking me if i bully her brother bla bla*
Me : ....

Had alot of funny cases.

Everybody was laughing when they saw a fellow schoolmate's face on a magazine. Apparently, she has signed up for the Teenage Icon 2006! Judging that she is not eloquent with English, and no, she isn't pretty. Ridiculous!

Plus many many more. =D

On a very random note, Mdm Kaur fed my ego today.
Mdm Kaur : Mayee, can you be the emcee for this drama competition..yadda yadda....
Me : Okay can
Mdm Kaur : I knew i could rely on you. *Pats me on my back* I'll prepare the scripts. You'll need to help me with the prizes too.

HAHAHHAAH =D

I think i have finally discovered what i am really missing. No, it has got nothing to do with my beloved. In fact, i'ld rather give him away for a friendship that i've always missed.

I am one happy girl.

I miss you so much i want to cry.

I am haunted by the beautiful memories that were actually in the disguise of a disaster. Innocently happy flashbacks of you and i, oblivious to the voracious appetite of the gossip-mongers.

We were so happy together, although it did not last long, it was more than what my dreamy self wanted.

Within a day, all ties were cut. All conversations ended. Smiles were inverted into symbols of hate and anger. The once hillarious and warm msn conversations diminished to cold hellos and goodbyes, and eventually we stopped talking.

Then you started doing all sorts of weird stuffs just to upset me. You started to snap at even the slightest things i said, when all i asked was "Are you okay?". You told people i am a marginal part of your life, you told people i am freaky. To hurt me was your modus operandi.

Despite all that, i stood by your side and defended the curious voyeurs who wanted to know what went on between us, some individuals even quoting what you said as evidence to show that you are not as good as what i thought you to be.

I believed, and still am believing, that you are not that bad.

Yet time and time again, fate proved me wrong.

Reality is so bleak, and yet at times, so deceiving. We hit it off so well within a day. It was just because of a slight joke by a friend that made you feel so repulsive about me, and it stuck to that way till now.

Why did things have to get so bad when it was really beautiful in the beginning. You and me, She and him. Best friends on each side.

I cry myself to sleep almost every night when i know i won't even have a chance to catch a glimpse of your smile anymore, soon.

That Afiq guy of 1A is such a bitch.

My stick is VERY VERY VERY VERY badly damaged please. Especially the blades and the grips, wah lao, so many parts of the blade are cracking.

I am not going to let this matter rest so easily.

School was...generally alright.

We're into Act 1 Scene 4 in Macbeth already, and we came to this part where the word 'Cumberland' came up.

CUMberland.

Laughed like hell. In case you've forgotten, the word 'cum' tickles our funny bone. Maybe not Felicia's, but Dewi's funny bone for sure too.

I call Miss Kong "Auntie Adeline", and now she calls me Fifi.

Fifi Lee May Ee. -_-

Had floorball meeting, yadda yadda.

Went opposite for lunch with Fel and Dewi. Bitched and crapped.

I am so tired, and so busy.

Let me tell you what i have to do by today.

Ann's editted photographs.
And 3 designs to be done.
1 for work,
1 for my current blog,
and 1 for NOISESG's CD competition.

Seriously, i think i'll drop the Noise thing sooner or later. No time. =/

You are annoying.

You pale very much in comparison with him/her/it, thanks.

Henceforth, you should never attempt to be like him/her/it, because you can never be like him/her/it.

I've had the best relationship with him/her/it, and i still want him/her/it.

You should really believe that you can never replace him/her/it, because you disgust me.

Your posessiveness is the death of your relationships and friendships.

Yet, you don't want to change.

You say, others' opinion do not matter, until the point you ask them for their opinion.

Isn't that a tad too late?

CHEERS.

My application to be a designer for an education-based website in Singapore(LIKE DUH HAHA) has been accepted.

More exposure = More money.

I look forward to my new job.

And now, the commitment-phobe leemayee is feeling jittery.

I don't like to be paid to design.

I'ld rather i design first, then i get paid.

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA

Would i be really happy if the gayboy and the gaygirl(apparently me) get erm, together?

NO.

I just realised that i am even happier when i am back talking to some of my friends. These close-but-drifted-apart friends of mine mean more than anything.

And i believe i'll try to make it up to them someday. (:

Getting back to friends with some makes me feel euphoric. It's better than love, believe me.

I love design. (I know i have been echoing this many times already)

It is not about making easy money with what you design. In fact, designing is not even as simple as what you might perceive it to be.

It takes an idea, it takes inspiration, and both of the elements must come together at the same time.

On top of that, designers need to know clearly what they are doing.

What motivates me is the hope and belief that one day my designs will become advertisements for companies like Nokia, Samsung, and so on. Not to mention, my strong stand that i have a passion and talent(which i strongly think exists) for it.

How cool is that to be able to create something that is from your imagination? It is just like putting what you see mentally onto something that becomes visual. You are granted the power to express it anyway you like.

Also, you might just able to inspire another budding designer.

If i can(because i have a very short attention span actually), I want to be a graphic designer. I can proudly swear that i want to be a designer in the near future, but we'll never know what'll happen to my ambition. Maybe something bad will hit me, maybe the demise of one very important person that i respect very much, the person who first introduced me to Photoshop. Not that i am cursing him, but life is really unpredictable.

I'll do flash animations and maybe develop my skills into 3D animation and help movie producers edit this and that, computerised effects and all.

Designing is like a rollercoaster ride. I feel low because i can't seem to have the right state of mind and ideas to work, i feel high because i love what i do. It speaks many many words about how i feel towards love, life and such.

It brings me into new depths which i cannot enter into just by myself.

The idea of wow-ing people with what i love, and making them love what i love, is....awesome.

Goodnight.

I am currently waiting for a drama to unfold.
Although i took a cursory glance at what happened, i can pretty much say who's side i am on already.

*MUAHAHAHA!*

On another note..

I thank you for all that you are, and i miss you very much. I hope you know that, and let's start talking one day.

I finally have a new artist to inspire me, so i have a new artwork. It's my first experimental on typography.


School today was funny, but i really can't be bothered to blog out everything. HAH.

The things that are both essential and ideal for my birthday is a graphics pad, or anything that is related to designing.

You buying mice/mouse/laoshus/hamsters/rats/rodents for me will only make me even busier and maybe neglect them sometimes.

You buying whatever new shoes new bag and other accessories for me = NAH.

.......Another 2nd ideal thing? A 1gb ram computer.

All for the love of design.

**Updated profile section.

The root of the problem.

I have lost the zest to Photoshop day and night.

I am STILL as passionate for graphic design, and i still want to be a graphic designer.

Just that i feel as though i know all that i can about Photoshop.

I try to think of this idea to work on, but i stop because i've done that idea before.
I stop experimenting because i feel that i've experienced all that i need.
Basically, i am bored with Photoshop.

It is like, i stare at an artwork i see on magazines and i can explain to you the methods used. Maybe not all of the methods, but i know quite a handful.

I get bored of tutorials, because they either don't interest me, or that i already know how to achieve that particular effect.

SO.....can somebody buy me Cinema4D?

And my creativesuite sits at a corner.

What a waste.

I probably won't be blogging much here, nor will i blog anywhere else.

Because..

Some of the people reading it are nosey people.

Take for instance, you DON'T go to the persons mentioned in my blog and go, "Eh, you went out with mayee on bla bla bla ah?"

You don't have to 'verify' and ask me the same questions as you did to the persons mentioned.

So annoying.

Today was rather funny.

After Mass Jog, which i tried to run throughout but failed miserably and got even slower than before because my throat felt like crap today and i had a little breathing problems, we were chilling outside Jilaoshi's homeroom cuz she wasn't there yet.

Everybody : *Sees JF and miaoling coming*
Jonathan : .......They sure commit incest already. Don't you know? Their steads leh.
*Yadda yadda*
Erwin : Eh incest what, sometimes i sleep on the bed with my mom and sister loh.
Me : Got space meh
Erwin : You think single bed ah?
Me : -.- How can a they sleep properly with a fat ass like you?
Erwin : I where got fat
Me : YOU HAVE A BULGING TUMMY, seriously you should work out.
Erwin : I dont want to turn out like ______, like freak like that.
Me : HAHAHAHAH WTF
Erwin : Why you care why you observe me yadda yadda

..........

During accounts lesson, while Miss Poon was teaching Haiqal, i went to show him the infamous Bryanboy pose, and the Miss poon said "Mayee" and she raised one of her hand and showed me a five sign, as in, the sign you often use to signify 'pause'.

Then Haiqal started roaring with laughter, and i did as well, cuz her pose was DAMN FUNNY. I laughed so hard i began to squat on the floor -______________-, while she started laughing to herself as well.

5 minutes later, i was still feeling giggly over the whole matter, and so was Miss Poon. I didn't know Miss Poon possessed the crazy element as well.

I am lazy to blog, but i had alot of good laughs today.

Sivien, thanks for lending me ur EZ link horzxzxz, i didn't use it though. ^^v
Just want to thank Mary for errrrrr, calling _____ for me, THANKS OKAY HEHEHEHE.

I can't remember what happened during lesson time.

The UNSW thing was some killer. I'ld be thankful to the Gods if i got a credit already.

Had some bonding time with Felicia and Dewi after the UNSW thingo, and as we were eating, Jon and Jieneng came along.

CRAPPED alot.

I tell you, Jonathan was amusing us with his gayness, for he was momentarily slapping Jieneng on his thigh, and alot of jokes la, wah lao. Was kinda reluctant to leave, but had to cuz i was feeling sick.

I love today.

And oh, if you read my blog, and you go and question the people i've mentioned if "went out with mayee ah", seriously, fuck off.

In the first place, i don't owe you an explaination.

And stop your despicable acts of lying before i turn my back against you completely.

Maybe i should drop the competition and focus on clearer, and much more important aspects, such as education.

My mind is turning into a psychological purgatory, it gives me wonderfully amusing ideas, ideas which i love very much, all at one go. So it becomes so that i have too much ideas, and time is being a whore because it never seems to be at the right pace. Time seems to be on a fast treadmill, rendering me not enough time to work on my ideas.

I know the techniques, i know what kind of style, but laziness is forbidding me from doing the things that i love, how ironic.

I need a good break.

I've been on a graphic-hiatus for about a month, and through this one month, i did more of drawings.

I'm just going in a different direction, for i want to be an all-rounder.

My designer boyfriend

My designer boyfriend shall be very prolific with graphic design. He shall be like the Hejz, Mr Peter Jaworowski who is in Poland, Warsaw right now. He will know how to do 3D interfaces without programs like Cinema4D and other graphic-making programs except Photoshopping.

He will be the one who gets approached by big time companies like Nokia to do their webpages and phone-cd packs.

....And he shall propose to me 'graphically' and wow me with his graphic skills.

If we get married, instead of making love, we shall make collaborated graphics.

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HAHAHAH JUST KIDDING.

Regarding the designer boyfriend, i'm serious though.

GRAPHIC DESIGNERS - HOT. (To me anyway)

It's been awhile since i said this. I am not a dummy and don't try to find out whatever grapevine between so and so from me, seriously.

Today's assembly was some crap.
Had the Racial Harmony Day presentation, and it showed what BM students think about SG, and apparently 2 of yours truly's 'philosophies' got to the slides. NOT FUNNY OKAY, i wrote :

"To be able to speak Singlish and yet still be understood makes me a Singaporean", and the other one was about everyone being able to live with another person of a different race under the same block.

Had some drama about what makes you a Singaporean, the plot and all was right, but certainly NOT the props, the music, and the language of the actors and actresses. YAWN.

POA lesson, paid attention. Recess, i injured my mouth. No, Belinda injured my mouth, wah piang, and anyway, it's been awhile since i tasted blood.

Mother Tongue period, YAWN.
ART, WEEEEE Mrs Yeow gave me a pat on my back for my drawings eheheheh. I spent 2 friggin hours on one drawing, sheesh. Shall scan in and colour it sometime.

Went to Pastamania with Belinda after school. Initially when we were right outside of school we wanted to walk a distance before hailing the taxi, and then we saw Erwin in front of us, trying to hail a taxi too. So i quickly 'snatched' his cab and he showed the finger at me, HAHA VERY FUNNY, and as we go into the taxi he got himself a taxi too.

I showed him the finger as our taxi past his. HAHAHA.

Oh, haven't you felt like this?

I'll be going home straight after school for this week. I am really busy.

I am feeling very frustrated and stressed. The cd design is killing me, because i have ideas, but i dont know how to execute it. I suck at vectoring, i suck at drawing, and TIME is not enough.

I am equally frustrated because UNSW english is coming and i am NOT AT ALL PREPARED. It's like i have no time to care for that.

To all you shitfucks who advise me 'not to try' for the competition, fuck you. I probably won't win, but does it matter? I don't design for money in the very first place. I've turned down deals because i lack the idea, or i lack the time. I don't force myself to design something i don't like, just to get paid.

So what's wrong with just trying? Let me state clearly that i like my idea and i am pushing myself for the sake of myself as well, since it has been awhile since i had some new designs.

You think designing is that easy? You think Photoshopping is that easy? You think it is that easy to get into the mood and design? It is not just than IDEAS, it consists of INSPIRATION as well. AND, the idea and inspiration must be of the same theme and must come together, otherwise i can't start work. That is probably why i ALWAYS fail to come up with designs for my friends, because what they suggest is usually what i'm not into. I need the mood, the idea, and the inspiration.

I am really tied up this time,

SO I APPRECIATE IT THAT YOU LEAVE ME ALONE FOR THIS 5 DAYS. NO fucked up afterschool programmes for me, be it going to Macdonalds, or pure slacking.

If time is really tight, i might even consider missing school.

MUST..

....Come up with at least 2 CD cover arts by tomorrow. No matter what, give a try even though i might not win since i'm challenging myself with the big time graphic designers out there.

....Do my homework, because there's not much time left before EOY and that also means i won't be able to see _______ anymore soon

....Clean my room.

COOL.

ANN the Sunnybaby jiejie, thanks for noting me hor!! And i think i should share this with everyone who's interested in winning some good bucks too.

Go read it. =D

I am going to blame art lessons for my constricted mind. Seriously, in Art classes, we learn about themes, and the various forms of installation arts. We discuss artworks and their meanings to it, and the methods for achieving yaddayadda effects, e.g. exaggeration.

Which to me, is pretty ridiculous because we are not given a chance to explore for ourselves to find out a method that we like, to achieve the same effect, e.g. exaggeration.

All of us art students have been 'trained' to go for ideas by doing mindmaps, and that, is very stiffling.

However, i am used to it.

MUST. GET. MY. GRAPHIC-DESIGNING. GROOVE. BACK.

I hate talking to stupid people, who pass stupid comments about my artworks.

A friend of mine saw my doodles, and he went "What is this?" , "What is that?" , "Why you draw like that?"

HELLO?!

In the first place, my perspective of art is that art knows no boundaries. Is there a 'right' and 'logical' way to draw? No, seriously.

If everything were set with a 'right' method, then we wouldn't have advanced so fast in technology.

P.S. I am very happy. =D=D=D

Today was rather monotonous, and laughs seemed to have a pattern, nothing much except after school.

Was at the canteen with Felicia and Dewi, i had my lunch while we crapped and made fun of the sec 1 girls behind us. Apparently, one girl wrote a testimonial(On friendster, oh dont you just hate it when they say "gimme testi" because testi is a TESTICLE LOL) to one of the contestants of SG Idol, leaving her email address and asking him to add her, in some foreign language, known as the Twit Language.

We were like, "Oi felicia, you think you very pretty ah? Ask him to add you somemore, BHB"!
"Joakim only likes girls who don't eat chinese noodles"(She was eating a bowl of noodles from a chinese stall)
"Joakim doesn't like small kids"
"I got Joakim on my msn leh"

And then i shouted "YOU THINK GOT GIRLS LIKE JOAKIM AH? OKAY LET'S ASK THEM" (We want to know if she'ld deny her 'admiration' for Joakim HAHAHA)

Me : *Points to the twit* Do you like Joakim?
Twit : Hmm, so-so only la. (HAHAA MY ASS THEN WHY ASK HIM TO ADD YOU)

Went for floorball training, nothing much.

My stick, which was supposedly FOUND, got taken away again. Pfft.

I'm not going to spend money to buy a new stick, NO okay.

Thank you Yiwen for lending me your stick.

So why don't we go, somewhere only we know..

Because i am bored, i shall blog about my day.

Brought my hamsters to school, and the first thing that happened in the morning was to have my container OVERTURNED in the SCHOOL HALL. I panicked like fuck, but thank god everything was swept back into the container. -.-

Passed my darlings to Weibei + Kaili cuz i know both of them love peachy and fifi and they don't get to interact with them very often anyway.

Lessons were pretty much boring.

RECESS, took my hamsters back and prepared for the Lit drama.

The drama was crap la, =x.

Basically, throughout the lessons my hamsters were the stars. Nothing funny really happened, okay, maybe during Maths.

Earlier on Erwin was being a good student by understanding and even HELPING people, and also annoying me.
Mrs Lim : Erwin you're very smart today.
Me : HAHAHAHAHA MRS LIM SO YOU MEAN ERWIN IS STUPID on other days right?
Everybody : HAHAHAHAHA!!!

Was supposed to go with Belinda to Macs, but i supported the hawker centre opposite BM more than macs so i went along with Felicia and Peiqin to opposite.

Miaoling and Cheryl came later on, impromtu.

The western food stall is nice but the food is so oily and i was making a remark about the very oily hashbrown that cheryl and i were eating.

Me : Wah lao, why so oily one?
Cheryl : Oily then nicer ma
Me : ........oily where got nicer, later your face.......*drifts off and makes a face at Felicia*
Felicia : I get what you mean (You said something like that right fel?)

HAHAHAHAHA, in case you are still clueless, i am implying that oily food causes PIMPLES, and i hate pimples. Be it in the literal form, the practical form, the physical form, and ULTIMATELY, the HUMAN FORM.

Okay bye.

Ronin - One more moment

I can't believe my sister knows the lead singer of Ronin. SHE TOOK A PICTURE WITH HIM WAH LAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, and i believe she has his contacts.

Don't take too long to say
I love you to the ones you love
Cause time has a habit of slipping away

And out on the clear blue sky
When lightning strikes on a sunny day
Just take me in and keep me from the rain

And the words that seem so hard to say
Come out when you've gone away
Just stay a little while and hear me say

That I want you here tonight
And I need you by my side
For just one more moment
For just one more moment with you

Turn away to say goodbye
With each and every word that passes by
Like a distant memory

And time keeps slipping away
And time will turn to grey
And time will be the one who holds you down

And the words that seem so hard to say
Come out when you've gone away
Just stay a little while and hear me say

That I want you here tonight
And I need you by my side
For just one more moment
For just one more moment

That I want you here tonight
And I need you by my side
For just one more moment
For just one more moment with you

Sometimes time will treat you bad
Before you even know what's wrong
And in the end it hits you hard
Please tell me you'll be strong

Sometimes time will treat you bad
Before you even know what's wrong
And in the end it hits you hard
Please tell me you'll be strong

My hamsters were stars today, and they are some tired rodents right now.

I wish Friday will pass smoothly tomorrow, since i am already dreading the-afterschool-programme.

SATURDAY WILL BE ALL SUNNY because i will go shopping again. =D Of course la got $100 leh

Yes you're right, i'm going to get my award. HEHEHEHEH

Heard a ton load of crap this morning. My ears, my ears.

THANKFULLY, my day wasn't ruined.

I enjoyed playing badminton with Jinteck and Xueping. Not exactly good players, but the experience was fun, although i suffered an injured last finger which hurts when i touch it.

Other lessons were rather boring. BLEH.

FRIDAY the shit day is coming. But everything will be fine after 6pm. TIME FOR SOME PHOTOSHOP IS COMING!!!!!!! *Throws confetti*

Seriously, what i look forward to the weekends and friday nights is Photoshopping. I can design whatever i want and feel like without worrying about the late hours, which means no constraints, AND THAT IS GOOD.

But as the chinese saying goes, "Sweet first and then bitter at the end".

For me, it is "Bitter first and then sweet". I'll suffer a hell lot at you-know-what. BUT IT'S BLISS WHEN I AM REUNITED WITH MY COMPUTER, and THE photoshop.

Plus my sketchbooks+illustrator. =D

I'll remember what the 'D&T' teacher told me,

"You don't have to socialise with the girls, just go there and play some games. Most importantly, i need your attendance."

And i'll take it as building up my future as a designer. CCA points are fundamental for my admission into tertiary colleges or such, FINE.

I'll rejoice next year.

And when my portfolio site comes.

I'm so interested in Photography nowadays, because i've been helping my sister with her art research by being a photographer, and i love it.

I love doodling as well.

Gonna work on these 2 aspects now. (:

I get annoyed easily.

Probably because i am stressed.

UNSW English is coming.

I admit, i prepare for it. Be it loading vocabulary into my still-very-dense mind, correcting grammatical and structureal errors, i'm trying to do as much as i can.

I take this test as a gauge of how good i am compared to the rest of the participants of this test.

Some of you might say, "Why don't you stop preparing? You preparing for the quiz is just like you trying to raise your standard up 'unnaturally'. "

To those of you who think that way..

It's a standard. If you can improve on something, wouldn't you do it? To gauge your standard doesn't equalify to just attempting the competition unprepared, to see 'how good you really are'. If it really goes that way, wouldn't it might as well be a talent competition? Because talent differs from hard work. So how about not studying for your O'levels or for any tests?

I'ld be happy if i get a 'credit' certificate already.

Plainly because i still remember this line,

"We know you hold a high regard for your POLISHED english. (Bla bla and then ____ warned me in case i fall too fast bla bla) "

We'll see okay.

Today was a good day =D

Woke up at 9am and went downstairs for breakfast with Mommy before setting out to the crematorium again cuz it was the 49th day or something since my 3rd uncle's demise. Rituals, prayers, offerings and all were said and done, and then Dad drove Mom and I to Far East(Scotts Road)

I just realised the accessories over there are some cheap ones, BUT you have to look around because there might be better offers with the same items. =D Mommy bought a necklace, while a tube dress caught my eyes.

It was $50, in black, and the material was pretty good, denim sort. I went to try it, and it fit me, except at the chest area, couldnt zip it up (AHAHA I HAVE BIG BOOBIES, KIDDING LA, i dont want big boobies. Neither do i like big booby people. ). I was so disappointed, and then i went to walk around with my Mom again.

Throughout the entire tour around the shopping mall, i was lamenting and being so upset, and then we took a detour back to the store. I asked the lady if she had a larger size, but no.

I was SO DISAPPOINTED. >.<

For the first time my Mother didn't lament about the price of stuffs today.

Went to the many shopping malls, and ended up at Isetan Orchard. Mommy saw this $180 dress and was in love with it, but she ignored her passion for that beautiful dress and went with me to Zara, Topshop, Mango, and practically the whole of Isetan.

After a very long walk which included us comparing qualities and trying to find a similar dress that i loved, we went back to Isetan and she got me MANY clothes to try, and heck, she didn't care about the price lor, for the first time.

I tried like 10 shirts and all, and then bought a set. =D A white top with a frilly and lacy yellowish knee length skirt. I love it, because i look very guai. AHAHAHA. I'll wear it on my birthday and surprise you all.

After my share of clothes, she went to try that pretty pretty dress, and bought it.

And then we went home.

I am a happy girl.

Oh by the way i think i'm going to abandon my short skirts already. I prefer going for a clean and neat look now =D

I HATE FAR EAST SCOTTS because there are a ton of bimbos. Not pretty at all, but pretending to be, wah piang, when they walk they even hook their hands and form a road block.

My goodness.

One bad thing about town is the clothes are pretty much replicas. All the gothic, black lacy styles with pokka dots and minishorts, etc etc.

BLAHH.

I have taken a new style, besides Photoshopping. Currently, i doodle and doodle.

It might be ugly, BUT HEY, does art have to be visually appealing all the time?!

I didn't take part in the Creative/Talent Award that may allow me to win $100 and even be considered for further sponsorship up to $2000, stupid i know. I know i can still go take part in it, BUT NAH, thanks James for giving me the opportunity anyway. I am shy.
I LOVE FRIDAYS,

FRIDAYS THAT MAKE ME GO HOME EARLY...

because...

I have more time to Photoshop (:

I don't like to design with time constraints and whatever else that's obstructing my mind.

If you noticed, i always have new graphics on weekends.

Not to forget Saturday nights,

BECAUSE THERE'S POWER98'S HOTMIX! All the remixes of R&B hits and all that.

Recently, i've been very interesting in illustrating. I always bring a sketchbook with me and draw whatever i like. =D

Please offer me Pilot V5 and other black pens/markers of different fineness(?) and some A4 sketchbooks as a birthday present as well okay?! XD

Horrifying friendster males.

Honestly, do i look like a tour guide?

No right?

But these people seem to think otherwise...

hi a
i am matt from hk....

i will have a working trip to singapore a...
can u tell me more about singapore ?

let/t be a friend ar...
nice to meet u! ^^

hi
r u from singapore. can you give me an idea..need
info on house rent...etc, i am planing to go to
singapore to look for a job.. do you have a ym ID . i
want to chat with you .. if its okay. my YM id is
angelsperk

name is jeff..


thanks...

....Do i look like a 25 year old?

Apparently i got my previous account reported because this man messaged me on friendster and he kept harassing me with ALOT of messages.

Under the pretext of assuming i am 25 since i stated 25 in my profile(WAH PIANG anyhow anyhow tikam what) he proceeded to keep wanting to talk to me.

I ignored time and time again.

Until i flared up, and accidentally revealed my real age, 14.

HE WAS SO EVIL, HE DID A SCREENSHOT AND THEN REPORTED ME.

The ironic thing is, he asks people to not add him unless they really know him, AND HOW DARE HE GO AROUND TRYING TO PICK GIRLS UP! Chao angmoh.

Aha.

Nabei.

I'm sick and tired of reading blogs peppered with oh-so-cheem vocabulary.

It's all a pretence, muahahaha.

That applies to my friends as well.

I am still playing habbohotel.

I used to invest like more than $1200 into it, and then I GOT HACKED. I was crying online HAHAH and i was screaming at Shawn on msn HAHAHA, if you're reading this, let me know =D

What made me spent so much? Because i was asking for a new handphone(my then-best friend had one and i wanted a similar one, best friends ma, everything also must be the same), the god-of-fortune promised me and then he said no because the functions of it sucked. I didn't believe, and thus went forth to jack up my phone bill to show my anger.

I WAS SO BLOODY SPOILT(Maybe i still am, idk). I wonder how people managed to talked to me back then.

Also, i believed that i could be the richest if i want, and all that crap. I always wanted to challenge people in terms of wealth online. And yes, i took for granted that i have a flesh-atm and that he showered me with material gifts just to encourage me to study hard.

So, fast forward 1 year plus. I log in once every-many-months just to take a look at my account, and no, i'm not spending any more $$ on it, maybe once in a while, just to paint my room again.

Because i got hacked and part of my items were recovered, some people still think i'l filthy rich. I can fill up 4 full rooms and all, but what truly hit me was is being rich VIRTUALLY, so big deal?

I've seen this girl with like 4 full rooms of hc sofas(they cost more than SGD$9), and 4 full rooms can add up to even $1000, and i feel like slapping her.

Why oh why is she so stupid? It is not a matter of my-family-is-rich-so-i-can-spend-money issue, it's a fact that she's stupid. $1000 IS ALOT MAN, and she could have put it to better use. =/

No point spending money on virtual games lah.

Thank you for tolerating my nonsense.
Thank you for not screaming at me each time i show my spoilt temper.
Thank you for resisting the urge to give me a BAD scolding.
Dear friend, you're great. x)

I MADE MY EZ LINK CARD TODAY HAHAHAHA YAY NO MORE STUPID DRIVERS TO PISS ME OFF YAY

Was supposed to meet dewi that BLURCOCK at like 12 today. Then dilly dally, met her at 3 instead.

Then met Belinda and her beau at GWC and played houseofthedead. EH WE DIED AT THE VERY LAST BOSS OKAY, im happy enough. Shall not invest in that game anymore. *Cough*

Left with dewi and then bought movie tickets for JustMyLuck. The movie is nice.

Discussed with her some birthday plans and she came up with many ideas for my birthday present. Shall not mention here =D

Dewi is one sick girl i tell you. From discussing pigmented genitals to pimply genitals to whatever genitals, she has them all. OOPS, I MEANT SHE KNOWS THEM ALL HAHAHAHA

Went home after the movie. I'm really tired. I shall study tomorrow. I PAID ATTENTION IN SCHOOL PLEASE, SO IT'S WORTH GIVING ME MONEY THANKS HAHAHAHA

I must say that the pictures went through some editting, like adjusting the colours and all. BUT DONT EXPECT ME TO TURN A LOUSY PICTURE into some work of art.




As the saying goes, like hamster, like owner.

Ohh i went to this resturant at tiongbahru plaza today, it's next to Sakae Sushi. I WON'T recommend you to go, not only is the food full of msg, it's not really fresh. My salmon don was served to me COLD. Not even abit of warmth was felt, bla.



Though i must say...they decorated it really well. Some marketing gimmick. =/

I watched this video about 9/11 and i cried. =/ It's a cartoon/tribute to all the victims of 911.

People often take the case of not cherishing your loved ones for granted. It seems to me i take my family members for granted too, and i'll always say "aiya...won't one la" whenever some people, or myself think about them encountering a tragic end.

Terrorist attacks, natural disasters, accidents are so unexpected. I bet there wouldn't even have time for me to say "Bye, I love you" to my loved ones before they go, or I go. (HAHA DUH RIGHT)

The video is really powerful.

//EDIT - Added survey

I editted a picture. Stock is from sxc.hu =)



Minus 1% for everything that you've
done. Then
repost as your %. [ start with 100%]

I AM 57% VIRGIN! (:O:o)

1.Smoked.-1
2.Drank alcohol. -1
3.Cried when someone died.-1
4.Been drunk. -1
5.Had sex.
6.Been to a concert.-1
7.Given a handjob/gotten a handjob.
8.Given a blowjob/gotten a blowjob.
9.Been verbally sexually harassed. -1
10.Verbally sexually harassed somebody. -1 ( HAHAHAH )
11.Felt someone up and/or been felt up.
12.Laughed so hard something came out
of your
nose.
13.Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend
before.
14.Been cheated on by a
boyfriend/girlfriend.
15.Been to prom.
16.Cried at school.-1
17.Gotten lost in a WalMart or a
department
store. -1
18.Went streaking.
19.Given a lap dance.
20.Had someone of the opposite sex in
your
room.
21.Had someone of the opposite sex
sleep over.
22.Slept over at someone of the opposite
sex's
house. -1
23.Kissed a stranger.
24.Hugged a stranger. -1
25.Went scuba diving.
26.Driven a car.
27.Gotten an xray.
28.Hit by a car.
29.Had a party.-1
30.Done drugs.
31.Played strip poker.
32.Got paid to strip for someone.
33.Ran away from home.
34.Broken a bone.
35.Eaten sushi.-1
36.Bought porn.
37.Watched porn.-1
38.Made porn.
39.Had a crush on someone of the same
sex. -1
40.Been in love.-1
41.Frenched kissed.
42.Laughed so hard you cried. -1
43.Cried yourself to sleep.-1
44.Laughed yourself to sleep.
45.Stabbed yourself.
46.Shot a gun.
47.Trash talked someone and then acted
like
their best friend the next day.-1
48.Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours.
49.Been online for 9 consecutive hours.
50.Watched an animal die.-1
51.Watched a person die.-1
52.Kissed and/or messed around
somewhere
with at least 1 person present.
53.Pranked somebody.-1
54.Put somebody in the hospital.
55.Snuck into someone's room and/or
your own
room after being out. -1
56.Kissed somebody of the same sex.
57.Dressed punk.
58.Dressed goth.
59.Dressed preppy.-1
60.Been to a motocross race.
61.Avoided somebody.-1
62.Been stalked.-1
63.Stalked someone. -1 (Yeah baby)
64.Met a celebrity. -1
65.Played an instrument.-1
66.Ridden a horse.
67.Cut yourself.
68.Bungee jumped.
69.Ding dong ditched somebody.
70.Been to a wild party.
71.Got caught stealing something.
72.Kicked a guy in the balls.
73.Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a
friend. (... =X)
74.Went out with your friend's crush. -1
75.Got arrested.
76.Been pregnant.
77.Babysat.-1
78.Been to another country.-1
79.Started your house on fire.
80.Had an encounter with a ghost.-1
81.Donated your hair to cancer patients.
82.Been asked out by someone that you
never
though you'd to be asked out by.-1 (YEAH MAN Some freak.)
83.Cried over a member of the opposite
sex. -1
84.Had a boyfriend/girlfriend for over 3
months.
85.Sat on your ass all day.
86.Ate a whole carton of ice cream all by
yourself. -1
87.Had a job.-1
88.Gotten cut from a sports team. -1 (And i actually don't mind.)
89.Been called a wh0re. -1
90.Danced like a wh0re.-1
91.Been mistaken for a celebrity.
92.Been in a car accident.
93.Been told you have beautiful eyes.-1
94.Been told you have beautiful hair.
95.Raped somebody.
96.Danced in the rain.
97.Been rejected. -1 (Like who doesnt? Does who didnt check this are deluded =D)
98.Walked out of a restaurant without
paying.
99.Punched someone/slapped someone
in the
face.-1
100.Been raped.

now repost and put your "-- % virgin" as
the subject.

All for the love of design.

I love designing. I love putting my inspirations into what i can see. It doesn't have to be nice, but as long as i can put out what i think, it's good enough.

Designing is such a beautiful hobby. It's all from the mind, the most powerful thing in our body.

Let me tell you a secret.

If you don't see me in school for any functions, if you see me all tired, if you see me being very excited,

It is all for design.

I don't understand why people can't learn to feel the way as i do for design(besides the usual design-is-not-my-type excuse.)

Just open yourself to feel, and listen to music. Inspiration comes so easily.

I LOVE DESIGN.

Darren Hayes - So beautiful. Such a nice song. The lyrics are very meaningful.



Whether I'm right or wrong
There's no phrase that hits
Like an ocean needs the sand
Or a dirty old shoe that fits
And if all the world was perfect
I would only ever want to see your scars
You know they can have their universe
We'll be in the dirt designing stars

And darlin' you know
You make me feel so beautiful
Nowhere else in the world I wanna be
You make me feel so beautiful

Whether I'm up or down
There's no crowd to please
I'm like a faith without a clause to believe in it
And if all the world was smiling
I would only ever want to see your frown
You know they can sail away in sunsets
We'll be right here stranded on the ground
Just happy to be found

You make me feel so beautiful
Nowhere else in the world I wanna be
You make me feel so beautiful

I have lost my illusions
I have drowned in your words
I have left my confusion to a cynical world
I am throwing myself at things I don't understand
Discover enlightenment holding your hand

You are..
So Beautiful

Yeah darlin' you know!
That you make me feel so beautiful