Funny how as it seem, a minute ago i was being the world's happiest girl because i finally upgraded my superannuated photoshop. But then again, i'm getting pissed off.

The new versions are 'high-tech', so 'high-tech' till the extent that everytime you use another brush a pop up appears and ask if you really would want to change brushes.

WTH?!??!

It is very time consuming, and nerve-wrecking. I'm just changing a damned brush, and if i want i can always find the brush back easily if i want to, why do i need a confirmation pop up?! Isn't that a little toooo over-reactive?

I'm a PS7 noob but i'm not with elements u basket so i would appreciate it if any of you gurus out there know how to remove the pop-up function. Email me at verbiagelover@gmail.com or the one you see in my profile.

Besides that...i'm a NOOB, so i'm going through (AGAIN) the frustrations of meddling with something i totally do not know. I was very very frustrated with PS elements during the first few weeks i got it. I would always be mad with myself, like i am now.

GRRR.

The person who persists right from wrong ultimately is the one doing all the wrong. Coincidentally, the person who persists originality from typicality is typical actually.

I'm just so sick of the everyday scenes i see around me. Mundane affairs, placid scenes, what else? Pursuing acceptance, ignoring benevolence. Seeing yourself as a microcosm of and a model of perfection as a whole? BULLSHIT.

Looking back, all i can say is i miss the past but not the drones.

Everyone is taking their old friends as a stepping stone to fame, from what i perceive.

I'm inspired to create an artwork that revolves around city life, fast-paced living. Quite a 'bimbotic' artwork.

Because im influenced by Mariah Carey FT Pharrell and Snoop Dogg's "Say something".

However, my tummy hurts like f(ck.

I wonder
10 years down the road
would we still be living under the same roof.

Overcast in orange hues of the setting sun

Your beauty unforeseen

How i yearn that this would last

Admiring your beauty, that to other men is ugliness

I can never get enough of you

I trust that you'll be there when i stumble

And...i love you.

((:

Read BM's blog about the plastic surgery thingy. Teenagers, majority being teenage girls as young as 15 (MY AGE OMG) are going for nip and tuck services already.

In time to come, maybe a few years down, having plastic surgery done on yourself would be the social norm. If you do not do it you will face the suffocating peer pressure.

Parents and seniors alike will see their juniors/children begging them to let them go for plastic surgery, because "why not since i can look better" or because "all my friends are pretty".

By then, i wonder what has this World gone to. It is no longer yourself when you alter your facial features. Doing double eyelids and trimming your eyebrows/make up is absolutely fine but not till the extend of shaving your jaw bones to make your face slimmer bla bla.

How is one able to accept their 'pretty' self when it isn't themselves at all? It has been altered, and one accepts themselves just because they look good? Wouldn't that be a shame?

Who knows, the plastic barbies will begin to compete on who's prettier, and go further into plastic surgery.

Nobody, not even my friends seem to believe that plastic surgery has side effects. Nobody wants to listen to the ugly side, probably because they think i'm just a sour grape or maybe because i'm just spewing rubbish. *Rolls eyes and snorts*. NOT.

You're changing the aspects of your body that was 'that way' since the day you were born..your features are made 'that way', and with 'new' features how sure are you that there wouldn't be any side effects? I'm speaking about major surgeries, like a nose job or something.

One HK star had her nose done and she migrated off to some cold country and she had rheumatism pains everyday lor.

I know i sound evil to say this. If you're ugly, you're ugly. It's fine being ugly as long as you have a nice heart. No point trying to conform to the norms of "if you're pretty then you're popular" rules.

And it would be SO unfair to those pretty ladies who were born pretty naturally. I believe that God created a fair share of pretty and not-so-pretty people for a purpose. You might be ugly, but what you go through in this life might be what the pretty people will never go through.

I can't sleep.

I've been coughing non-stop.

Man, am i also dying?

Ripples coming from the epicentre of the ocean
Bobbing up and down, as if falling apart
2 days, 2 weeks, 2 months, 2 years passed
It still was there, dealing with the rough waves
Enjoying the calmness of the ocean at times
Like a ferris wheel with ups and downs

It's your last
With not more than 6 months
What am i to do
What am i
Without you?

The boat's endured
and still is enduring.
And waiting for the day where it will be high up, forever.

---
leemayee is trying to be poetic but failed miserably (AGAIN!)

im kind of tearing because im so stressed with the coming mid years. CREATIVESUITE. I cannot NOT have it. I'm trying to push myself but i just lack the mood to study. Fuck man.

Everything is stifling and suffocating.

Fuck shit.

I feel so horrible. I'm kind of falling sick. And i'm having PMS again.

Suddenly the hormones overturned my happy view of life.

School was fine today, especially during Literature class because i assulted miss kong i amused the class.

We were in groups analysing poems, and felicia and i were making fun of lucien's name again. One teacher called him Lucy before, so from then people made fun of him and the name LucyPussy came. Somehow felicia morphed it into LucyPushyPussy HAHAH

Then later on at Fel's group i saw this insect and they were crowding around it so i went to bug in and then i looked so retarded at one point that miss kong called me "Chun3 Ren2" (Silly person) and told me to go back to my seat.

I wanted to throw the insect away so i used a slip of paper and scooped it up and walked towards the bin. At the same time, Miss Kong stood up and she turned so she was facing the left side of me and a strong wind blew and i was afraid that the insect would be on me so i let go of my hand and i was scared. THEN, i hit her face. =X

And everyone laughed bla bla. I apologised okay. HAHAHA

She said out of her teaching experience of 10 years this is the first time something so dramatic happened. I ought to be honoured, shouldn't i?

My grades suck la. Bleah. Dont wanna talk much. Close friends should know. (: Not that i want to do well. But i have to do well for the sake of doing well in photoshop. _|_

Went to GWC with dewi ray and erwin later. Ate. Crapped.

And here i am.

I'm off to mug.

Andy - is one fucking gay says:
What makes you so sure God will help you

Verbiagelover. says:
Faith?

Andy - is one fucking gay says:
Correction : BLIND faith

Verbiagelover. says:
Ahhhh _|_

Andy - is one fucking gay says:
?

Verbiagelover. says:
Yala yeah la, blind faith. It's an instinct

Verbiagelover. says:
Imagine, you're the creator of this World, surely you know how to handle the problems that you creations create?

Andy - is one fucking gay says:
hahahaha....now i noe..u cant handle atheists...

Verbiagelover. says:
HAHAHAHA _|_ U la

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Yeah, pretty true. I don't really know how to argue about such things. Probably because i'm not a staunch believer who prays everyday. =X

There wasn't right or wrong, and then humans started to grow stupid minds which justifies the actions of others, oblivious that they themselves are in the wrong by starting their justification and jurisdiction. Little did they know, they were the equipoise of the 'people in the wrong'.

I'm not bragging. I used to have this 'sense' that enables me to roughly make out the meaning of words that i'd came across. Now i lost this sense. I am a senseless, english retard.

Today, another typical school day, except that we got harangued by teachers consequently.

First of all, Miss poon the form teacher of the naughtiest class 3D scolded us cuz she gets all the blame for our misdeeds and all the naggings of studying hard bla bla.

There's one part in which i totally support her

"Parents are not aware of the situation in class and they refuse to let their children take Art or Design, they just want something more to the academic side otherwise they deem it as no future"

YES, SO TRUE.

My godfather was like telling me "You don't be an art student la, no future"

WTF.

Yeah and then later on Ms Chong scolded us, followed by Mr Koh.

That larddddass is one fuck of a loser. He expects us to give him respect, yes we should, but the reason why he doesn't get it is because he doesn't know how to handle us. Like Miss Kong, we respect her although we sometimes are still a little too rowdy. She doesn't raise her voice at us the moment we defy her for the 2nd time, unlike this fuckshit.

Heck, he even used vulgarities and said" some things done are irreversible, like you spitting saliva, can you suck it back" bla bla. WTF?!

Came home early and am now eating baked beans with instant noodles. Yum.

I love this layout.

Do you know it cheered a stranger up? (:

UPDATE : Survey below.

Presenting to you....

The floral series.







All these took me 3-4 hours, and i have the PSD versions down, to fight IP theft. =D

I think the one on the top is the nicest. (:

OKAY GOODNIGHT IT'S 1AM ALREADY.

I can't sleep.


Have You Ever
Put an "X" next to the things that apply to you and a "-" if it doesn't.

Climbed a tree [-]
Danced in the rain [X]
Made out with best friend [-]
Ate something really horrible-looking [-]
Been trash-canned [-]
Fallen in love with someone of the same sex [-]
Hugged a tree [X]
Streaked [-]
Watched a meteor shower [-]
Fallen in front of a ton of people [x]
Been in a play [X]
Written a really good story [x] I INSIST.
Ate a bug [X]
Been in love with someone way older than you [x]
Kissed someone of the same sex [-]
Stolen something from a friend [-]
Played an instrument in a preformance [-]
Skipped school [x]
Written someone a nasty letter [X]
Cried over someone you loved [x]
Cried over someone you didn't even know [x]
Gone swimming in your clothes [x]
Been pantsed [-]
Taken a class you knew you'd fail [x]
Accidentally sat in gum on the curb [-]
Kissed a frog [-]
Been to summer camp [-]
Had a best friend [x]
Wanted to kill someone [X]
Seen a dead person [x]
Played Ding Dong Ditch [-]
Gone skinny dipping [-]
Pretended to be someone else [x]
Met a celebrity [x]
Killed something [x]
Stayed up all night [x]
Played Strip Poker [-]
Seen the Rocky Horror Picture show [-]
Toilet papered someone's house [-]
Cried in public [x]
Clicked on a pop-up [X]
Read a really bad book even though it's really bad [x]
Thought you had a mental problem [x]
Cussed someone out [X]
Freaked out because you thought things were changing too fast [x]
Had a movie marathon [x]
Been in love [x]
Worn make-up [x]
Scratched a chalk board [x]
Cheated on a school assignment/test [x]
Punched someone [x]
Wanted to die [x]
Pondered existence [X]
Had milk come out of your nose because you were laughing so hard [-]
Been indecisive [X]
Hated yourself [x]
Been obsessed with something [x]
Ran the mile [-]
Ran with scissors and actually hurt yourself or someone else [-]
Listened to a CD straight through without skipping any songs [-]
Used a calculator [x]
Been to Canada [-]
Ran away from home [-]
Tried to find the words but they didn't come out right [X]
Thought about what it would be like to be the opposite sex [X]
Sat in the middle of the street [-]
Written a song [X]
Gotten annoyed because people can’t differentiate among "their" "there" and "they're" [X]
Been bitten by a snake [-]
Gone on a road trip [-]
Wished you could fly [x]
Had a near death experience [x]
Talked to yourself on AIM [-]
Shaved your head [-]
Spun until you were immensely dizzy [x]
Been ice skating [-]
Gotten stuck inside an elevator [-]
Been paintballing [-]

Does it matter
Now that you're gone
Your prescence lingers
How could it be that we were both fooled
Everything was a mirage
Thud, on the ground
Hard, in a pool of blood
Is that what you wanted?

All of a sudden all wonderful memories seem to have morphed into a nightmare.
Unrelenting clutches of sadness,
Unpredictable days.

You make sporadic reappearances in my life, especially when i least wanted it.
Now, i know you lied to me.

I hate you.

Today was fine, really. I discovered youtube had alot of BoA mtvs and such. So i'm gonna post alot of them here. They're good classics. See the young BoA, and the shake-ya-booty side of her.

"My Prayer" A tribute to herself.


"ID Peace B" Her first ever MTV, and also the one which sent her into stardom.


"My Name" She shakes her booty like hell. LOL


Btw i apologise for any inconvenience. I know how it's like when another song interrupts the playback of your own song. =X

Woke up, and was preparing to go to school when i realised i had been stricken with the flu virus. I was sneezing continuously and my eyes were welled up with tears non-stop.

Shivering, made my way to my bed. I didn't even have the strength or energy to 'lie' down. I literally fell flat, thank God my bed was a bed, not a mattress or else i would be suffering from a concussion.

I'm alright now, and i guess it's probably because i had alot of rest.

It's 6 now and my mom is coming home late cuz she's trying to clear off tomorrow's work so she could go for her father's brother's wake.

I think i suck alot in the past. I am one freak. I would get all worked up and pissy just because someone whom i think i'm more superior than buys a new shoe, like some adidas shoe. I'ld feel inferior, and in my wicked mind i'ld think that she's trying to challenge me.

HOW CHILDISH!

Right now, i don't. In fact i even feel happy for them. Sometimes i feel so amused with myself and my reactions. Heck, i seriously can't give a shit to who's wearing adidas or some nikes to school or who's bag is $600 and such. NOT ANYMORE.

Why care? One of the reasons for me to not care is because i know i can't afford such luxuries, and no point holding on and harping on to that hope that you'ld be able to carry one to school. If you can't afford it, that's it. You can't, isn't it? I'm not saying that everyone should just be realistic and give up on what you dream of being and such, just that you got to know your limitations.

Maybe people like HER would think im saying this because my godfather isn't rich anymore i can't flaunt bla bla bla, go ahead. Anyway your definition of rich and my definition of rich is definitely different. (Wow alot of Ds) All in all i can't be little miss spoilt brat who lives on somebody else's SAVINGS. Not anymore.

Speaking of which..i'm worried, like what if i lose passion in photoshop, right after a few days after i buy creativesuite?(Assuming that i got good grades and got it) MAN. It's so expensive! And if i have it i must make the best out of it, but how? And do i have THAT MUCH time?

Blah.

Those feelings are growing close to 2 years. I've let go recently, but somehow i still give a damn to that jerk.

Love versus Infatuation.

Just a tiny, little linguistic flaw found in him made me so turned off.

Yet, such a big flaw in another is still not making me give up.

See the difference?

Woke up and dragged my ass to Jack's Place. As we were about to leave home my mom's father's brother's family members called and said my mom's father's brother died in the morning.

He was the uncle whom i've visited 2 months ago. Everyone thought he was alright but it turned out wrong. So my mother was being a prick by walking so fast and talking and talking throughout, making me unable to listen to the radio. Not that i don't want to talk to her, but what she says are what i hear everyday. Not good.

Had my usual chicken soup, mixed grill and then some chocolate cake. Karmun and i wanted to meet up and study so we met in jack's place first. I told her to come later and i'll go meet her but she appeared just as i stepped out of the restaurant, making me stepping into it in a very short while.

God-dad told me that the new hard disk costed him $100 over and with the purchase of the beloved suite it's gonna cost close to a $1000. Maybe only a few tens of dollars away.

....Actually, i don't think he'll not buy for me even if i fail. Because the hard disk drive is already so pricey, and surely he doesn't want to waste that $100 over away? HAHA

Bought stationeries and stuff.

Went to Bugis and played DOTA, took neoprints as well. I'm getting addicted to that game. After that we headed to pastamania and i made my pasta go with shredded cheese with every bite. Then walked about again, and i decided to go indulge in some coffeebean pure chocolate drink.

Yes, and so I drank. Slacked and talked and went home.

Bleah. Felt moody just now.

Sorry if i was some rude arse and behaved as though i was picking a fight to those whom i'd talked to on msn just now.

My mom and god-dad might be going on a holiday. I slapped myself for thinking something fishy is going on just now. HAHA

They might be going to Japan and if they really were to go then YAY, i can go sneak out for some night life fun. =D

Mommy said "We're old already, if you study hard you can go"

Awww. =x She's asking me to let her go first, think i dunno ah?!

This is an insult to the poetry. Don't say i didn't warn you.

Feet sinking deep, deep, down the ground
Mud envelopes me like a hound (LOL WTF)
Feeling the mushy slushy
Enough to make me go wibbly wobbly

Pain is all you could see in her eyes
As she lives on the edge, her life
There's no consolidation in matters,
No consolation in battles.

Competition, trepidation,
Amidst the green she lies
Like a wounded butterfly

Flapping her wings vigourously,
Perfection outside, wonderfully.


Bleah, that was some crap.

It's 12 soon. Shall go and study.

What is your personality Type.

SkepticA Loyal Skeptic is concerned with finding certainty or security. Their sense of being safe is challenged by a world that appears to be dangerous. This may take them in one of two directions to fear the world, or to deny there is anything to fear. They may then believe you must avoid and escape perceived danger. Or they may believe you must face and fight it.A Loyal Skeptic will tend to be vigilant. They also tend to have many doubts, and can be highly ambivalent. They can easily misread or mistrust others. There can be difficulties with authority figures either in the form of excess loyalty and obedience, or rebellion and opposition. Danger can be seen everywhere. This can result in anxiety and fear and increased vigilance. The Loyal Skeptic may focus excessively on negative future outcomes, the downside and what could go wrong. Trying to protect themselves from imagined disasters, they will end up acting in ways that create self-fulfilling prophecies. Others may feel a sense of being scrutinized, pursued or accused often erroneously. People can be pushed away by the excessive vigilance and attempt to control them. Others resent that the Loyal Skeptic is projecting negative things onto them, and they yearn for a more relaxed state. Personal growth for a Loyal Skeptic is to learn to embrace uncertainty. Begin to focus on the positive aspects of life, the positive qualities in other people. The ability to trust will be helped by internally asking the question What if what I think I see here is not real? and then doing calm, respectful reality-testing with others.
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So true.

I'm in the shittiest mood ever.

Everything's not going right. Friends, GRADES ESPECIALLY. That program really, really means alot to me. It's the only souce of comfort for me, or so i feel. I won't be certain if i'll really be a graphic designer in the future because who knows my passion for it will die out tomorrow? Still it is a comfort zone for me though.

It's ironic how i whine about whining being pointless when i AM whining.

Was sobbing about my results. Wow. I feel so inferior all of a sudden. My english standard has dropped ALOT. I've lost the oomph to go score some 83/100 again.

I'm getting very annoyed with something. Just because i call Erwin 'papa', everyone starts thinking i like him. -Rolls eyes. WHAT, THE, FUCK? So what if i told some people that my new love is a falcon guy? I understand that it everyone thinks it is him because i am seemingly on terms with him, BUT NAH. _|_


Do not think that i call him 'papa' just because i like him or whatever shit. I am just amused that he asks me to shut up, and yet he still responses. By responding it could be pointing the middle finger, or anything. Majority thinks responding has got to be something good, something polite, but never something bad, something rude. What kind of an understanding of the word 'response' is that?!

School was fun especially during Literature. It was the only lesson that made me laugh the most. Miss kong made us sit in a circle and before that i played musical chairs with Felicia and Dewi. HAHA, I WAS THE FIRST TO GET OUT. =X

My mood went completely down the moment i had another chem test, and got my previous test's results back.

Only 53%. Godfather expects 60% and above, HOW AM I GOING TO GET IT?!

I was darn moody cuz i was wondering if i'll have that creativesuite or not. I am THAT desperate for it. And the chem test we had today was a KILLER. Heard it was for the Pure science students. Bleah.

Went out with Karmun after school. Wanted to go to marina sq but got lost amidst the skyscrappers and cabbed to bras basah instead. Got ripped off by the taxi driver. <_<

HAD JACKS PLACE. =D

Walked around at raffles city and then came home.

Today was pretty fun, i would say. I am actually looking forward to floorball practices for the first time. I ran much much more for Mass Jog as well. Probably because i want to exercise more. I NEED TO LOSE FATS. I HAVE ALOT OF FATS. <_<

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I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy.
I'll be your hope
I'll be your love
Be everything that you need.
I'll love you more with every breath
Truly, madly, deeply do
I will be strong I will be faithful
'cause I'm counting on
A new beginning,
A reason for living,
A deeper meaning, yeah.

Chorus
I want to stand with you on a mountain.
I want to bath with you in the sea.
I want to lay like this forever.
Until the sky falls down on me.

And when the stars are shining
brightly in the velvet sky,
I'll make a wish, send it to heaven
Then make you want to cry.
The tears of joy for all the
pleasure in the certainty
That we're surrounded by the
comfort and protection of
the highest powers
In lonely hours
The tears devour you.

Chorus

Oh can you see it baby?
You don't have to close your eyes
'Cause it's standing right here before you
All that you need with surely come

I'll be your dream I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy
I'll be your hope I'll be your love
Be everything that you need
I'll love you more with every breath
Truly, madly, deeply do

Chorus

I want to stand with you on a
mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
I want to live like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

I didn't even know mid years are like 2 weeks away.

Actually, i dont take paper 1s seriously. To me they don't really mark the beginning of the exam, so i shall take it as that mid years are 3-4 weeks away. Sheesh.

I shall return to the days where i go home early every single day, asap after school and study sleep.

Verbiagelover . says:
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its like

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i like that his character

Verbiagelover . says:
damn sweet and all

Verbiagelover . says:
BUT THEN

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he is not as good looking as what i wanted him to be

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maybe what

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o.o

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why leh

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WHO

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NOT HOW

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NO

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HAHAHAHA

AHAHAHAHAHAHA (:

I just learnt how to make animations.

I am abso-fucking-lutely proud of myself.

I will be back probably after my exams, which is A MONTH from now! =D

I really have to study, and i have physics test coming up real soon, what's more K the lardass sucked with his explaination of theories, so i gotta study on my own.

I need to have all Bs for my subjects yeah. All for the sake of creativesuite.

Till then.

I am very very sad.

My dad bought us supper from delifrance.

I cried upon the thought of thinking he bought us that because he knows he wouldnt be able to take care of us that often anymore.

Because my parents will be officially divorced this tuesday.

Bleah.

Differences.

Are differences meant to be there so that we will learn how to smoothen things out and make things work out?

Or are they there for us to realise that we just can't work things out?
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I don't even know what i'm talking about.

All i know is i'm f-ing confused now.

To all you shitfucks who are giving B a hell of a irritating moment, here's a little something for you.

In your tiny, maggots-infested minds your equation of a best friend is probably this :

BEST FRIEND = The person who is always with you.

SORRY, but that is NOT what my dear friend B thinks. And the same goes for me too. The meaning of a best friend is self-explainatory. BEST-FRIEND. READ IT OUT.

A friend is the best just because he/she is always by your side? (Literally)

If you think that way, MY GOODNESS, you are SO NARROW-MINDED.

Stop asking her where her BEST FRIEND(referring to me) is when i'm not around. If you have the guts, come ask me WHERE I WENT right in my face. Don't just talk behind my back and act stupid when i'm there.

By the way, i am sometimes seen with her, sometimes not seen with her because i have MUCH MORE friends than you pathetic girls have. You only have each other, a fat girl with another fat girl, a cheena girl with another cheena girl, and that's it.

HOWEVER, that is not the case for me. I need to balance my time spent with the gays and with her, GET IT?!

Suddenly, i am overwhelmed with sadness. I find spending time at the canteen for recess
redundant. Everywhere is people. It would rock if there's just nobody else but myself.

Or maybe just that one close friend.

Forget it.

We can never click.

Not even when i try to make myself laugh.

I shall go and do my chinese homework and then revise now. I owe my chinese teacher like 5 chapters of exercises?! Sheesh. I don't like chinese language. Don't blame me.

I need to get all Bs for my adodesuite to be in my arms.

Bs are actually easy, yes, just 60marks, but getting it for all my subjects are a little difficult. I'm fine with passing them all, but not passing with better marks.

It was you who kept me going on no matter what was going on...i never told you but you was there for me...cuz baby you don't have to change..you don't know how much you mean to me....whenever you're down you know that you can lean on me...now my loyalty will always be with you if you just promise me, that you stay real, just like you are cuz baby you don't have to change..

JLO - Hold you down

To think i was so infatuated or maybe in love since love is overrated already with that someone for close to 2 years.

2 FREAKING YEARS. When it was always a one-sided affair, it lasted 2 years.

What kept me going on was that perserverence could move someone, but apparently it didn't work out for me in that sense.

Whatever it is, i'm happy that i am out of that shithole.

I think i'm really falling sick, and i might not go to school tomorrow.

I lost my voice. There's this awful sore throat in me. I am still sniffing prolly cuz i
have a cold already.

Bloody hell.

Went to CHC with Dewi, PQ, a sick(PHYSICALLY) raymond, raymond's mom, jf and darryl.

The church atmosphere was good, and the drama each year is definitely getting better and better! I guess i'll turn up for the next church service. (:

After that we left raymond and his mom on the train while we alighted at Bugis and ate Yoshinoya. Crapped, and gossiped. MAN, jiefeng was making us laugh so loud, especially me.

Poor JF. His mom called halfway and he had to take such a funny picture. Moral of the story? SWITCH OF YOUR HANDPHONE EVEN WHEN TAKING NEOPRINTS HAHAHAH



By the way we were being cheapos by standing inside the booths without paying money and then snapping away with my camera. XD


After that we went to play DOTA. This is my virgin attempt against the guys. Sorry if you detect a pun. *Sly* We got bored and thus played CS. Man, i can kill the guys with a headshot even without proper aiming. I am so proud of myself.

Dewi complained of feeling sick so the guys sent her home via a cabby whilst the poor me had to walk a big round to the MRT station cuz the one at bugis junction was LOCKED. And i had to walk a long flight of stairs cuz the escalators wasn't working.

WORSE OF ALL, I GOT MY BACK RUBBED BY A DRUNK FOREIGN WORKER ON THE TRAIN. BLA.

Yay, my gastric is working again, because i skipped my late dinner. The rice at home SUCKED. So i didn't bother eating. Now my mouth is filling up with sour saliva again.

I packed my room today. Here are the shared stuffs between me and my sister.


Before i go, here are some random pictures.

My family doctor, or rather the doctor that i always visit either is trying to help me save money, or is trying to cut his clinic's packaging costs.

Had the usual check-your-tummy sort of checkup, and then he asked me "Yours is the same problem as last time. You got any medicine that i gave you left?"

I said "Yeah"

AND HE DIDN'T PRESCRIBE ME ANY MEDICATION.

Which means i only spent $8, and what's more i waited for about an hour, only to be told in my face that i can continue eating my old medicine. &^$^#^

Well done, world.

It's not even 7am and i've already woken up, all set to go for floorball training.

Things didnt turn out like that.

I woke up with a fucking stinging pain in the right side of my stomach, which comes in a disgusting package of morning sickness sneezes, or rather, sinus.

Today is so ruined.

I feel so sick even after eating.

I think i'm falling ill.

Let's hope i'll be all fine during the training.

I believe i should either not do a thing(and really ignore it) or do the best i can if i'm already doing it.

Yes, you heard it right.

I want to do the best in the things i am doing, such as graphic designing. I'm sure i've not unleashed my talented soul yet. HAHAH

I give up on you. Despite telling and showing that i'll try my best to be there for you, you still remain oblivious, or rather you pretend to be oblivious to the things i do for you.

Like sivien, i hate most of the girls in my class as well. Not hate, but there's just 2 groups of people. And it just so happens that these 2 groups.. well, i can't tolerate noise and too playful people, BUT i can't tolerate boring people as well. Boring people who only know how to hum/sing chinese pop songs at my ear. YUCK.

Examinations are coming, and 3D is lagging very far behind for physics because the class is just so noisy, and nobody makes an effort to shut their mouths up, thus distracting the others, and creating even more noise.

I know teachers read my blog. TEACHERS, HELP PLEASE.

My godfather actually suggested paying the physics teacher extra money so that he could teach us(me and my friends) after school. HAH.

I am so dedicated to graphic designing.

This skin, inclusive of coding took me about 2 and a half hours. Though i'm not satisfied with the aesthetic aspect of this artwork i'm rather proud of myself because i know i'm dedicated to my craft.

I'm having some bad gastric pains right now, and i actually bore with it untill i was done with everything including blogging right now.

SO I SHALL GO EAT NOW. =D

My sister has got her ass badly burnt because she tried to install a pirated DOTA game onto her computer which has a virus in it.

See, using pirated stuffs suck.

God-dad said it's like adobe will know if you use pirated stuffs(unless you do something else which i can't reveal) cuz it will log back to adobe and when adobe sees one serial code being used in so many desktops it is obvious that it is pirated. It will ban you from using it(i dont know how) and then issue you a lawyer's letter. WOOO.

That is just how law-abiding he is.

I need to upgrade my photoshop and computer.

Enough.

I shall go hunt for some photoshop brushes so i won't get bored.

I am so sick of photoshop elements.

Everything in it is so old, so old that the functions that are used in tutorials ring no bell to my version.

I could at least know the the 'healing brush' tool in CS versions refer to the clone too, but for other stuffs like the 'fade wave' function, I HAVE NO CLUE.

That means no graphics, NO GRAPHICS for me for another 2 months. I am 'graphically-starved'

More studying for me.

Im seriously feeling so f*cked because my photoshop is such an old one.

I AM BURNING with jealousy towards those with new versions of PS, seriously.

I want to die.

I have to wait till i get to know my results before i can have my beloved creativesuite, HOW SAD is that? :( :( :(

However i know that if i get it i will feel so happy that it is worth all my anger now, as the more frustration you feel now will actually be the level of happiness you feel later, but that's another case.

I just want to upgrade la. I can't wait.

It's suffocating.

Me : Why did you do a survey for them? (People from getfresh.com.sg - fresh air for women)

Sister : Because the girl who approached me was a chiobu.

Me : Hmmmm, yeah lor. I didn't help that guy with his survey because he looks gay.

Sister : Definitely, the chiobu thought you was a smoker though.

Me : HUH?! How come?!

Sister : Probably cuz you chose not to do the survey.

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Heck, if it really was this, I wish that pretty girl 10 year's of lousy romance luck. Just because i rejected to help with the survey means that i smoke? Does rejecting a survey in any way shows my repulsiveness towards the subject of the survey? Gosh.

By the way i don't understand why the 'surveyers' or rather the people who question us with survey questions like to tell us that our personal particulars wouldn't be revealed when we have to give our personal particulars. As if i would believe.

My sister treated me for dinner at Pastamania's.

None of us could finished the two huge servings of pasta, gosh. I think the best is still the bolognese pasta. The rest were so creamy, you would feel full before you were even done with half of the serving.

Walked around harbourfront, and then went off to tiong bahru.

On our journey there by MRT yours truly had the train doors snapping shut just before she wanted to enter, leaving her sister who was already inside the train guffawing her head off.

Not funny okay.

And when we reached outram mrt station she sneezed loudly, on purpose. What's more the station was very quiet and it was so embarassing. Grrrr!

Saw mr sekaran at tiongbahru btw.

Sissy bought some comic. Bla. I hate comics. I think they're lame.

My mom won't be home till tomorrow. She has eloped with my godfather.

OMG, TRUST ME TO SAY THAT.

She has went to my relative's place for some overnight mahjong session i guess, so i have the house all to myself since my sister and dad is most of the time out.

I had 3 charsiew buns for my breakfast and i'm starving as i typed this. Starving despite i had 2 full bowls of kokokrunch(AGAIN!). I'm cooking some instant porridge now.

Whilst preparing the food, it suddenly dawned on me that the 18th of april was coming. The 18th is the day where my parents will go to court, and hear the judge's verdict on our(me and my sister's) custody. Then i imagined how life would be like if we were under my dad's custody, which is a high impossibility since he can't even manage his life.

I probably would be screaming my head off because i don't know how i'm going to survive.

I don't really want them to divorce. At least, i can still make sure my dad is fine, unlike in the future where he stays somewhere else. Even though we hardly exchange any words, it is still much better than not exchanging words and not seeing each other that oftenly anymore.

If you look at this in another perspective you might find that there isn't any difference between living with us, or living alone, for my dad's case. Well, i have to agree because there is but just the emotional feeling of not wanting him to go. Other than the latter, it makes no difference.

I was thinking of what i could do to help with the separation and such.

I came to a conclusion. There is nothing i can do for their case, because i am just a 15 year old. Let the adults handle their problem, and i shall handle mine which is to be doing homework now and not blogging. <_<

I wonder, when i take care of my old parents in the future, will i be taking care of them because i ought to, i am their child, i love them, or will i be doing so out of social and moral obligations. =/

It would take ages to read through her blog, which is written in a fustian manner. Gosh.

Good afternoon. I am itching to go out because i have quite some money with me. It always happens.

I'm trying hard to hold myself back and save that money instead of spending it away. Bla. THE FEELING IS HORRIBLE.

Somehow i wonder how it is like to rusticate. Being in a countryside, with no urban distractions like computers, mobile phones, and such. Just back into nature.

This post is so darn random. I'm not in a good mood, as usual.

Because i want to go out. and spend money.

I want to adopt a cat too.

It's so saddening. These cats need a permanent home!

ADOPT CATS. =D

www.catwelfare.org

I'll probably adopt one when i'm 18, or when my hamsters are all with God.

There's a difference between not bothering what others think about you, and not bothering what others tell you when it is concerning something that you ought to change.

It is definitely great that you are confident and nothing brings you down but the line is drawn when your confidence gets too high and turns into arrogance.

When people tell you to change, you at least LISTEN and THINK about it. There isn't no reason why someone comes and tells you that you ough to do this and that.

You don't listen only when you ask for their opinion because that is plain impoliteness and arrogance.When people tell you what possible-faults they see in you, you at least say something, or try to clarify. You don't give a one syllable answer like "oh". It really pisses the other party off, damn it.

Mom is lecturing me about make-up.

God-dad told me on the phone :

Your face very pretty already, no need add so many things. Somemore you are still young, your face still changing, better don't put make up. Your skin is nice already, no pimples. Dont need to put makeup. Makeup is for the uglier kind who needs it desperately or else they will have to lelonglelong and discount themselves

WTF.

I WAS LAUGHING so hard at the lelong lelong part. <_<

I really gotta study hard. 60 FOR ALL MY SUBJECTS then i can have the creativesuite. Otherwise... bah.

70 and above for all of my grades at the end of the year and i will be handsomely rewarded with one grand. Talk about being desperate for me to study. <_<

Just came back from lunching at jack's place with the godfather. Heck, the cute waiter cut his hair. *Groans* I frequent that same branch so much, that even the waiters know me. One of them who is cute but sadly short even laughed when he saw me. <_< Can't blame them. I visit them at least once a month. <_<

Discussed about my birthday celebration. I am going to treat people like Dewi, raymond, felicia, peiqin and maybe jiefeng and jieneng. So that'll be 7 people if you add myself in. Considering that each person spends $30 there, i will need $210.

WOAH. Better start saving up now. The meals will be paid by me, not my godfather. He's not gonna chip in a single cent.<_<

After that went to purchase hamster food, and a eyeshadow palette. Brown shades.

I SUCK IN BROWN EYESHADOW.

Dark colours don't suit big eyes.

I looked like one fucking prozzie.

Bla. I looked so grown up, gosh. :S

And that was $22 gone.

Well done mayee.

I'm sorry. I lied because i couldn't trust you. What i told you was all fake la, seriously. I'm glad i told you it was fake, because if you were to spread it it would seriously do ALOT of damage to me.

Being a real bored person, i looked through technorati.

Searched for Xiaxue.

I saw so many posts about people wanting to learn photoshop just because XX is good at it.

How loserific is that.

HAHAH

Dang.

I want adobesuite PREMIUM, not standard.

Just look at the pricing. It's obvious i'll be getting the standard version.

SGD$600+

US $1199 doesn't go so low till $600plus lor.

*BAWLS*

Added a Survey below.

I am home early. But i was made a housewife. In fact, a miserable one.

I had been starving because i only had 2 packets of breadsticks to last me all the way till 2pm. When i reached home i was instantly led to the kitchen by the delicious aroma of a warm styrofoam box of curry chicken rice. The turn off factor was the sambal chilli that was on top of the rice.

I took a spoon and started scooping the chilli out. The chilli seemed to spread even more, and i decided to just eat the rest of the 'untouched' rice. I was so hungry, i didn't even sit down and eat. I stood up and ate. I was THAT hungry.

Then i went to take a bowl because i wanted some soup, and my box of rice was left at the edge of the table. As i hurriedly pulled the lid, and it was actually the tiny slit where u slide the other part of the box in so it GAVE WAY and lo and behold, my half-eaten curry chicken rice was now all on the floor, SOME EVEN WENT INTO MY SHOES. (So so so hungry till i didnt even take off my shoes earlier on. Took them off as i stood and ate. x.x )

So for about 15 minutes, i was squatting on the floor with a half-SATISFIED tummy, with vulgarities spewing out of my still-chewing mouth, scooping the rice back into the box.

CHEESE BUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thankfully i had some antiseptic wet tissues. Made cleaning much easier. Blah. Then i ate PLAIN, white rice. Ain't i pathetic?!

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School today was a little on the fun side. Forgot what happened, just know that it was fun.

I know BM loves every pupil. Because we have ADOBE PHOTOSHOP CS 2(2 SOMEMORE!) installed in lab 3's computers, like how cool is that? CS 2 is the newest. (And the priciest if i'm not wrong)

I am so jealous. I played with it, and i declare that i have fallen in love with the CS 2 version already.

Le Godfather has a throat infection. He's recovering already though. (: He has promised to buy me the creativesuite after the exams. YAY. He said he will only buy after he sees my results, but i'm sure i'll get my way, which is to get it before i get my results, but after the exams already.

He said he doesnt mind going to buy it sometime now. If he does go, i shall snatch it the moment he pays the cashier. Man, i can't afford to NOT have it.

When it comes, it marks the vicious cycle of photoshopping - sleeping - photoshopping and then sleeping again. I'll seriously stay glued in front of the computer the whole day, maybe just take a 15 minutes break cuz i'll get dizzy after awhile.

I AM THAT EXCITED.

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SAD SECTION.
01. Have you ever really cried your heart out? yup.
02. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep? duh
03. Have you ever cried on your friend's shoulder? Nah. I only play with my mucus when i'm on their shoulder. KIDDING.
04. Have you ever cried over the opposite sex? yup.
05. Do you cry when you get an injury? Only when it hurts so badly.
06. Do certain songs make you cry? yes.
HAPPY SECTION.
01. Are you a happy person? as long as i have photoshop and alan leong.
02. What can always make you happy? photoshop. i have no life.
03. Do you wish you were happier? nah. it doesnt really matter.
04. Is being happy overrated? it doesnt matter, does it?
05. Can music make you happy? no. NO!

LOVE SECTION.
01. How many times have you had your heart broken? 657481979 times.
02. Have you ever loved someone so much that you'd die for them? yes.
03. Anyone besides your friends/family ever said they loved you? yea. love is overused though.
04. Have you ever been head over heels? yes.
05. Who are two people you love right now? PAPA AND MAMA. <_<

HATE SECTION.
01. Who do you actually hate? Hate. Erm. None. There's only a strong dislike.
02. Have you ever made a hit list? ?
03. Have you ever been on a hit list? ?
04. Are you a mean bully? I can be mean with words. No physical stuffs though.
05. Do you hate George Bush? Im not even interested to know him(as in his actions).

SELF ESTEEM SECTION.
01. Are you good looking? No. I have awful freckles.
02. Do you wish you could be someone else? A plastic barbie like Dawn?!?! ....I wished i could be alan leong's sister. INCESTINCEST

I HAVE ...
[ ] done drugs
[ ] been to a rave.
[x] ridden in a taxi.
[ ] jumped a ramp with a bike.
[x] been used.
[ ] ran from the cops.
[ ] been fired
[ ] snuck into a movie.
[ ] got hit by a car
[ ] fired a real gun.
[ ] snuck out of the house.
[ ] been arrested.
[ ] gone in a mosh pit.
[ ] stolen something from your school.
[ ] celebrated New Year's in Times Square or Disney World
[ ] gone on a blind date.
[ ] had a crush on a teacher (after i graduated)
[ ] celebrated Mardi-Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] been to Europe.
[x] been to Australia
[ ] been to Hawaii
[x] skipped school.
[ ] thrown up from drinking.
[ ] played 'Clue'.
[x] had a sleepover.
[ ] gone ice skating.
[x] been cheated on.
[ ] had your tonsils out.
[ ] have/had a TRUCK.
[ ] driven a car.
[ ] totaled a car.
[x] flashed someone - i flashed at fifi. =X
[x] been flashed

DO YOU ...
[x] feel loved.
[x] feel lonely.
[x] feel happy.
[x] hate yourself.
[ ] have a dog.
[x] sing along with your music.
[ ] listen to Hawaiian Music.
[ ] listen to rock
[ ] listen to punk
[x] listen to hip hop
[ ] listen to rap.
[ ] listen to country.
[ ] listen to reggae.
[ ] listen to techno.
[ ] listen to hardcore.
[x] listen to pop.
[x] listen to r&b.
[ ] listen to jazz.
[ ] listen to indie.
[ ] listen to christian music
[ ] listen to bands that can't be put into a category.
[ ] listen to showtunes
[x] have hobbies
[ ] skateboard.
[x] Get good grades - How good is good? I get Cs. and im happy.
[ ] play an instrument.
[x] have slippers.
[ ] wear boxers
[x] wear eyeliner
[x] wear mascara
[ ] like the color blue.
[x] like the color pink.
[ ] like the color red
[ ] like the color green
[x] like the color black
[ ] like the color purple
[ ] like neon colors
[ ] think all those colors are okay except the ones you x-ed are better
[x] like to read
[x] like to write.
[ ] Have long hair.
[ ] have medium length hair.
[x] have short hair.
[ ] have a laptop.
[ ] have a pager.
[x] have a cellphone

ARE YOU...
[x] bored
[ ] happy
[ ] upset
[ ] blonde
[ ] brunette
[ ] a redhead
[ ] Samoan
[ ] Philipino
[ ] Korean
[ ] French
[ ] American
[ ] Italian
[ ] Black
[ ] Mexican
[x] Asian
[x] A Christian
[ ] A Muslim
[ ] Polish
[ ] Irish
[ ] German
[ ] Austrian
[ ] Russian
[ ] Norwegian
[ ] Danish
[ ] Hispanic
[ ] Other
[ ] No clue.
[ ] a Hindu.
[ ] a scientologist
[ ] agnostic
[ ] athiest
[ ] satanist
[ ] religiously confused
[ ] short
[x] average
[ ] tall.
[ ] realistic.
[x]an emotional person.
[x]IMing someone.
[ ] scared to die.
[ ] buzzed
[ ] high
[ ] caffeinated
[x] annoyed.
[ ] hungry.
[ ] thirsty.
[ ] on the phone.
[x] in your room.
[ ] drinking something.
[ ] eating something.
[ ] very ticklish
[x]listening to music

LOOK AT ME.
01. What is your current hair color? black
02. Whats your natural color? black
03. What color are your eyes? black
04. Current Piercings? All 4 shut up!
05. Straight Hair or Curls? straight


CURRENTLY WEARING.
01. What shirt are you wearing? uniform.
02. Shorts? shorts.
03. Shoes? none.
04. Underwear? yeah.
05. Necklaces? none

THIS OR THAT.
01. Rock or rap; none
02. Coffee or Hot Cocoa; Hot cocoa
03. Wild Night out or Romantic Night in; Wild nights out
04. Chocolate or Vanilla; chocolate.
05. Hummer or Sports Car; sports car.
06. Bracelet or Necklace; necklace
07. History or Science; Science
08. Sleep in or Early to rise; Early to rise
09. Beach or Boardwalk; beach.
10. Hoodie or Tee Shirt; t-shirt
11. Night or Day; night.
12. High School or college; College
13. California or Florida; california.
14. Love at first sight or Learn to Love; Love at first sigh

HAVE YOU EVER.
01. Hugged someone? yup.
02. Been on the phone until the sun came up? yes
03. Put a song on repeat for more than an hour? yeah
04. Laughed so hard you peed in your pants? nah

LASTS.
01. person you talked to in person? Stella
02. person you talked to online? JENNY JENSEN
03. person you talked to on the phone? Dad
05. laugh? Whist on the phone with dewi
06. last time you had a shower? Yesterday =x

0THER.
01. Do you like surveys? Depends
02. What kind of shampoo do you use? I use pantene
03. Do you get along with your parents? sort of
04. Do you have mental breakdowns? no
05. Did you ever fake being sick? yup.

CURRENT.
01. Current Mood; sleepy.
02. Current music; Jamiroquai - Seven days in sunny june
03. Current hair; Messy
04. Current Longing; sleep.
05. Current Thing I Ought To Be Doing; revising
06. Current Windows Open; This
07. Current desktop picture; Me and my sister
08. Current Favorite Music Artist; BOA STILL.

I just realised, i typed 'socks' as SONGS.

-_-

Just read my previous previous entry. Am not gonna edit it. HAHAHA

BLA.

In the comp lab now.

Just witnessed a fight between Wilson and Abdul. HAHAHAH

Was on the phone with Dewi a few minutes ago and she shared with me these few jokes.

This guy had his hair burnt, and he went to the doctor's to have his wound dressed up. Dressed up it was, in WHITE bandage.

What is he now?
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A cotton bud.

This man died and he went to Hell, over there in hell, the King of Hades asked him what he would like to be in his next life. He wants to be something that has wings, and sucks blood, without being in the dark. What is it?
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A SANITARY PAD!

^That one cracked me up like hell.

Okay i must go do my homework already.

MY DAD is one f-ing f-ker. Sorry for being so rude but there's nothing i can say but to say that because he has just bleached my brand new pair of school songs into this awful yellowish pair.

BLAH.

I am one sneaky girlhamster.

I found a stash of angbaos that belonged to me, but was hidden by my mom.

ME BEING ME, THE VERY SNEAKY PERSON,i actually took some money, and i cut out slips of paper that were of the actual size of the note and put them into the empty red packets.

How sneaky can i get?!??!!

This entry is random.

Somehow i just wish things will proceed to my plan :

On the last paper for the mid year examinations, which i suppose is Art, i will hurriedly finish it and then flee the moment the invigilators release us. I will flee all the way to Bras Basah to have lunch at Jack's Place with my godfather, and then later we will go get the adobesuiteeee.

However, the downside would be me not being able to purchase it because i didn't bring my student pass, bleah.

I've not replaced my student pass yet, FYI.

Thank you for cheering me up by showing me your well done imitations of a llama chewing grass, with even more actions that not even your boyfriend has seen before, Dewi. I love you. HAHAH

It's not even 3. And i'm home.

Fed myself full at the hawker centre with Dewi and the gays. Heck, i said not to spend a single cent on food and i would be able to save $10 a day. In the end, i only saved $4 while i spent the rest on food.

FATS FATS FATS.

Before i decide to warm my seat, i shall march off, be a good girl and tidy the place.

Anyway there might be visitors tomorrow, like Belinda.

I'm so photoshop-sick.

I WANT TO UPGRADE MY PHOTOSHOP.

I just wish i could have it right NOW.

Come to think of it, life is so short.

We definitely wouldnt be able to fulfill all of our wishes.

However, we should at least attempt to make our wishes come true. In this context of wishes i mean by the wishes that can be realised, not something like getting the moon into your home or something like that.

I think my life is meaningful la.. hor ?

Well...because i've finally learnt how hard money comes by, and i've definitely mastered the art of keeping my lips sealed. :|

I dont waste much of my time playing anymore.

No more staying out untill 5pm on school days. I'm glad for what i've done to myself. It's much better.

IT'S SO MISERABLE.

I WANT MY ADOBE ILLUSTRATOR HERE.
I WANT MY ADOBE PS CS HERE.
I WANT MY ADOBESUITE LIKE RIGHT NOW.

I'm really desperate for it.

I had a nap.

And in my dream i dreamt that i was walking to the shelves of Adobe products. I was walking faster, and i almost looked like i wanted to fly because i was rushing myself so hard.

Then out of nowhere, this fat man walked across, MR KOH WALKED ACROSS.

He bumped into me, and i flew off.

Each time i attempt to reach for the shelf of Adobe products i got that sort of treatment.

WHAT KIND OF A DREAM IS THAT?!?!?!?!?!

Okay im seriously very excited about it. I'll seriously focus on photoshop so much that i don't know what i'll do. Maybe even skip classes, but hey, it's in the June holidays.

If i get it now or in May before the exams, MY RESULTS WILL BE VERY bad.

Not only that, i should go get myself another hard disk first. This elements thing is already lagging my pc very badly and IMAGINE have like 4 adobe programs in your computer.

:S I would be surprised if i could even nudge a person, damn it.

I am very happy today. I had the best laugh for the 1st quarter of 2006.

Went to school with my hamster peachyboy. Everyone was playing with him, and he pooed on erwin's hand the first thing in the morning, LOL.

Teachers and everyone including the guys were playing with peachyboy, and i'm sure my poor hamster has been traumatised, it always happens.

We were at the 3rd floor, just beside the lockers, and i was playing with peachy. Then erwin came and held my wrist and shaking it, mind you, peachyboy fell like more than 167cm of height. <_<

And then he was FLAT on the floor for like 5 seconds, with me staring in utter horror and i almost cried.

Then he got okay and scurried off, before i realised, EVERYONE including people i didnt know were surrounding me in like, a CIRCLE, as if my friend or something died. Like so dramatic la.

Went to help out with the preparation of the carnival. As usual, had very very good laughs with everyone. I can't describe everything because there's just too much to say. In short, it was a good day.

To add on to my happiness, my godfather MIGHT be buying me Adobe Suite. It's an all-in-one program. Photoshop CS, Illustrator, and many more. Student price is $600 plus, which i presume will be $700 if you add in the GST and so on. The salesman suggested that he get the whole package since Photoshop CS works well with PS 7 only, and i want CS what, so for optimum performance i need both, which is very pricey. Might as well spend $600 plus and buy all that i need once and for all.

I think it's a good deal too.

With a mood as foul as a stagnant, underground canal, how could it be that i wouldn't be in the mood for some depressing graphics?

Heck, this piece took me only like 15 minutes. *Proud*

Presenting....

"Because i hate you"

The heart represents me, and the tree is the amount of hatred, or rather anger i have. The image conveys its meaning already.

bla.

This is infuriating.

I NEED A NEWER VERSION OF PHOTOSHOP.

PS ELEMENTS 2 IS SERIOUSLY VERY VERY SUPERANNUATED.

It is so annoying. I want to learn new stuffs, BUT I CAN'T, BECAUSE I DO NOT HAVE CERTAIN FUNCTIONS that the new versions have, like how irritating is that?!

I cannot take it anymore.

I'm going to try my best to get a new version by this month, or else i'll seriously rot with foam in my mouth.

GRRR.

It is equally annoying for people who use pirated copies of photoshop and then make it sound like they know a shit when they DON'T, and especially when they lack even the interest to learn.

I'm very jealous of those people with newer photoshop versions.

However i would hate them if they do not bring them to good use.

Disclaimer : We all have different definations of 'new', don't we? So don't feel that i'm talking about you alright.

Category one storm clouds looms above my head.

I was famished - I only had one cheesebun(LOL) in the morning, and i didnt eat anything else during recess, by the time i came home at 2pm i was already starving.

I was rushing in the morning so i didn't bring my keys and i called my dad to leave a key outside for me, then he FORGOT to leave the key outside for me. I called him and asked him to come home and he told my my mother was at home, so i got in.

The moment i took off my shoes she came and ordered me to play this DVD for her on my sister's PC, like bloody hell, i don't know how to operate that damned program so i said "I DONT KNOW" and she said if i don't know how to operate it i should have said i didn't know instead of showing her a very very angry face.

Like wtf?

And now she's nagging about me having a black face just because she told me to help her.

My parents are some f-ers, seriously.

I don't want to talk about my dad. Bloody hell.

C'mon, my close friends should know that he brought shame upon my family for like a gazillion times? And i can't force myself to respect such a person.

For the past 3 hours, i have been working very very hard.

I was busy designing the coloured prints for the upcoming school carnival that is on this Saturday, and as the prints were churning out from the printer i was doing my powerpoint presentation for the physics project tomorrow.

Because the prints had different colours, i had to constantly go back to the photoshop window and change all the fonts and brushes to another colour.

TIRING!

Here is one sample of what i did.

Now, i have to slog it out with my maths assignments, =(

Heck, i can almost read out all the information about UV light without referring to any notes already. My diskette couldnt work and it lagged even the teacher's computer so much the rest of the presentation from other groups was called off. =D I saved the day, ha, ha ha.

I re-typed everything for at least thrice, goodness.

Don't i suck.

I only ate $2. So i had $5 left and was smilling to myself cuz i finally saved some money.

And then i decided to take a taxi home.

$0 left.

BAH.

I'm like that. When i have the money i will go all out to spend it all, and not leave any remaining cents, NOTHING, nada zilch, okay maybe like 30 cents but that's about it. Stupid habit.

Me : *Visits sister's blog*
Sister : (shocked expression) You read my blog?!
Me : Duh, didn't i tell you before
Sister : Oh.

-_-