Changed blog URL.

Ask me if you want to, but bear in mind I'm not obliged to tell.

^____________^

Thank you..

..for making me laugh, all the time
..for hearing whatever I have to say
..for 'counseling' me when i'm totally emo
..for making me appreciate things around me more
..for giving me free exp (LOL)
..for accompanying me if you could


If I didn't find out about the truth behind your identity then I would have missed out a very good friend.

AND I WOULD SAY, the way we met and finally clicked after a long while is rather amusing.

MONG JIEJIE,

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY.

=DDDDDDD

New layout.

Travis - Closer

I've had enough, of this parade.
I'm thinking of, the words to say.
We open up, unfinished parts,
Broken up, its so mellow.

And when I see you then I know it will be next to me
And when I need you then I know you will be there with me
Ill never leave you...

Just need to get closer, closer,
Lean on me now,
Lean on me now,
closer, closer,
Lean on me now,
Lean on me now.

Keep waking up (waking up), without you here (without you here).
Another day (another day), another year (another year).
I seek the truth (seek the truth), we set apart (we set apart)
Second base, a second chance.

And when I see you then I know it will be next to me
And when I need you then I know you will be there with me
Ill never leave you...

Just need to get closer, closer,
Lean on me now,
Lean on me now,
closer, closer,
Lean on me now,
Lean on me now (lean on me now).

And when I see you then I know it will be next to me
And when I need you then I know you will be there with me
Ill never leave you... just need to get...

Just need to get closer, closer,
Lean on me now,
Lean on me now,
closer, closer,
Lean on me now,
Lean on me now (lean on me now).

closer, closer... closer, closer.

I am dead tired, but I finally did a blog layout. It's not exactly woo-la-la nicer than the rest of my works but it's one that I have been wanting to do(but never completed or even tried) since like 4 months ago?!

Before my computer came I was already thinking of what to do, and other styles just didn't appeal to me, I know why, because I've not done what I wanted to do. So yeah, it's about loving what you do I guess.

The initial attempt sucked, I'm not really happy with the current one now as well. If I have time and the inspiration I'll look back and do a new version.

By the way, it will NOT look nice on 1024 by 768 or smaller resolution, paiseh =X My screen is 1280 x 960. I thought I can edit it after I'm done with it but it looks even shitier if i resize it to 1024 type, so nevermind =X




If you can't spot the difference...


I've not decided which to use yet.

I'm back to the time when I meet somebody who makes me go crazy, as in, a FRIEND lah. And she is none other than ........ my.. AHMA LOL

I played Auditon from 1PM till now, not kidding.

Played games.

Then she decided to be lame and bought me a face.

YEAH, and wore our 'twin suits' to play team games. Had a hell lot of fun.


Some horny guy took this. TSK.

Wow how amazing. Okay I am spamming but anyway.....

Just a simple "what happened?" has sent tears rolling down my cheeks again.

-______- _|_

I threw up in the morning. Maybe it's morning sickness.

Right now I am feeling so fucking sick.

Fever, flu, sore throat, gastric.

And I feel like throwing up again.

Yes, maybe i really am dying.

For the first time I feel so weak. I've been drifting in and out of sleep.

Wee I'm back in Audition and I love MJJ ^_^

Hi, actually, I have not really 'recovered' from whatever 'depression' I'd been going through.

Don't you give me that condescending face, whatever, bitch.

The sight, the thought, the voice, the mere SCENT of certain morons is enough to put me off. Put me off going to wherever that I might see them, take for example, the nearest shopping centre. In this most honest case, SCHOOL.

But this time I'm not gonna de-stress by spending money or torturing anything/anybody. I shall just face it, it's all part and parcel of life. If I don't ever get over this phase then I'll really die a horrible death in future without my godfather.

After the you-swore-at-your-mother incident, I finally understand and really feel my dependence on him, financially, and emotionally. I reckon I should get a life and face whatever shit life throws in me. After all, it IS my life. He spoils me rotten. With him I really don't give a damn about my phone bills. "Aiya, nvm lah, he will give me money to eat, more money for good food somemore," and whatever that is wrong in my life, "nevermind, because there's a godfather"

What the fuck man.

Moreover those creeps are not deserving of me 'sacrificing' my loved ones. They are too cheap.

I dread art lessons, i mean, the extras. I understand that it's an effort made to make US put an effort into our coursework but at times I really think I don't need it. Not because I'm doing it the photoshop way(I don't even fucking think I can do it, thanks to the people around me. _|_ Look at all the negativity I am receiving and thus giving), but just because, "hey, it's my life. I'm prepared to screw it."

Life should be spent without hopes, without thinking "aiya, got direct admission, sure can get into poly".

Life should be spent like this "SHIT! I GOTTA STUDY! OR ELSE I WON'T MAKE IT!" and you continue scaring yourself. As a result, due to the stress, you develop cancer, gastric problems, and hair loss as well. Slowly, you turn to stick thin and your skin sticks to your bones. One day your entire body shall collapse, like how they blow up a building. Yes, wonderful.

That's the masochistic shit of life.

Thereby, I shall try to stop crying or at least tearing every night(thank god my eyes are not swollen in the day -.-) and yeah, FACE IT.

Not run away, not by finding comfort in throes of people and then dumping them once you're alright, not by spending money, et cetera.

OH MY GOD MY COMPUTER IS ALIVE THERE'S INTERNET MY SISTER FIXED IT YAY

*Downloads Photoshop resources, audition, mozilla, etc etc*


I AM SO NOT GOING TO SLEEP TONIGHT :D

EDIT.

On 2nd note, I shan't try transferring with a damned thumbdrive, 1GB.

All my photoshop files need at least 5Gb, throw in fonts, brushes, patterns, pictures, etc etc.......

BOOHOOO T_________T

Today was random, because I seriously didn't expect to get the top improvement in english award. -____________-

Yeah, big fuck ah, just a cert.

Anyway I am bloody bloody very fucking disappointed still because...

MY COMPUTER IS FIXED, YES.

But there's no internet connection. The fucking *&%*&$ router's driver is not detected on my computer. LOU-SY. Tmd, made me and MJJ look forward to my 'return' to Audition for nothing.

So therefore if we can't find the damned router installation disc today, the super awesome godfather, like he always is, is very willing to spend a hundred over to buy a new router, for my computer's sake.

For now it's either my sister finds the disc(since she's the one keeping it all these while) or we buy.

Today was quite funny. I had a lot of deliverymen and people coming my house.

1) Samsung flat screen LCD tv, 32 inch, shiok. I can enjoy watching MTV channel now. Yes I am a music junkie.

2) Dell repairman. LOUSY.

3) BICYCLE delivery, my sister's friend who stays just a few storeys above has arranged for the guy to come to our place cuz she was busy.

4) My sister's friends. They might come over again with a PS II later. -_-

My efforts at Photoshop will NOT be hindered. Know why?

I will download whatever resources I want into this computer, store them into a thumbdrive and bring them to my computer.

Fussy, yes.

But for the love of Photoshop, I will.

^__________^

I LOVE YOU

Damn, I will make a blinking heart for you soon. LOL

I kept this in secret and I'm gonna say it.

Throughout this whole time, not only did you listen to my sorrows, you helped me call macdonalds delivery.

I AM SO GRATEFUL HAHAHAH

Most of the sad entries removed. I shall be happy.

Anyway I already am happy whenever I think of what I'm going to do with Photoshop.

When I think about what kind of design and layout I'm going to come up with, after not meddling with it for about 6 BLOODY MONTHS.

Yeah, I shall love life, because there's Photoshop.

Please make my life less fucked up, because I actually wanted to post a very depressing entry titled "My fucked up life".

They will be fixing my computer very soon.

I know I will install Audition, no point saying I won't. Obviously I will.

But I will try my hardest to play as hard as I can during the holidays and stop when school starts LOL

Through this I am very aware of how weak I am when it comes to restraining temptations, and how distractions and cause the plunge in your grades.

I don't know what happened to me, but for now i just want to shop, play, eat(if i ever feel like since i always skip meals) and go out and 'tour' singapore.

LOL

I improved!

...Although I still failed maths and science(fuck physics) and accounts(by 2 marks -.-) and passed the rest.

I am very happy.

But not so whenever I think of my english marks.

65(but i counted 67) is what I was given, my marks were brought down to the 'fair' levels because of the paper screwup, and in the end, some loudhailer-guy got 70 and topped the class.

I felt really unfair.

For my situational writing, my essay was nothing fantastic, it's around 68% if you convert it i think.

But for my letter writing, the task fulfilment was 7/10, and the content(or language) was 16/20. That's like a straight A, plus my paper 2 was 32/50.

It's supposed to be an A, not a fucking mid B.

GRRRRRRRRR.

You can say I'm jealous, because I really am. AND I AM SURE some people out there will be reacting "WTF" like I am too.

Anyway I am really happy because at least i improved most of my subjects and did not disappoint my godfather as much as how I thought it would be.

As a 'reward' he'll be finding alternatives to get me a laptop for the art coursework, and also plenty of moolah for me to go shopping during the great singapore sale season.

Times like this I thank God.

My L1R4 improved from 32 to 18.

Somebody owes me a treat ^_____________^

*Sings a song, I can't remember the lyrics cuz i dont even know the song*

"What can I do to make you love me?"

"LOL _|_"

"What can I do to make you happy?"

"99999999999999 roses, like I said"

"....."

"OR THE MUSA BOOK"

"OKAY =D"

..........

I want to see your family go broke. HAHAHHAHA

If I really get chosen during the direct admission thing plus I can pass my maths smoothly by then, I can burn all my books and not study already.

That's my wish.

Please grant it.

HAHA TODAY ROCKED.

Maybe I'm about to adopt a positive outlook on life because of the love my godfather showers on me. I would have been a sad fuck walking my way home from Felicia's house if he didn't bank in $50 this morning.

But now i am also a sad fuck because somebody owes me money and that $50 was meant for my Novo shoes. :P

Anyway, went off to Dewi's house, along with Mary, we both helped to bake muffins. Random : Her youngest brother is an ass.

Err I am tired so I shall not blog in detail but Felicia's party is quite a success because there's great food and great company. :D

I WISH YOU A HAPPY SWEETEST 16 IN ADVANCE :D

Thank you for being there for me all this while.

I really appreciated it.

You're the only person who answered my call in the middle of the night when I called everybody, crying.

You're the sweetest girl guy.

^______________________^

hHAHAHAHAHA

I miss my computer.

I actually dreamt that i fixed it back.

-__________________________-

I will bug 3 day 3 nights for them to fix it but I think it will take much longer because we have to firstly CALL them and arrange for them to come and take my pc off to their factory to fix.

..

When it's fixed i will
1)Install Audition/Photoshop etc etc
2)KISS MY COMPUTER.

I am very convinced my life is screwed.

I am even more convinced I will die of gastric problems one day.

I don't eat, and when it hurts, I just eat my medicine. -.-..

The day started on a very crappy setting.

A borrows $30 from me, i go to her wallet to take it back since she doesn't need it anymore.

Mom sees the entire scene, asks why the fuck(of course she didnt use those language) do I have so much money.

"Uncle gave me what, i withdrew but I didn't spend because I'm going to buy a pair of heels today,"

"WHAT? YOU GOT SO MANY SHOES ALREADY"

"Ya, but dad wash until....they are so spoilt"

Rambles on and on about how much of a spendthrift I am yadda yadda. "Your shoes are all not cheap ones you know?! One pair is $80++"

"THOSE ARE BRANDED SNEAKERS, what do you expect"

And cut my allowance.

When I go out on weekends, I NEVER ask for money. I only asked for $10 this week. The previous weeks I went out totally on my own expense(or my godfather's to be exact)

$10 MISERABLE DOLLARS.

AND i get all these shit slung at me.

I almost went out in tears. -_-

When I typed/smsed about what happened I wanted to cry too. It's so fucking unfair.
...........................

I really thank god I have a Godfather in this world and in this life. -.- At least when I tell him how unfair my mom is he shuts up and deposits more money because he doesn't want me to starve.

My life is pretty much fucked, as usual, you see.

People say my family's treating me like this because they are jealous. I would say so too.
But when my friends treat me like that too, another assumption being they are jealous, I will want to bang my head against the wall because there's nothing good in my life besides a very doting guardian who gives me money.

So money is the root of evil, still?

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The lit seminar was crappy.

Went window shopping with Dewi, dined at Crystal's Jade, watched Blades of Glory.

That movie is freaking ass funny, go watch it. 10/10

I see A LOT of things I want to buy.

Shoes from Novo.

Handbag from Mary Jane

MUSA book from PAGEONE

Top from Topshop.

$___________$

I have something random to say, I believe it is 101% true. Girls might not like flowers per se, but they definitely love to receive them.

HAHAHHA

Random number 2 : Peachy is getting fucking old, I can see his age 'shine' through his furry little body. :( Please prepare for the time where I will call and cry on the phone, for those close to me. HAHHAHA

Discord
–noun
1. lack of concord or harmony between persons or things: marital discord.
2. disagreement; difference of opinion.
3. strife; dispute; war.
4. Music. an inharmonious combination of musical tones sounded together.
5. any confused or harsh noise; dissonance.
–verb (used without object)
6. to disagree; be at variance.


Disagreements among friends often happen, especially between good friends.

Everybody will speak ill of one another, i don't deny that. Everybody does it.

SOWING DISCORD.

There's a LOT of difference between how a person really feels towards the other, and how a person feels BECAUSE OF another person sowing discords.

The more you try to break a friendship up, especially a long and stable friendship, the stronger the friendship will become.

Moral of the entry : Don't try to break people up. It won't work, ultimately.

Some people are retards. They get jealous of people for reasons such as they are richer than them. If everybody had a choice there wouldn't be 3rd world countries, isn't it?

So how ridiculous is that?

...
I have not talked to _______ for many many days. I actually kept count. It's close to 2 weeks. ):

These 2 drawings.

Made me laugh like a madman.

Its' showing a person covering his ears because there's a thunderstorm as he sleeps.

I am fucking scared of thunder.

If there's a storm halfway in my sleep and a thunder wakes me up, i will cover my ears, and fall asleep, while covering my ears, just like the first picture. The 2nd picture is retarded. HAHAHA =X

I am serious. LOL

Through the evolution of my misery, it is starting to be immune to funny stuffs I hear from people who try to cheer me up.

It is just like insects evolving and over a certain amount of time you realise they have gained resistance to the pesticides and repellants you use.

Kelly Clarkson - Never again


Fucking cool video, I realised she is fat and far from the typical superstar look but her voice makes up for all that.

Regarding my English paper, this is what a teacher said.

"You scored 23/30 for your situational writing but we are going to have to moderate the marks because it is a different paper and we'll have to bring it down to those good ones in your class. They scored around 20-21. (FUCK LA, if they scored higher I could have remained at 23 =x) I don't understand, I told your class it will either be a FORMAL letter or a report, but for yours, it was an informal letter. And you could have informed me during the exam so I could bring you elsewhere and sit for the paper again. The informal letter was excellently written but we still have to bring it down. Your composition is okay because we can mark it based on sec 4 level and you gave the topic a very good twist. "

This is for those whom are academically weak but are strong in the arts or anywhere, you know, a special talent, take for instance, my aptitude in design.

Polytechnics will be opening their Direct Admission Programme on 11th July. Shortlisted applicants will be asked to go for an interview plus show their portfolio.

See more here.

I am feeling better because Uncle Giraffe made me laugh earlier.

Happy birthday Calvin HAHAHAH

Anyway, somebody(basket, be glad i didn't type your name LOL) told me to go on Habbo to give him furniture, fine lor. Since I don't play already.

Then I checked out my habbo page.

And I realised my habbo turns 2 today. LOL


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I heard this song on the radio and the lyrics are nice.

AHAHAH BUT..It has no relation to me because I don't like anybody. ^_^ Carefree.

Michael Buble - Everything
You're a falling star
You're the getaway car
You're the line in the sand
When I go to far
You're the swimming pool
On an august day
And you're the perfect thing to say

And you play it coy but it's kinda cute
Oh when you smile at me you know exactly what you do
Baby don't pretend that you don't know it's true
Cause you can see it when I look at you

And in this crazy life
And through these crazy times
It's you
It's you
You make me sing
You're every line
You're every word
You're everything

You're a carousel
You're a wishing well
And you light me up
When you ring my bell
You're a mystery
You're from outer space
You're every minute of my every day

And I can't believe that I'm your man
And I get to kiss you baby just because I can
Whatever comes our way

We'll see it through
And you know that's what our love can do

And in this crazy life
And through these crazy times
It's you
It's you
You make me sing
You're every line
You're every word
You're everything

And so la la la la
So la la la la

And in this crazy life
And through these crazy times
It's you
It's you
You make me sing
You're every line
You're every word
You're everything

You're every song
And I sing along
Cause you're my everything

Yeah, yeah

So la la la la
So la la la la

1.What color is your bra?
Your colour.

2. Do you ever lie about your age?
no

3. Do you prefer "sensitive boys"
or "tough guys"?
Sensitive, but not to the point of being gay.

4. Do you prefer blonde or dark haired
guys?
dark haired

5. Are you currently single?
yea

6. If so, who do you like?
...none

7. How many things in your past do you
regret?
Many.

8. do you have a best friend?
...

9. What do you want to be when you
grow up?
But when will I grow up?

10. Have you ever kissed more than two
people in one night?
Nahhhhhhhhhhh

11. Who was the last person who told
you they loved you?
Erm. It's either B or D.

12. Who was the last person you hugged?
....I can't name.

13. Have you ever had your heart
broken?
No, my heart is made of diamond. DUH.

14. Have you ever thought about having
plastic surgery?
yes

18. Do you like your life?
NO

19. Do you shop at hollister?
Yea

20. Has one of your friends ever
stolen a boyfriend from you?
...

21. Has one of your friends ever
stabbed you in the back?
Literally, no. Figuratively, it happens everyday. It's common, especially as we grow older.

22. Did you forgive them?
Yea

24. Do you have more friends that are
girls or boys?
girls

25. How long have you had myspace?
NO MYSPACE

28. Have you ever slapped a boy in the
face?
yea

30. What is one of your biggest fears?
ghosts, thunder, darkness

31. Are you the single type or the
girlfriend girl?
How I Know

32. Has anyone close to you ever
passed away?
Yea

33. Have you ever cried yourself to
sleep?
yes

34. Have you ever not been able to get
someone out of your head?
Yea

35. Do you prefer your guy to
be "city" or "country"?
City

37. What color are your underwear?
YOUR COLOUR

38. What is your screen name?
Verbiagelover

39. Who is your dream date?
Erm. Let's see. .....Nobody.

40. Have you ever had a good feeling
about something and it turned out you
were right?
Yea

41. Do you ever wish you were famous?
Yea

42. Do you ever wish you were a man?
YES

43.Do you think any men will open this
just because it's labeled female quiz?
No idea.

I am serious.

FUCK LIFE.

IS IT BIG ENOUGH?

REPEAT AFTER ME.

F U C K L I F E.

Just when I thought i can cool down and forget about it, the same person fucking pisses me off over the same thing, AGAIN.

Doesn't help the people around me are not only helping(which i'm perfectly fine with btw), they contribute to the amount of stress i am facing.

I want to run, but there's no place I can run to.

I want to cry, but there's nothing to cry about. It's the same fucking thing happening every fucking day.

I have a burning question to ask God.

My life is sooooooooooooooooo fucked as you can see.

Why must there be something called a 'fairy' godfather who is supposedly making my life better but at the same time worsening it?

He is quite like a catalyst, but not one.

I wanna die.

And some interesting guy left a comment saying my blog is interesting o____O..

Errrr??

If you ask me what's wrong, I'll tell you nothing is wrong. It's simply because I don't want you to know about it, not like it concerns you, but I don't think telling you will help, that's why I would rather YOU and I shut up.

So therefore if you don't know what it is about, please shut your hole and get yourself laid, do NOT, i repeat, DO NOT assume because it's something totally unrelated to SCHOOL.
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My life is FUCKED.

Tell me about it, how will you feel towards your day when the bus zooms past your face for the 2nd morning in two days consecutive?

Then you curse, and you get into a taxi.

Bloody fuck, $2.50 plus extra surcharge cuz it's the peak period. $4.50 the moment you get in! Total = $6.

And this happens for 2 days.

Then you lose your motivation and mood to do anything in school, and when the schoolbell rings, you cab home again.

That's $20 spent on transportation in two fucking days. Motherfuckers.
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"My dear girl, spending precious money away on useless things are not going to make you feel better. It's only the thrill of buying things. I know you get thrills from asking and getting what you want when you don't really like it, but you must stop this habit you know, you have to face the problems and not run away"
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I met the sweetest boy girl.
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Anyway. Vivi really resmbles Fifi.

Fifi, when he was younger, he loved to just sit/sleep/slack on the running wheel. Vivi is doing exactly the same.

I'll fix my computer soon and upload the photos. Not gonna upload those in my phone. Close up shots of animals ought to be macro-ed for maximum viewing pleasure.

I think I will die someday if I don't get cured of this unhappy illness.

I face so many nabei-cheebye problems I don't even know the reason why I cry. I just cry.

Why can't I just die, why why why.

You know, drop dead? Not suicide.

I try to be happy but I can't, I'll always revert back to the unhappy FifiGirl.

And I realised shopping and buying whatever I like is not the cure. It fills up the voids, but it doesn't remove them permanently.

You tell me to cheer up and just look at the bright side of life. I tried, but I can't.

I feel like bursting into tears again because of the same reason again.

I see the person who has annoyed the fuck out of me and made me cry trying to redeem himself.
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It has allowed me to see things from a different perspective and appreciate it.

So what if it looks uncommon and illogical?

It's ART/DESIGN.

If everybody were to conform to the usual rites of life there wouldn't be anything new, there won't be any advancements in technology because there is no creativity.

Nobody ever thinks out of the box.

You may think this is a whole load of bull, suit yourself.

Some people will just never have that brains, just that little bit of common sense to appreciate.

Anyway I wish my computer will be fixed really soon.

I want to Photoshop and come up with some spanking nice but simple layout. Seeing so many amazing works at the bookstore yesterday has opened up my mind.

Screw all the insensitive fucks around me.

Nobody will understand the frustration I am feeling.

I..have a lot of things to buy. I wonder how much I need.

1) MUSA book - $63
2) Heels - $40
3) New shorts (probably the same one as somebody's present) - $30

That's $130.

And not to forget i need about $110 as well.

Godfather's bringing me to buy a new pair of Adidas, hopefully. Because I complained that the ones he got me AGES ago are seriously in very bad condition already.

So that's $240.

If i were to save up on my own, to get that sum of money I will need 2-3 months.

AHHHHH FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.

When I asked him to buy me the shoes and complained, he said "Did I say I'm not buying?" and I jumped for joy. He said he'll also look at my results.

...........................My results are fucked lah.

MSN IS SCREWEDDDDD.

Anyway I didn't call macdonalds in the end.

I was

1) Shy
2) Reluctant because I am shy
3) I kept delaying.

I said I wanted to call only when they serve breakfast, which was 4AM.

I was dead tired by then, so I said "Fuck it" and went to bed, for that miserable 2 hours.

Chemistry paper today was so-so.

The topics i mugged for came out, but the mark weightage sucked.

--

I was pissed off by the same thing in the morning.

And I deemed retail therapy as the cure for my moodiness.

I was planning to buy a new pair of heels today but i ended up buying a magazine and bath sand for my hamsters. -.-..

Anyway.

Vivocity's PAGE ONE bookstore has this book in their graphic design section, called the MUSA book. It's $63. It's pure love because it features AMAZING work from alot of designers worldwide and trust me, every page is worth the money.

But this is not so to my godfather because he doesn't think we should pay to see the works of others. Well, why not.

I think it is great. It serves as inspiration and it will set my mind to think if I can do the same and think of methods, GOOD WHATTTT.

And I swear it will keep me VERY entertained, for..hours.

Time to save up and buy it.

I am a sucker who is refusing to eat the food at home because the rice has a funny overnight smell due to the ricecooker not being cleaned of the previous overnight rice. But the rice is not spoilt.

I was hungry.

I walked to the rice cooker, opened it.

The smell greeted my nostrils and damn it, I am not hungry already. But it's just an illusion.

I am now contemplating to call MacDonalds delivery.

$8 plus, alot of money you know.

I..

Had a crappy night.

I got totally pissed off and I broke down and cried my eyeballs out.

Tried desperately to call people and tell them what's going wrong but everybody was asleep, and that explains how wtfbbq my previous entry was. I don't blame anybody for sleeping. Blame it on how desperate I was.

Still crying, the only person online was.......Trent.

So i went to him.

I was complaining and all he said was "COME ON BABY, TALK TO PAPA"

And i laughed.

He didn't mean for it to be funny, he was hoping that I would tell him what is wrong.

I LAUGHED and yeah, i'm back to normal, I hope.

I was still quite fucked up this morning.

I'm generally okay now.

My family is fucked up, especially my dad.

And i am AMAZED.

It is not even 130am.

I thought there would be some people staying up to study.

WELL EVERYBODY IS DEAD.

RIGHT WHEN I AM CRYING MY EYES OUT AT THE PROBLEMS I AM FACING.

AMAZING PEOPLE, AMAZING.

I thought there would be people up to cheer me up.

But everyone is dead.

I will remember.

I love my godfather lah please.

Saturday evening, i was plain kidding about asking him to give me $50 to pay me back for the phone protectors and such.

Anyway they only costed $20.

Today, in my bank account, $50 deposited.

Makes me wonder what I did in my past life to deserve such a nice fairy-godfather. One who purely dotes on me and buys me whatever I want without thinking if his wallet actually agrees to it.

And there I am, wasting his money and my life away.

I know I will disappoint him like I always do with my results, which i think are going DOWNSLOPE even when my computer is spoilt. -____________-

It's okay.

I will buy a Mac computer and become a game-freak.................try to redeem myself.

And through this i realised.

People shouldn't focus on their negativities and on the pessimism in life. They should look at the good things they have with them.

I mean you don't even know when you'll die, might as well be happy and spend money live it to the fullest.

It kind of relates to SAW II which I watched last week. The weirdo said something like people only taste the water they drink and enjoy even a walk in the park, when they realise they are dying.

The theory of

DIPLOMACY

I don't like diplomats.

No, wait. Nobody is a fucking diplomat. Everybody is a fucking hypocrite.

And that includes me, in case you decide to say, "HA! This bitch, always say people never say herself"

Don't think I don't know who you are.

To me, i live by this.

If I don't like you, I don't even bother interacting or SMILING at you.

What's the point? I mean you don't like the person, why do you bother socialising, WHY WHY WHY?

I would rather use the energy needed to smile/interact with idiots to bat my eyelids fiercely at them(which people know as 'diao').

I cannot stand people who tell me they dislike ABC and minutes later I see ABC and that fella sharing some joke or interacting.

I don't believe in "Don't like, still can be friends mah..."

That's shit.

And prepare to get shit thrown in your face if you're a friend of mine and you're doing this to me.

It's the same for guys/girls who cheat, and i have ZERO tolerance for people like that. I'm sure you'll agree.

Imagine finding your boyfriend fucking another girl in your room. Wonderful.

whats your name spelt backwards?:
eeyam HAHA WTF

What did you do last night?:
Went out, caught a movie in a tiny room.

The last thing you downloaded onto your computers?:
Not my computer, my sister's. Themes for my mobile.

Have you ever licked a 9 volt battery?:
:S

Last time you swam in a pool?:
...............not in 2007.

What are you wearing?:
human skin

How many cars have you owned?:
0

Type of music you dislike most?:
techno

Are you registered to vote?:
Nope.

Do you have cable?:
Yep.

What kind of computer do you use?:
Dell

Ever made a prank phone call?:
yeah.

You like anyone right now?:
No. I am as neutral as pure water.

Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?:
nope.

Furthest place you ever traveled?:
Australia.

What's your favorite comic strip?:
NONE

Do u know all the words to the national anthem?:
yes.

Shower, morning or night?:
Shower

Best movie you've seen in the past month?:
...none.

Favorite pizza toppings?:
CHEESE?

Chips or popcorn?:
chips.

What cell phone provider do you have?:
Singtel

Have you ever smoked peanut shells?:
no

Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?:
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Orange Juice or apple?:
orange

Who were the last people you sat at lunch with?:
Lunch. Saturday, it was JT and Caryn.

What is your favorite chocolate bar?:
kinder bueno

Last time you ate a homegrown tomato?:
Never.

Favorite arcade game?:
HOUSE OF THE DEAD ^_________^

Ever ordered from an infomercial?:
Nope.

Sprite or 7-UP?:
7-Up.

Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school/work?:
yea

Last thing you bought at Walgreens?:
no walgreens here

Ever thrown up in public?:
If throwing up at the carpark downstairs counted, yeah.

Would you prefer being a millionaire or finding true love?:
For now, a millionaire. Because nobody's on my mind.

Do you believe in love at first sight?:
Yessssss and it's very serious and passionate for people like me :X

SPONGEBOB OR JIMMY NEUTRON?:
neither.

Did you have long hair as a young kid?:
Sort off.

What message is on your voicemail machine?:
don't have

Whats the name of your pet?:
I have many. Fifi, Peachy, Vivi, etc etc...

What kind of back pack do you have, and what's in it?:
Nothing.

....

VIVI IS A GIRL LA.

That means i can name her YiYi if I like, but Vivi is nicer, though i always pronounce it as FIFI.

Oh well.

I like boys.

As in, hamster boys.

People around me are so funny.

All are trying to find that certain 'perfection'.

Face it and eat your shit, you'll never find it.

Stupid naive, gullible morons around me.

Stupid idiots trying to criticise an individual without realising it's generalised criticism. N00B!

You want to bitch about people, SURE! But at least make sure your stand is well-argued for. i.e At least anticipate what people who will say to oppose you and share it. NUUUUBBBBBBBBBCAKE.

This is what I have been doing last night :



And this is how adorable that Vivi(i've changed its name again) is.

Name 3 things in your purse/bag/pocket.
- wallet, pouch of neccessities, hp

Name 3 things you do when you're really
stressed.
- EAT, CRY, .......basically isolating myself and keeping quiet.

Name 3 favorite places to shop.
- Bugis Street, yes, i am a cheapskate. Errrrr.....nowhere in particular.


Name
3 favorite fruits:
- Apple grape ....and i dont know, tomatoes?
THE WHOS

Who is in the house with you?
- mom and sis

Who are you thinking about right now?
- You.

Who did you last talk to on the phone?
- Belinda. ^_^

Whose birthday is next?
- Er let's see. Jiefeng.

Who do you wish you were with right
now?
- Nobody, except my bed.

Who did u sms last?
- Caryn

Where do you live?
- In your computer

Where is your phone?
- To my left

Where do you sleep?
- Beside you.

Where did you get the shirt
you're wearing?
- Cineleisure.

Where is the last place you took a
ride to?
- To your house.

Where in your house are you?
- Living room

THE WHATS

What was the last thing you ate?
- Cheesy pork chop spaghetti. Yum

What color shirt are you wearing?
- Light pink

What is the closest item near you that
is blue?
- NOTHING, EXCEPT BLUE PEN.

What is your favorite color?
- White black pink silver gold

What kind of surgery have you had?
- none

What do you wear more jeans or shorts?
- Jeans

What is the last movie you watched?
- If an old movie called SAW II counts.

What song do you currently hear?
- P.Diddy Ft Keyshia Cole "Last night"

What was your dream last night?
- I dreamt of you.

THE WHENS

When did you start school?
- when i was five years old, to kindergarten

When is your birthday?
- August 7th

When did you last go to the mall?
- 5 hours ago

When was the last time you bought a
pair of jeans?
- AGES, EONS.

When did you last burn a candle?
- ..cant remember.

When did you last see your dad?
- yesterday

When did you last see your mom?
- She is beside me now
When did you last see your best friend
(s)?
- A very very short while ago, less than 2 days ago.

I had a spanking good time today but I am lazy to elaborate because I am very tired.

Here's how my day went.

Met Jinteck and Caryn at BMC, went to the library to study. That's if you consider reading just act 1 scene 4 of the Macbeth text, without memorising anything.

I saw the girl he used to be crazy over. I used to hope I could just meet her and see how pretty she actually is. Today, after I have totally stopped giving a damn to him, I saw her.

CHEY, not pretty one lor. But who cares.

Then went to tiong while JT left, met Raymond. Wanted to watch 200 Pounds Beauty.

Trained to town and met JF later, but the tickets were sold out.

SO BORED, we rented a tiny room to watch SAW II. The room had 2 computers as well and this girl forgot to sign out.

So we went there and disturbed the contacts in the girl's account. =X

SAW II is very very very gory and I kept covering my eyes, but looking back, I enjoyed the gore. Sick but true.

Had dinner at HK Cafe. THE FOOD IS AWESOMEEHHHHHHHHH I'm so going to bring my godfather there, if he is willing to go to such crowded places.

By the way, I really appreciate the ride home. Thank you Caryn. ^_^ and Caryn Papa, Mama, Didi. ...Something very retarded happened. Because I was on the phone with Belinda I didn't pay attention while going in the car. And i banged my head. HAHAHHA

I love Caryn's Kor's Gf's hamster, I don't know if it is a guy or a girl. His/her sexual organs are too complicated.


So I decided to give it an unisex name, BELBEL. I have not confirmed yet. Maybe I will come up with something ridiculous like...FifiJunior(But that's PEACHYBOY's side name).

Peachy thinks I don't love him already. He's so wrong. I love all of them. Except that I have 3 cages to clean every weekend. Peachy, another hamster, UN-NAMED and 'BelBel'.

The other hamster has no name because I don't know her at all. She always bites me, so there's hardly any bond. I hate it when I have such relations with hamsters because it's hard to love them if there's no bond.

By the way, please do not kill me if i sms you and after waiting for hours for your reply, I ask the same question again because my phone seems to be having problems letting people receive my messages.

I'm still very angry with the both of them.

Family over friends, my ass.

They don't even understand me when they're my fucking family members, how ironic.

This is when my anger starts to rear it's ugly head again.

You're just jealous. You'll always be wondering why the fuck am I always above you.

You'll forever be complaining that i'm doing it on purpose, well, it's substantially true.

Because you ASKED and DARED me to do it.

It's once again, like the many fucktards out there who asked for shit, received them, and then go on to lament that they got shit in their face.

Look, if you asked for it, live with it.

Now that motherfucking woman is trying to atone for what she has done.

She cooked me noodles for breakfast, and is apparently trying to get me to talk to her.

SORRY 'MOM', I'm so fucking angry I don't think I'll ever talk to you nicely. I yell back as a reply.

All angst-y entries removed.

I will be happy and smile.

.......

I have something random to say.

I fucking forgot, I missed the 10th.

HAHAHAH SORRY BUDDY =X

Anyway..I still don't know why.

Why am I the one, like seriously? =/

Vertical Horizon - Everything you want

Somewhere there's speaking, it's already coming in
Oh and it's rising in the back of your mind
You never could get it unless you were fed it
Now you're here, and you don't know why

But under skinned knees and the skid marks
Past the places where you used to learn
You howl and listen, listen and wait for
The echoes of angels who won't return

He's everything you want, he's everything you need
He's everything inside of you that you wish you could be
He says all the right things at exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you, and you don't know why

You're waiting for someone to put you together
You're waiting for someone to push you away
There's always another wound to discover
There's always something more you wish he'd say

He's everything you want, he's everything you need
He's everything inside of you that you wish you could be
He says all the right things at exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you, and you don't know why

But you'll just sit tight and watch it unwind
It's only what you're asking for
And you'll be just fine with all of your time
It's only what you're waiting for

Out of the island and into the highway
Past the places where you might have turned
You never did notice, but you still hide away
Anger of angels who won't return

He's everything you want, he's everything you need
He's everything inside of you that you wish you could be
He says all the right things at exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you, and you don't know why

I am everything you want, I am everything you need
I am everything inside of you that you wish you could be
I say all the right things at exactly the right time
But I mean nothing to you, and I don't know why

And I don't know why
Why, why
I don't know

I am not in a good mood, so I shall guailan + dont care + talk cock, all i want.

I love my life.

Whatever I want, I literally open my mouth and I get it, all within a week, or maximum, a MONTH.

You don't like my spendthrift ways? I like leh, I got the money to waste, what can you do?

Stop reading my blog then.

...

But why are you still here? Are you sick or what? You feel good as you get more and more upset reading my blog right? Okay, let's continue.

Let's see.

I love this arrogant attitude of mine. I like it.

You don't like it, what can you do? Give me a slap, trust me, I can still be the same.

Or if i like, maybe get my god-of-fortune to find a lawyer and sue you, in the most extreme cases.

I got the money, I like what I am.

You don't enjoy the luxury I have.

You don't right?

So shut up.

So many people want to challenge with me my english marks. You guys are so amusing.

People top, you not happy, want to chase.

But you didn't know, you were always so far away, you never ever caught up.

You were just lucky.

I LIKE LEH, CANNOT ISIT?

What you cheated for, I can simply ask and have them.

Getting any gadget seriously was never a problem.

TO ME.

Thanks for all the concern regarding the paper.

I really appreciated it.

But what I enjoyed more, was the attention showered on me.

So uncalled for.

For fuck's sake the question is different.

What's the point of finding out
1) The question
2) What I wrote

When the teachers reassured fair marking?

Can you all please think before you speak? Stupid moron.

Insult me for fuck?

I am a very happy kid.

Met them and went to study.

It was damn fun at ToysRUs.

JT was looking at toys, so A, C and myself decided to run and hide.

WE RAN AND HID, but we didn't know JT was behind us. So he boo-ed us and all of us screamed and died on the floor, DAMN FUNNY.

I'm tired lahhhh, thus i'm lazy to blog in detail, but really I enjoyed myself to the max today. Thank-kee-you to all. ^_^

I am even happier because they've agreed to buy me E65. ^_^

My english paper.

I took the wrong one.

Wait, listen.

The cover page stated SEC 4 EXPRESS.

However the 2nd sheet behind was wrongly stapled. I didn't spare a thought it thinking the page had a problem, because THE COVER PAGE said sec 4 express what. I thought it was merely stapling error.

And the paper wasn't from Sec 3 NA as well, I don't know where it came from.

Sadly I can't re-test, they'll just mark according. Sucks.

HAHA THAT WAY FUCKERS CAN STOP COMPARING MARKS WITH ME YAYYYYY

Anyway if you want to ask stupid questions like why did i realise it after the paper is over, HOW I KNOW.

The cover page said sec 4 express already, what you want me to do?

Cheebye!

Fifi is bored, and I came up with that. It's not referring to anybody, just...a...piece of writing to warm me up for the paper later. =X

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Crimson red roses lay gently against the gray, worn out stone slab.

Then dried leaves beneath my feet cracked into pieces as knelt down.

It's been a while, a long, long while.

I can still remember vividly how my heart skipped a beat when I first saw you. You're like the Sun, and I'm the coldness of the night. Warmth that radiated from you enveloped me. I was drawn to you.

You're the cause for the tears that flow so freely at night as I gaze at the moon and stars, wishing you were one of them. The only one I want to behold beautiful sights of lights at a harbour with. Logic and reasoning is lost in the realm of you, the variant of love. With each glimpse of you, my heart twitches uncomfortably as I try to make you notice me, the girl that blends in with the walls.

Tonight, as the moon peeps behind the huge willow, making the branches seem visible in the dead of the night, I was wishing you would live, again.

I am bored. Yes I keep doing surveys nowadays. FUN!

1. What Curse Word Do You Use The Most?
Fuck.

2. Do You Own An Ipod?
No. Ipods are overrated, somehow.

3. Which Person On Your Featured Friend
List Do You Talk To The Most?
Belinda.

4. What Time Is Your Alarm Clock Set
To?
530am everyday

5. Do You Want To Fall In Love?
....I AM in love, with a phone.

6. Do You Wear Flip-Flops When It's
Cold?
Depends.

7. Would You Rather Take The Picture
Or Be In The Picture?
Be in it. =X

8. What Was The Last Movie You Watched?
...Shit, i cant remember. Er, it's either no.23 or 40 year old virgin.

9. Do Any Of Your Friends Have
Children?
No

10. Has Anyone Ever Called You Lazy?
Yeah baby.

11. Did You Ever Take Medication To
Help You Fall Asleep?
Yeah, a few years back.

12. What Cd Is Currently In Your Cd
Player?
No CD

13. Do You Prefer Regular Or Chocolate
Milk?
CHOCOLATE

14. Has Anyone Told You A Secret This
Week?
..yeah, they confessed their love for me. HAHAHHA

15. When Was The Last Time You Had
Starbucks?
..Ages ago. I don't like starbucks.

16. Can You Whistle?
nope

17. Do You Have A Trampoline In Your
Back Yard?
I don't have either a trampoline or backyard

18. Do You Think People Talk about you
behind your back?
Human nature.

19. Did You Watch Cartoons As A Child?
No, i watched porn. DUH.

20. What Movie Do You Know Every Line
To?
None


22. Is There Anything Wrong With Girls
Kissing Girls?
Depends

23. Do You Own Any Band T-Shirts?
nope.

24. What Is Your Favorite Salad
Dressing?
None

25. Is Anyone In Love With You?
..Belinda ah. =X

26. Do You Do Your Own Dishes??
hardly

27. Ever Cried In Public?
ya

28. Are You On A Desktop Computer Or A
Lap Top?
Desktop

29. Are You Currently Wanting Any
Piercings Or Tattoo?
I want a nape piercing.

31. Would You Ever Date Anyone Covered
In Tattoos?
I doubt not

32. What Did You Do Before This?
Bathe

33. When was the last time u slept on
the floor?
Few days ago

34. How Many Hours Of Sleep Do You
Need To Function?
4 hours and it's enough to keep me energetic the whole day

35. Are Your Days Full And Fast Paced?
Nah.

36. Do You Eat Breakfast Daily?
Noooo

37. Do You Pay Attention To The
Calories In The Packg?
Nope

38. Do you use sarcasm?
Yes why not

39. Are You Picky About Spelling And
Grammar?
yea

40. Have You Ever Gotten Beat up?
Yeah. =/

41. Do You Get Along Better With The
Same Sex Or The Opposite?
Both, it's the same.

42. Do You Sleep On Your Side,
Stomach, Or Back?
Back

43. Do You Watch The news?
sometimes

44. How Did You Get three Of Your
Scars?
Chicken pox

45. Who Was The Last Person To Make
You Mad?
MY MOM

This is fucking hot.


I kept taking the model phone out at the Singtel shop.

And sliding it open for ages.

After we left, my hand was still mimicking the sliding action.

Worse, I borrowed JinTeck's handphone and kept sliding the phone open and close open and close.

If I am so lucky to ever have it, I will save up and bring it to G*Mask to modify my phone, stick crystals and all. Because by then everybody will have it, since everyone wants to buy it.

"I WANTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT~!~!~"

Maths and Physics killed me, well well, cliche as it sounds, "WHO ASK YOU NEVER STUDY"

Hah, yah lor.

By the way, I fucking lost my EZ link again, this is the 3rd or 4th time All hail me. And i'm dying of guilt because whenever I lose stuff like this, I don't bear the consequences. My godfather always pays the replacement fee. <_____< happy =" Another" sad =" NAGGINGs/Scoldings/Guilt" style="font-style: italic;">true love because I..really like it.

All in all, I had alot of fun today, despite the horrible papers. ^_^

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I went to Pet Safari today.

I can spend hours in that shop, looking at hamsters and hamster products. I wouldn't say I like all kinds of animals, but I am generally an animal-lover.

And it hit me, why don't I become a vet?

But I lack the intelligence.

The only thing i can do is to design with Photoshop and hopefully improve on my own like how I did in the past.

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I have something very random to say.

When the people I dislike win something, be it a cheapskate $2 cardboard box found in Daiso or some expensive gadget like the LG Chocolate, I will off course say negative things, because I feel negative towards the winner, DUH?

Please do not act LIKE a saint and say no matter how much we hate a person, we still must be happy for them when something good happens to them. It RARELY happens. If it applies to anybody I know then my name isn't Lee May Ee. It's Fucking Horny Mayee.

Of course, morons will say I am eating sour grapes.

In my P.O.V, I most certainly do not think this way, it's a very warped reason but no matter how screwed it is, my reason is this : Why should I be jealous? I can also ask for it or work for it, or maybe win it too. But then again, I wouldn't want to use the same thing the people I dislike use. Probably something even better/different.

(:

Sleep with or without clothes on?
x ..With. Although i know without feels better. :x

Prefer black or blue pens?
x Blue

Dress up on Halloween?
x once

Like to travel?
x yes

Like Someone?
x No

Do they know?
x 'They' don't exist

Who sleeps with you every night?
x PEACHYBOYYYY

Think you're attractive?
x Yes, I SAY I CHIO MEANS I CHIO. AHAHAHAH

Want to get married?
x NO

To:
x If i ever do, to the guy i love, DUH?

Are you a good student?
x I'm your typical average kid.

Are you currently happy?
x im calm

Have you ever cheated?? Been cheated
on?
x Nuuuu

Birthplace?
x singapore

Christmas or Halloween?
x Christmas, but hey, it doesnt have much diff actually.

Colored or black-and-white photo?
x Coloured

Do long distance relationships work?
x I have no idea

Do you believe in astrology?
x No

Do you believe in love at first sight?
x Yes

Do you consider yourself the life of
the party?
x no

Do you drink?
x i dont like it

Do you make fun of people?
x All the fucking time =x

Do you think dreams eventually come
true?
x Nah

Favorite fictional character?
x ...Huraffes. =X

Go to the movies or rent?
x go to the movies

Have you ever moved?
x no

Have you ever stolen anything?
x no

How's the weather right now?
x Fine, windy.

Last time you cut your hair?
x Months ago.

Last person you talked to on the
phone?
x Godfather

Last time you showered?
x An hour ago

Loud or soft music?
x Depends

Mcdonalds or Burger King?
x Mac

Night or day?
x night

Number of pillows?
x 2

Piano or guitar?
x Piano

Future job?
x Graphic designer / Copywriter

Current job?
x None

Current read?
x NO I'VE STOPPED READING =/

Current longing?
x Nokia E65

Current disappointment?
x ...nothing

Current annoyance?
x Nothing

Last thing you ate?
x Kokokrunch

Last thing you bought?
x kokokrunch

Most recent thing you are looking
forward to?
x Buying new phone =x

What are you hearing right now?
x FM Static - Tonight (WTF why is this song always playing at the time I do surveys)

Plans for the weekend?
x STUDY

What did you do today?
x mundane.

Pick a lyric, any lyric or song?
x Let's go to the park, I want to kiss you underneath the stars.

Good luck everybody for the exams.

I really have nothing to blog, maybe because I am so bloody tired now I'm off to nap.

Oh yes, picture this :

You stepped out of the lift at your block of flats.

.....You looked down, and saw a decapitated cockroach. HECK, ITS HEAD WAS MISSING.

All squashed, eeeewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.

Imagine the horror. I "EEE"-ed in disgust.

Scenario 2 :

A few nights ago, midnight, I went to the kitchen. I heard a sound, a sound of something going into a container of water to my left. My acute hearing tells me "A lizard has just dived into it,"

Much to my amusement and amazement, there was a lizard inside. My eyes were directly above the tub of water, apparently fascinated that this creature resembled its relative, the crocodile. It's able to go underwater!

So i watched, for 3 seconds, before that fucking thing decided to stun me and it just JUMPED OUT of the water and landed on the floor, right beside my feet.

GOD.

Anyway, more surveys to kill time.
[x] I'm not easy.
[x] I do wear make up.
[x] When I walk by mirrors, I can't
help but look.
[ ] I wear toe nail polish.
[x] I have cried at a movie theater
[ ] I've purposely talked to a
guy my boyfriend didn't like.
[x] I love chocolate covered pretzels
[x] Getting a flower makes me smile,
especially for no reason. ( YES YES totally. If Elvis, the hate of my life ever gives me flowers I think i'll change my mind and marry him. "Muacks dear" AHAHHA)
[ ] I've wrecked a car.
[x] I can't put mascara on without
opening my mouth.
[x] I'd do anything for a special
guy.
[x] I love cuddling.
[ ] I think Johnny Depp is hot in
Pirates of the Carribean.
[ ] I've gotten a detention.
[ ] I've gotten suspended
[x] I love to laugh.
[ ] I like rock.
[X] I like rap.
[ ] I like techno
[ ] I carry a purse.
[ ] I've been called a "party girl".
[x] I did own a Spice
girls CD.
[ ] I did own a Britney Spears CD.
[ ] Football isn't boring.
[x] I love athletic boys
[ ] I love skater boys.
[ ] I love ghetto boys.
[ ] I love emo boys.
[ ] I love BOYS
[x] Sweet guys are better than hot
guys.
[x] I've been called a tease.
[x] Lip gloss is better than
lipstick.
[ ] I can't leave the house without
makeup.
[x] I'm a bitch. Deal with it.
[x] I play video games, even
when there are other people around.
[x] My friends are the best, and
they're important to me.
[x] I can be crazy.
[ ] I really want to be with a
certain someone right now.
[ ] I smoke way too much
[ ] I have a tattoo or I want one
[x] I have been to more than 5
concerts

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[01] Is there anyone you like at the
moment?
I am neutral.

[02] Have you ever given or been given
roses?
Yeah

[03] What is your all-time favorite
romance movie?
...It has got to be..the princess diaries.

[04] How many times have you honestly
been in love?
2

[05] Do you believe that everyone has a
soul-mate?
yeah baby

[06] Do you think that you should put
your friends first?
friends over love, yea.

[07] Have you ever had your heart
broken?
...No, my heart is made of diamond. ...Duh, it's always broken. =x

[08] What do you think about
long-distance relationships?
I'll never have the maturity to handle them

[09] Your thoughts on online
relationships?
no way


[10] Would you rather date someone five
years older or five years younger?
5 years older

[11] Have you ever seen a friend as
more than a friend?
of course

[12] Do you believe the
statement, "Once
a cheater always a cheater"?
yea

[13] How many kids do you want to have?
1. I'll pamper HER or abuse HIM.

[14] Do you usually fall for the right
boy/girl?
I guess not.

[15] What is your favorite color(s)?
Black White Pink.

[16] What are your views on gay
marriages?
...

[17] Imagine you're 79 & your spouse
just died, would you re-marry?
No, definitely. Marriage = sex
Sex at 79 = HEART ATTACK

...I am crappy. Excuse me.

[18] At what age did you start noticing
the opposite sex?
The moment i had my eyes opened.

[19] What song do you want to hear at
your wedding?
National anthem. MUAHAHA er...hamster song? =X

[20] Do you think that someone likes u?
...I leave it to my friends to answer. :S

[ ] I Talk A LOT when I get really
nervous.

[x] I am really ticklish. (sometimes)

[x] I'm afraid of the dark.

[ ] I can't sleep in a room if the
door is open

[x]I can't sleep in a room if the door
is closed

[ ] I am homosexual.

[x] I believe in true love.

[ ] I've ran away from home

[ ] I listen to political music

[ ] I collect comic books

[x] I shut others out when I'm sad.

[x] I've stayed out all night.

[x] I open up to others easily.

[x] I am keeping a secret from the
world.

[x] I watch the news

[ ] I love Disney movies.

[ ] I am a sucker for green eyes.

[ ] I am a sucker for brown eyes.

[ ] I am a sucker for blue eyes

[ ] I dont kill bugs

[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.

[x] I've slipped and fell in public.

[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a real
conversation

[ ] I love Spam

[ ] I bake well.

[ ] I have worn pajamas to class.

[x] I want a better job

[x] Talked on a phone for 6+ hours.

[ ] I love Dr. Phil.

[x] I like multiple people

[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.

[x] I am self-conscious.

[x] I love to laugh.

[x] I have tried alcohol.

[ ] I drink alcohol on a regular basis.

[x] I have tried a cigarette.

[ ] I have smoked a pack in one day.

[ ] I loved Lord of the Flies.

[x] I have cough drops when I'm not
sick.

[ ] I can't swallow pills.

[x] I have a lot of scars.

[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider
in the room.

[x] I like chocolate.

[ ] I bite my nails.

[ ] I am not comfortable with being me.

[x] I play computer games when I'm
bored.

[x] Gotten lost in the city.

[x] Thought of suicide before.

[x] Seen a shooting star.

[x] Gone out in public in my pajamas

[x] Hugged a stranger.

[x] Been in a fist fight.

[x] Laughed and had some type of
beverage come out of my nose

[x] Pushed all the buttons on an
elevator.

[ ] Made out in an elevator.

[ ] Kicked a guy where it hurts on
purpose

[ ] Been skydiving.

[ ] Been bungee jumping.

[x] Gotten stitches.

[x] Drank a whole gallon of milk in
one hour

[x] Bitten someone

[ ] Been to Niagara Falls.

[x] Gotten the chicken pox.

[ ] Crashed into a car

[ ] Been to germany.

[x] Ridden in a taxi.

[ ] Shoplifted.

[x] Been fired.

[x] Had feelings for someone who
didn't have them back.

[ ] Stole something from your job.

[ ] Gone on a blind date.

[ ] Had a crush on a teacher/coach.

[ ] Celebrated Mardi Gras in New
Orleans.

[ ] Been to Europe.

[ ] Slept with a co-worker, and/or
employee.

[ ] Been married

[ ] Gotten divorced

[x] Saw someone/something dying.

[x] have a list of people you want to
kill.

[ ] Ridden in a car over 400 miles in
one day

[ ] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.

[ ] Thrown up in a bar.

[x] Eaten sushi.

[x] Cried in public.

[x] Walked purposely into traffic with
your eyes closed.

[x] Liked someone even though you knew
you shouldn't have.

[ ] Thought of someone a lot lately.

[ ] Hate the world

No point buying a new phone if everybody has it.

Therefore I shall wait for the $1.8k phone.

When we are utterly engrossed in an online game, although we know it is so virtual, we tend to abandon the realist in ourselves and go forth and immerse ourselves in that fantasy.

We meet 'awesome' people, we find them so alike and we can get along because we are both equally absorbed into the game.

But when one of the players lose interest, it's like losing the bond you have with your in-game friends.

Then the realist in us strikes back, "Aiya, who ask you! You know very well online friends play a marginal role in your life after all,"

Maybe it's just me, but I really can't keep them for long.

I met a very good friend, I think we even planned meeting up after he returns from his studies overseas. Over that 2 years we lost contact, and I 'found' him again, but we totally drifted apart.

Currently, he's finally back in Singapore. But I am not even bothered to talk to him.

---

I think Peachy is dying soon.

Before Fifi died, his sleeping posture changed. Sometimes he appears to look SO DEAD but actually he's sleeping.

The same thing is happening to my Peachy baby now. <_<

AWHAWHAHWHA...

I had a generally good day today, although there were some bumps during Chinese lesson and I almost lost my wallet.

The anger I felt just now had to do with nobody, serious.

Random : I love Miss Kong.

And I love my Godfather.

He has sort of agreed to buy me the Sirocco Gold phone.........

Me : I want the $1.8k phone, gold plated, 18 carat gold.
Him : ..I buy you the shit plated one, okay?

If i do well during my prelims or something. MUAHAHAH.

But for now, we're trying to find cheaper alternatives to buy the e65 because it's close to $700 everywhere.

But guess what.

Unfortunately, the phone is currently very high on demand, so it's OUT OF STOCK.

Me : I have 2 alternatives.
Godfather : What?
Me : 1) Buy me Chanel Sunglasses, $650. Or the phone.
Godfather : ...Crazy. I rather buy the phone.

AND THAT IS HOW...i sort of sealed my deal. LMAO =X

............


Ask me personally if you want to know who Miss Fuckface is. I really hate her pretentious self. I mean, don't like the person, just flame her. Like me, no need to be so sarcastic to her friends.

This is for her......boyfriend. (LOL wth he just signed in =x)

Hey, hey, you, you
I don't like your girlfriend
No way, no way
I think you need a new one
Hey, hey, you, you
I could be your girlfriend

Hey, hey, you, you
I know that you like me
No way, no way
No, it's not a secret
Hey, hey, you, you
I want to be your girlfriend

Only the bold parts, i SWEAR i'm not interested in him. How is it possible when he is shorter than me. AWWWWWWW

Today
-----------

1. Talk to a boy/girl you like?
YES, I TALKED TO BELINDA. If it's in 'that' context, no lah duh. I don't even have anybody in mind in the very first place.

2. Learn anything new?
i'm always learning something new. it's just remembering it that's the problem.

3. Talk to an ex?
....

4. Miss someone?
NO, NEVER. HAHAHAHA =X No, duh.

-Last Person Who-
------------------------

5. Was in your bed?
PeachyBoy.

6. Made you cry?
Can't remember. I think Fifi?

7. You went to the movies with?
Dewi

8. Went to the mall with you?
Belinda.

9. You showered with?
.................

10. Who Made you laugh?
Right at this very moment : Trent + Jf + MR.S.V, sorry i cant reveal =x

11. Said they loved you?
BELINDA


--General stuff--
-------------------
16. Favorite location?
..Anywhere. It's the people that matters.

18. What are you most scared of this second?
Mid years

19. Where do you want to get married?
I don't want to get married

21. Does anyone like you?
everyone fucking likes me. <-- LOL i love the previous previous person's answer.

22. Do you like being around people?
people i like, yeah.

23. Have you ever cried?
No, i wailed.

24. Are you lonely right now?
NOT.

25. Song stuck in your head?
FM Static - Tonight

26. Been on radio/TV?
nope

28. Ever dated someone who treated you like crap?
Nah.

19. What color shirt do you have on now?
white

31. Name three things that you do every day?
talk to hamster, play with hamster, feed hamster

32. How much cash do you have on you right now?
$55...........to be deposited.

33. are you bored?
If i wasn't i wouldnt be doing this

34. whats your favorite show?
cant remember

35. Who got you to join Myspace?
haven't joined.

37. Wish someone was next to you this morning when you woke up?
Never.

38. What web site do you visit the most?
Blogs i like such as ohamsters and beautifuk @ blogspots.com OOH, Daphne's too.

39. Do you have plants in your room?
nope.

41. Who was the last person to hug you?
I CANT REMEMBER, AWWWWW

21 SECRETS

1.WHAT IS YOUR DISPLAY NAME ABOUT?
Verbiagelover. Private message....(;

2. WHERE WAS YOUR DEFAULT PICTURE TAKEN?
No idea

3. WHATS YOUR HEADLINE MEAN?
??

4. HONESTLY, IF SOMEONE WERE TO TELL YOU HOW THEY FELT, WOULD YOU LISTEN?
How they felt about what?

5. WHATS YOUR CURRENT MOOD?
Neutral.

6. RAIN OR SNOW????
rain loh.

7. HOW ARE THINGS IN YOUR RELATIONSHIP?
which one?

8. IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, AND CHANGE SOMETHING WOULD YOU?
Yeah

10. EVER HAD A NEAR DEATH EXPERIENCE?
yea, almost got banged.......by a giraffe by a car.

11. WHAT'S THE NAME OF THE SONG THAT'S STUCK IN YOUR HEAD?
Tonight.

12. WHO DID YOU COPY AND PASTE THIS FROM?
some sad fsck on blogger. my sister to be exact.

13. HAVE YOU EVER SANG IN FRONT OF A LARGE AUDIENCE?
yes.

14. WHAT'S THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Size matters. HAHAHA.....looks

15. WHAT DO YOU USUALLY ORDER FROM STARBUCKS?
i dont like starfbucks.

16. DO YOU STILL WATCH KIDDY MOVIES OR TV SHOWS?
nope

17. DO YOU HAVE BRACES?
no

18. SOMETHING THAT HAPPENED TO YOU TODAY?
I got scolded "FUCK YOU GO AWAY" by a giraffe whose parents just got poached.

19. DO YOU SPEAK ANY OTHER LANGUAGE?
mainly english

20. IS THERE SOMEONE/SOMETHING ON YOUR MIND NOW?
definitely?

21. WHAT HURTS YOU AT THE MOMENT?
sleepiness.

1. Your most recent 'ex' and You are
ah, thank goodness for quotation marks. we are fine thank you.

2. I am listening to
Cassie - Me and You remix feat P.Diddy

3. Maybe I should
SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEP

4. I love
chocolates

5. My best friend(s)
sleeping

6. I don't understand
many things.

7. I lost my respect for
my dad. sad but true.

8. I last ate
chocolate. with rum. hooo.

9. I will never forget
you.

10. I smell
funky.

11. Someday..
i will.........die.

12. Politically, I believe
there shouldn't be politics.

13. Love seems to..
....?

14. I never ever want to lose
... too many things

15. My myspace is
non-existent

17. I get annoyed at
mosquitoes

18. Parties are
depends on who.

20. Kisses are
depends on who you are kissing

21. Today I
kept laughing and getting irritated

22. I hope
you'll have a rotten day. thanks for reading!

My life is fucked up.

I face 2 conspiring + biased bitches at home.

Not enough.

I see fuckers in school too, and practically everywhere.

*Cues Michelle Branch's "Everywhere" *

<______________________<

Verbiagelover I'll strangle you with my neck and get MYSELF expelled says:
U TEACHING ME

Verbiagelover I'll strangle you with my neck and get MYSELF expelled says:
SO MUCH SICK THINGS

Verbiagelover I'll strangle you with my neck and get MYSELF expelled says:
HOR HOR

Verbiagelover I'll strangle you with my neck and get MYSELF expelled says:
YOU WHORE

The Procrastinator says:
AHHAHAHAHAH

The Procrastinator says:
.

Verbiagelover I'll strangle you with my neck and get MYSELF expelled says:
HOR HOR YOU WHORE

The Procrastinator says:
.

The Procrastinator says:
o h

The Procrastinator says:
aosphfo

The Procrastinator says:
ahfdo

The Procrastinator says:
I WHERE GOT

The Procrastinator says:
TEACH U BAD THINGS

The Procrastinator says:
SEX EDUCATION IS GOOD OK

The Procrastinator says:
LMAO

Verbiagelover I'll strangle you with my neck and get MYSELF expelled says:
O.O..

Verbiagelover I'll strangle you with my neck and get MYSELF expelled says:
ya

Verbiagelover I'll strangle you with my neck and get MYSELF expelled says:
i can impress my husband in futureHA

Verbiagelover I'll strangle you with my neck and get MYSELF expelled says:
AHA

Verbiagelover I'll strangle you with my neck and get MYSELF expelled says:
AHA

The Procrastinator says:
HAHAHAH

The Procrastinator says:
THE WORD IMPRESS

The Procrastinator says:
MAKES ME TINK OF

The Procrastinator says:
DEPRESS

The Procrastinator says:
DEN

The Procrastinator says:
I WAS LIKE

The Procrastinator says:
U CAN DEPRESS UR HUSBAND NEXT TIME

Verbiagelover I'll strangle you with my neck and get MYSELF expelled says:
o.o..

The Procrastinator says:
WAD

Verbiagelover I'll strangle you with my neck and get MYSELF expelled says:
LOL

Verbiagelover I'll strangle you with my neck and get MYSELF expelled says:
..

The Procrastinator says:
SIT ON TOP OF HIS

Verbiagelover I'll strangle you with my neck and get MYSELF expelled says:
at first

Verbiagelover I'll strangle you with my neck and get MYSELF expelled says:
he is

The Procrastinator says:
****

The Procrastinator says:
AHD o

Verbiagelover I'll strangle you with my neck and get MYSELF expelled says:
'impressed'

Verbiagelover I'll strangle you with my neck and get MYSELF expelled says:
then after i do my thing

The Procrastinator says:
phdaophdaopHAHAH

The Procrastinator says:
aHAHAH
AHAHAHAH

Verbiagelover I'll strangle you with my neck and get MYSELF expelled says:
'depressed' lor

The Procrastinator says:
LMAOOOOOOOO

The Procrastinator says:
WTF

That corny "I touch myself" song which Trent happily downloaded and sent me...i don't know how it ended in my sister's media library.

She must be thinking I am sick.

I didn't know my godfather was so funny.

Him : Have you registered your mp3?
Me : Huh..havent.
Him : Like that how to send for repair? Don't have proof that you got the warranty you know. You should have registered it asap bla bla
Me : ...nvm what, got the box.
Him : And yeah. Old man very easy to bluff people. I can always ask them how to register on a computer, what is a computer, why no card, and all sorts of stupid questions.

HAHAHAHHAHAHA

Him : I've checked the phone already. The guy said can upgrade plan to 3G plan, around $40.
Me : That's good what, get it lah. I won't use 3g.
Him : I trust other people but not you

.....

Anyway, it's a..very, drifty sunday. I always hibernate on sundays. ~.~

Seriously I am in love with the Nokia E65. It's like how I fell in love with my bag. Walk pass the shops, see it on display, and then like it.

BUT IT'S SO GODDAMNED EXPENSIVE.

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